Other Woman

I mentioned in a previous discussion that I usually do three-month periods with my KH, only experiencing ruined orgasms on the last couple of release days. This round is different: she hasn’t fixed a date and mostly just teases me verbally while ignoring the lockup itself. During a casual chat, she told me she’ll recognize when I’m properly ready for another go. So anyway, I adore this woman more than anything else in my life. She’s wonderful and shakes up my world completely. After 32 years together, I’d never look elsewhere or hurt her. But with her new approach and no set release date, other women are getting to me a lot now. Whether older or younger (legally young), they all get me excited. Sure, I’ve always found women attractive, but this feels different. My ‘woman radar’ seems on steroids right now. When I spot them at the gas station, in shops, walking down the street, or even at work, I feel arousal rising just from seeing and hearing their voices—whether in person or on TV—and it never stops. The peak was back at the beach in St. Martin; I nearly went up the walls. It’s not a negative thing, though unusual for me to admit that my KH still gets me going when she’s around or on my mind. Just wondering if anyone else experiences this.

I refer to it as the 'Superman' phase because I get a heightened sensitivity to everything female. During one recent long cycle, I was unlocked in the morning and tasked with doing my weekly shopping while Chatelaine went out for lunch with a friend. On this occasion, an aggressive side of me emerged; I felt predatory—like how I picture a rapist feels after making up his mind to attack. It was quite a disturbing experience.