Wspaniel ... the trek or the dive ...

So, I suppose rather than posting in multiple threads, I’ll quickly explain how I ended up with a chastity device and how things are going… I think this blog-style forum is a great concept. I’ll try to sum it up briefly so you can get a sense of me and my KH. Basically, I’ve been kinky all my life. I enjoyed tying games since I could remember and experimented with binding myself when I was too young to understand why finding helplessness arousing felt right. A little later on, I discovered that I also enjoy anal-play. I think it was by looking at a drawing of a medical prostate-examination in some book that I got the idea to try touching this part of my body and found that I enjoyed it… In my late teenage years, me and my KH met and found each other. We hit off very well and fell in love quickly. However, I never really told her about my fetishes. I hinted at them but was always turned down with a disgusted look or some bad words… It made me hide inside because I really loved this girl and it pained me a bit that I had to keep things hidden. Years passed … many many years … in fact 12 years or so. I kept all those secrets and perfected them. I found my fetish for chastity, but never really read about devices or anything. I thought it to be a myth. I hid bondage equipment and became a master of self-bondage. Tying myself up, teasing myself with automatic vibrators etc. However after 12 years I just could not take it anymore. I had to question myself if I wanted to spend the rest of my life like this. It was very hard for me because I loved my KH but I did not want to hide all this from her any longer. So I came out to her … oh and how I did it … all in a rush and all in one day… Looking back I have to hold it very very high in her regard that she did not scream and run away:-) Being hit with stuff like this in the matter of a few hours was certainly not easy to swallow. However funny enough what she found most baffling was that I had hidden it for so long. No more disgusting looks or thoughts… just sadness that she made me hide it. To make it short … we both cried, felt silly, and felt love for one another bloom heavily once more because of sharing all the truths… She told me she wanted to share my fantasies and be part of them… which made me the happiest man on earth. Over the course of time I showed her all my toys and explained them to her. She was quite curious if not going out of her way to use them right away… I asked her if she would like to help me with this chastity fantasy of mine and she instantly agreed… We are still progressing. My coming-out was last year and what can I say where we are now? Well I am in my Steelheart with PA fixing (didn’t have a PA or circumcision before, now I have) … and she has all the key. Yesterday was over two weeks of my lockup and she said she finally decided how long she wanted to keep me locked … she gave a ratio … 10 orgasms for her and she will free me … bad deeds will raise this bar, good ones lower it … Now … perhaps I should say that she is not the type of person that wants sex all the time… this leaves me a bit hanging … 10 orgasms for her can take from 2 weeks to half a year! Depending on her moods… however I think this time she is enjoying herself a lot more and perhaps it will be shorter… By the way, we bought a strap-on dildo at the beginning of this year. We have never used it since then and it was stuffed away… however two weeks ago at the beginning of my lockup she told me to take it out and use it on her … and she liked it a LOT … said it was as good as my real tool … By the way, we are in progress of molding my “real tool” and make a dildo out of it so she can use my “real tool” with the strap-on instead of unlocking me! …:shock: I am curious where all this will lead. I will keep you posted.

> member_39df723038 wrote:By the way, we are in progress of molding my "real tool" and make a dildo out of it so she can use my "real tool" with the strap-on instead of unlocking me! ...:shock: I suspect that you will be disappointed. I hope I'm wrong, but everything I've read from people trying to use the "clone-a-willy" or similar items has indicated that while you get a good *looking* replica, the silicone used just doesn't have the feel that the better classes of dildoes get by using several layers of varying hardness. But it would certainly be fun trying it out.

I am not using any premade set to clone my "willy" ... I ordered Alginate, different Silicones (various shore factors), colors, etc. In fact it worked out really really well. I copied my toy to a plaster positive already. Then I used various tools to smooth the edges and some contours etc. Now I am making another negative mold form from this plaster dick with silicone. When it is finished, i will use it as negative for a silicone positive. I have been playing around with various hardness levels and I think something between 15 and 30 is fine:-) ... you can also mix those to get the result you want:-) I will see if I can find some images to post:-)

Ok ... so yesterday was my birthday ... I got a summer flue and was feverish, so I stayed home from work. In fact I am still feverish and at home right now. This gave me some time to play with the silicone. I managed to make a silicone mold and produce a perfect copy of my plaster-dick with blue silicone already with a base-ring to fit into the strap-on harness... Man this thing will be my ruin! It really worked very nicely. The dildo looks like a smoothed down replica of my own dick and feels just wonderful... I tried on the strapon harness this morning and put the dildo in... it was totally frustrating because I could hold and feel my own erect silicone dick while my real one was throbbing in the tube... By the way my KH is really getting along. She was hinting at the beginning of this week that on my birthday she would take the key to bed with her etc. I was "Oh god yes, please!" ... yesterday morning I could please her in bed and yesterday night I thought she would let me out, however it was just pleasure for her once more ....:-) Such a "bitch" ....;-):mrgreen::P At the moment she is enjoying herself a lot more than she used to. I like that change in her. Not having to please me afterwards is certainly giving her a lot more relaxed view on sex and she is much quicker to simply take her pleasures. I can not remember when the last time was that she wanted an orgasm twice a day! ... At the moment it is quite predictable for me that when I am let out I am going to cum... however when I talked to this with her (a while back) she said: "Oh, then we will make sure it won't be that way..." she understands the tease part of the tease and denial game but I think it might be too much "work" for her. She never was a "planner" in sexual things which means we only had sex when she was in the mood at the exact right time and I was around. However a tease might have to be planned a bit in advance and at the moment I don't think she will/can do that. But who knows. She has changed so quickly so much, that I can really not predict anything:-) Speaking of non-predictability... damn it... she broke my record already. I am in now for 19 days ... and I am getting really really horny ...:-) I am hoping for a release soon and at the same time I would wish she would just tease me to hell and continue this game... strange feeling craving and "fearing" the big O...

A few weeks ago I called my KH "crontrol freak" when I cleaned up the room and putting things away in drawers and stuff and she started looking in each drawer if I positioned the things in the way "they have to be" ... it was a funny comment by me and she teased me by indicating that for such comments I might get "bonus" time:-) Anyway, I told her I thought it funny because in these areas she wants to control everything, but when it comes to letting me out for a shower, she just says: "I trust you..." and leaves me alone and free in the shower without even a glance... She considered that and said that I am right. Since that moment I have not been free in the shower without her sitting beside it and manicuring herself in some way or another (pulling hairs, making nails, etc.) and occasionally glancing inside the shower if I am still a "nice boy" ... or sending a comment my way like: "I think it is clean by now, stop rubbing it..." Also we have a nice stainless steel collar that I wear on such occasions, just in case I don't feel like going back into the device. Until recently I also was the only one that did the lock-up. It can be fiddly to get the small integrated lock of the Steelheart in and so I just locked myself up and gave her the key. I asked her if she wants to give it a try and she agreed. At first she did not even know how to fit and turn the key and stuff .. but ever since then she is the one to insert and lock the integrated lock now... and she is enjoying that small act a LOT ...:-) Makes me really happy to see the glint in her eyes when she does it... On Sunday night I was let out for a shower and was allowed to stay free! When coming to the bedroom she tied my hands up (we use this Segufix style locks with self-made cuffs that can only be opened with the magnet which is out of reach for me). She then turned over and said I was allowed to sleep this way. Man was I horny... I cuddled close to her, nacked and aroused. I could not touch or caress her with my hands, but I could nibble and kiss her neck. Eventually she was aroused by it and undressed herself. She rubbed herself against me and used my dick to arouse herself at her tender spots. I was moaning by that time. She then started pleasing herself beside me and using her vibrator. I wanted sooooo much to touch her, but could not because of the ties... While doing this she also started massaging me and I was allowed to cum ... after exactly 3 weeks ... my record and MAN was this 3 weeks a ride... Afterwards I thought she would untie my, but she did not! She cleaned myself up and went to sleep. I spent the whole night tied up. I woke up occasionally but generally it was manageable. She said she did not trust me not to masturbate another time and that she thinks one time is enough for me... She is right, I certainly would have masturbated another time!... Came morning I begged her to untie me because I needed to go to the toilet. She rolled over and unlocked the cuffs and at the same time handed me the key and said: "Be so nice and lock yourself up right afterwards"... uffff ... you all know how hard it is after an Orgasm to lock yourself back in. I really really did NOT want to go back in the device. Right after the orgasm it was worse than in the morning, but it was still not a good feeling. I know this always happens after an orgasm and usually I want it just a day later, but at that moment I just did not ...:-) However I was a "nice boy", still wearing my steel collar, and I locked myself up ... reluctantly and all, but seeing her grin when I handed her the key rewarded me:-) Oh ... so I am just back in since Sunday night/Monday morning. I have read it before and know from my own experience... the first days are the worst. I feel horny all the time and thinking that I will be locked up again for I don't know how long is really really frustrating. I was so horny last night, that I even tried rattling and shaking the device to get some relieve. This has worked for me one time when the device was totally new... but yesterday it did NOT work... I kept wondering what was different. I just did not feel much pleasure. Where before the rubbing of the metal against my glans turned me on so much that I had an orgasm, this time instead I felt all pinches and small pains of my scrotum and A-ring burning etc. Before the pleasure out drove those small pains, but now those keep distracting me far more than the small pleasure I get from shaking the device. So I gave up very frustrated and even more aroused, pained a bit because I was so hard that my skin kept getting pinched in all different places... However I was somewhat glad I did not manage to get off:) My KH was wondering how to decide my lockup time... We joked around and I mentioned dice rolls if she can not think of anything. She was instantly interested and said that is perfect! I said that perhaps if she really wanted to do dicing she could use them to decide free time, tease time, orgasm time as well if she likes. Most KHs as far as I have read from others don't enjoy any game "dictating" what they have or don't have to do... my KH found the idea thrilling ... to my absolute wondering. I mentioned that we could instead of dices use empty playing cards (I have a few hundred empty ones from my childhood yet!) to write down stuff on them and then shuffle and draw... she agreed and said she wants to do this... I asked her if she really wanted to have cards dictate her/our actions etc. and she said yes because this way she can plan things and prepare for them. Very interesting.... I am curious if this "game" will work for us... we will give it a try and come up with a nice game she enjoys. This will not be a game just for "the men" as many are that you can find online, but a game that equally gives me tasks to do for her and increases my chances for pleasure/teasing/orgasm for doing them... and leaves enough room for her to change the game if she does not like a thing:-) I will keep you posted.

Have to make another post and praise the Steelheart... As devices go, this one is extremely comfortable for me. I have been able to walk, run, drive for hours, go to the gym with it, cycle and even do horseback-riding... all without so much as feeling it or having any problems with it... Last week I visited my father who has a pool in his garden. My KH said she will decide if I get freed by how I look in bath-trousers... When I presented myself to her she just smiled and said: "I am afraid, you will stay locked..." The device was not visible at all under my bathing shorts... So we went and I played around in the pool with the others and laying out in the sun etc. without anyone ever noticing or glancing my way. Really a good device ...

So, I went back into lockup right after my release last week. Since then a lot has happened. As mentioned before, I toyed with the idea of introducing a card game for me and my KH. At first, I was quite reluctant because I didn't want to add any kind of dictation to our chastity dynamic. However, she thought it was a great idea. She felt it would give her more initiative in playing with me and make it easier for her to decide when, how, etc. Actually, from my childhood days, I had hundreds of empty playing cards somewhere in a dusty drawer. This must have been around 20 years ago; I didn't remember them but stumbled upon them while digging through drawers looking for dice, etc. So I painted some cards. I asked her if she wanted to include "tasks" on the deck as well, and she agreed. Basically, our game worked like this: I created one "chance" card and 7 blank ones. She also wanted to randomize the events that could happen during playtime. So I mixed up various kinky things she could do to me, which might result in just a tease or a ruined orgasm, or rather rarely, a full release. Each morning she would assign tasks for me to fulfill throughout the day. If she decided I did them well, she let me draw from both this chance deck and her playtime deck. In case I drew the "chance" card, I could be released that evening depending on what was drawn in the playtime deck... but here's the twist: I wouldn't know until evening if I had actually drawn the "chance" card or not... nor would I know how it would end... She herself draws a task-card from her own deck, which she has to fulfill during the day. These include small teases, sending dirty SMS messages, verbal teasing, etc. I included plenty of blank cards in this deck too so she gets lots of nice days where she doesn't have to do anything extra. Ok... all of this sounds awfully artificial when written down like this. I told her over and over again that it's just a silly game and she didn't *have* to follow the rules on those cards strictly. She just smiled and said: "Oh yes, I must... why not?" ... I tried explaining that it might just be some sort of "idea" generation and nothing forcing either her or me to do anything specific... but she seemed really fine with it and wanted to give things a go... So we started playing. On this Saturday after a week of lockup (and no teasing), I drew the "chance" card. I didn't know until afternoon when she came over and said, "Sweety, we need to talk about this card-game." ... I told her sure thing, and if she wanted to stop playing this stupid game stuff... she blushed and said No, that's not it ... but you drew the chance card and the playtime card says something I have never done before and don't know much about. ... I had to smile with her and embrace her and asked what was written on the card... Ok, the card read: She could decide if I was to do some anal-dildo-play by myself or if she would do it... and it would end in one or more ruined orgasms ... I had to grin a bit because this card is rather "heavy" for her. We have never done anal play together before. She was always afraid of it being dirty, etc. She kept insisting that since my coming-out to her and our lots and lots of talking, she has changed her mind and wants to do this with me, but we haven't yet, not in over a year now... and she didn't know much about ruined orgasms at all ... So we cuddled together and I explained things. I told her what a ruined orgasm is, how it works, the difference between that and a fulfilling one, etc. I also said she did not have to touch me; I would do it myself if she was afraid or anything... she could just watch and learn ... and if she really didn't want to do things herself, I wouldn't make her. I didn't want to scare her off or disgust her... She said that she wanted to go to the bathtub with me ... we would see where it leads later... While she put some hot water in the tub, I cleaned myself thoroughly ... and I mean truly thoroughly. You cannot imagine how afraid I was that somehow I might confirm her fears that anal play could be dirty, etc. In my head I knew it wouldn't be so; I have played with myself a thousand times and when I clean/flush myself properly, there is no dirt or stench or smell... however even knowing this, I was worried something would happen exactly at the moment I would play with her... I was set free from my Steelheart device and we went to the bath-tub together. We relaxed and I started massaging her; she soon became very aroused. We moved into our bedroom and continued there. Soon I was eating her out, and it wasn't long before I brought her to climax... She rolled over and said ... now it's my turn and she wanted to give this ruined orgasm thingy a try ... I told her I was "THOROUGHLY" clean and if she wanted we could play a bit there as well? ... Before she could reply, I whisked the smallest buttplug into view and told her it could stay in during the playtime; she wouldn't have to do anything with it... At first, she couldn't believe it would stay in until I explained that the shape of the plug is exactly for that purpose. I had to smile because she really was so unknowing about all those things. Well, I was allowed to continue and soon lay beside her with the plug inside me... and she took control of the remote ... switching up a notch ... She started exploring me ... touching my balls and dick and even tapping the buttplug... She seemed to start enjoying this quite a lot... She said she wanted to try finding the right moment to stop herself, and I told her I would signal when to stop if she wasn't sure... She played with the butt-plug settings, turning them up to maximum, making me moan in bliss. I was so highly aroused by the whole situation... by her fondling me, my lockup time, having the buttplug for the first time together ... etc ... it didn't take long until I felt the edge. However, I always said "stop" a tiny moment too early ... because I was afraid of going over the edge and getting a full orgasm instead. So we repeated this a few times without me climaxing... We edged closer and closer to the perfect point when to stop and then she hit it right on time ... I dripped cum ... no squirting, no hip-rocking, no back-arching ... just the cum slowly dripping down my cock ... I have not experienced ruined orgasms myself before much. I tried in the past but couldn't stop stimulating myself ... and always ended up with a real orgasm:-) ... I guess my self-control is lacking a bit;-) Anyway, so this was my first ruined one ... it was strange ... it WAS pleasurable ... it WAS frustrating ... it made me even hornier ... very fascinating ... and my cock did not lose the erection ... it kept standing there, ready to go ... She found this very fascinating. It was totally new for both of us. She then said that I had been so sweet the last week and done many things for her, that she wanted to relieve me and give me a full orgasm now instead. That one ruined orgasm was enough; she felt I deserved a real release... because I earned it. I was totally happy to oblige her in this request, so she continued stroking me. After moments, I felt myself edging again. It was wonderful and I was in bliss steering toward a huge orgasm. I felt the edge drive past it and just then she said: "Or rather ... I have changed my mind" ... and stopped again ... I was like WTF!!! ... and then felt another drip of cum on my belly... which she commented with delighted laughter and something like: "I did it! ... I really did it!!!" ... I slumped back into the pillows and moaned. She had hit the stopping point so exactly... even more accurately than I could have told her myself. It truly felt cheated out of my pleasure.:-) ... And I felt very, very proud of her because she managed this exact point all by herself. She just added an "So, it's time for lockup again..." to seal my fate... Later when I was back in the cage, we talked about everything. I asked if she felt that right moment to stop and she said yes; it is feelable. "The first time I called stop, she mentioned she wouldn't have stopped anyway, but during the second instance when I remained silent, she could sense it... my contractions and how often they occurred as I was nearing climax. She noted that the anal-play wasn't causing her any discomfort or issue ... she felt a little regretful for not exploring it earlier ... I simply kissed her and we pulled close together ... and once more I noticed my erection pressing against the cage. It silently struck me as fascinating how those interrupted orgasms hadn't drained away my arousal or horniness; if anything, they may have boosted them... And I was pleased she "changed her tune":-) Following day ... she would draw for me again, pulling the "chance" card once more... Although that outcome is quite rare, we adjusted our rules. Rather than using a deck with blanks and just one chance card, we created a numbered deck. I'd pick a number to determine how many days my lockup lasted until the next tease ... this allows us to balance small versus high numbers (adjusting the odds of events happening sooner or later) while she knows ahead of time exactly when and what will occur ... So ... let's see where this game takes us ... I'd love your feedback if you're keen on more updates and details regarding this plunge into chastity:-)

> So ... we shall see where this game takes us ... I would appreciate your input if you are interested in more updates and details about this plunge into chastity:-) Thanks...you've given me a great case of blue-balls. "More, please" he said masochistically.

@TwistedMister: Thanks! He he ... let's see if my journey will give you more of those ... Since I have no clue what and when something will happen I can not promise;-) I can just promise to keep you posted. @Dsrv: Well, let's face it. We males that are locked up in chastity have had all the time of our life to come up with a lot of dreams and fantasies. Often our KHs are not even aware of how much we fantasize about those things. When I thought about making such a "game" I was unsure if it is a good idea. As said, I don't want to dictate any "happenings" or stuff, but my KH urged me to do it. It seems she too likes the idea of me coming up with ideas. If she likes them she may/will use them, if she does not, she will not. But those cards give her some new ideas and some insight in what I am wishing/fearing/fantasizing about:-) Not much news from my life:-) My KH drew a blank card yesterday from her task-stack, so she got a relax day for herself. I don't know what number-card I have drawn the day before and what tease or how the outcome will be. It is very thrilling to know something WILL come up eventually if my KH is pleased but not knowing what it will be or how it will end...:-) Guess that is what a "tease" is about;-) The only other thing that is happening is, that I am currently in the process of planning and making an Android application for this sort of game. The plan is the following. Create a small application that can be installed on the phone of my KH. The application does mostly what the card-game does. It allows the KH to randomize a date and randomize a tease and an end-result of that tease (climax, ruined, edge ... ). The application itself is password protected (PIN) and it will remind my KH of how many days I have been locked up, how many days are left until the teasing and some more funny little features (her vs my orgasm rating? *G*) Perhaps if other couples are interested in something like this we could share the application and create something like a shared tease database online where ppl. could download different "card-decks" for their own use and create new cards/scenarios for themselves and others to use...

The app sounds fun.

Ok ... the app is coming along really nice:-) I will post some screenshots when I have time:-) Last week was surprising again. On Thursday night I was told that I had drawn a number 4 card and actually this would have meant that on this day some action was due... however due to organisational reasons (KH tired;-)) she wanted to move it to Friday night. On Friday evening she was feeling tired and hinted at not wanting to play. I told her if we could not just go take a hot bath and give it a try:-) We did and we ended up in bed... where I started to give her a full body massage and soon was teasing her between her legs... Since I was unlocked and free I placed my cock between her legs as well and she soon was using it to rub around her clit. I was soooo turned on. She was laying on her side and I behind her with my dick between her legs when she then whispered if I wanted to stick it in for a bit ... Needless to say what my answer was. Soon I was moving in and out of her and she moaned and enjoyed herself, massaging herself. I asked her if I should tell her if I was about to come... she just said "No" ... so for me this meant I was allowed an Orgasm! However I choose to concentrate and keep going for another while. She took down a vibrator and brought herself quickly over the edge while I was moving with her. She let me continue afterwards and I quickly built up and was coming closer and closer to the edge... she just turned around and said: "I think it is time to pull out..." I did ... and she laid me out on my back and continued to give me a hand job. I was soon at the edge again and as I nearly had feared ... she ruined my orgasm again. This time she stopped and I just kept contracting and contracting and after like 20 seconds without stimulation I started to leak slowly out... I moaned and she laughed... "Cleanup and lock back up..." was all she said. Later when I was back in the cage, still raging hard and wanting nothing more than to really really cum finally, I asked her if I could have had an orgasm before? She said yes, she took that "risk". She said that our playing-cards did mention a blowjob and a ruined orgasm but she changed it to sex and during all the stimulation she received she did not care if I came or not... *G* ... afterwards when she had had her pleasure, her wits came back and she decided I was not allowed after all...:P ... and she really loves those ruined orgasms ... she is totally excited by her new skill and that she manages to find that point so exactly ... I guess after 12 years of relationship she just knows me and when I am about to cum... Next day she drew more cards ... been near 3 weeks now without a real orgasm ... and depending on what end-result-cards she draws I might have 2-24 days more to go... Since there were only 2 ruined-orgasm cards in the deck (and they are out now)... I know that the next end-results can only be edges or the final orgasm;-) ... damn damn damn ... so not even a ruined one anymore ... Since that night my KH is suffering a bladder infection:-( She sometimes gets these after penetrative sex and we don't really know why. I am super-clean and she is super-clean and we are both healthy and she goes to pee after sex to flush bacteria etc... This really is not making her feel good about penetrative sex:-(

> member_39df723038 wrote: ... and she really loves those ruined orgasms ... she is totally excited by her new skill and that she manages to find that point so exactly ... I guess after 12 years of relationship she just knows me and when I am about to cum... Sounds like my wife. She is really enjoying the the ruined orgasms as well, I know she likes my reactions to them. I must say that I am enjoying having my orgasm ruined, it leaves me so damn horny. It's been over 5 months now since I've had real orgasm and I don't know that my wife has any intentions of allowing me one, which makes me all the hornier thinking about it.

My KH is still in pain because of her bladder infection. She took the antibiotics but it is still uncomfortable. On top of it she got her period now. She always has a strong bleeding and uterus cramps to go with it as well... so she currently really is not feeling well. I try to make life as nice and good for her as I can ... We were watching tv in the evening. I was snuggling close to her and she was waiting for the pain medication to kick in before going to bed. I slumbered away beside her while stroking her gently. She pulled my hand towards her and placed it upon her breasts. I was astonished, because she usually does not like touching her breasts when not highly aroused. I could not hold back and caressed her breasts lightly while getting very aroused myself. I turned to her and asked how I deserved this treat. She smiled and said for staying up with her... Later in the bathroom we both undressed but I and she were too tired to unlock and go showering. However she snuggled close and I would press my naked body against hers and caress her and kiss her and she very much enjoyed this "foreplay" ... I knew she would not want more but just liked the attention ... and she grabbed my cock, felt that it was straining against the cage and smiled a big smile before going to bed... This morning she allowed me to take a shower... she even went down and did NOT watch me. Damn it was hard not to masturbate ... I was free ... I was aroused ... I didn't have a enjoyable orgasm since nearly 3 weeks now ... and she was trusting me to be nice ... I showered ... soaped up perhaps a bit more than necessary around my private parts, cleaned thoroughly ... and refrained from taking myself over the edge ... later I toweled dry, and used a bit of lube on my cock ... perhaps I lubed and massaged a bit more than absolute necessary there too ... and stopped right before the edge as well ... looking down I could see i was leaking precum around my PA already ... so I decided it was really time to stop and go back in the cage or I would loose all self-control. I locked myself back up ... I went down and my KH waved me over and checked the lock ... funny to check the lock and leave me free before;-) ... I told her that I felt really lucky to have her. I often read posts on the internet of men that want to introduce their wifes/partners to kinky stuff (eg. chastity, bondage, etc.) and their partners totally refuse it, refuse to even think about it etc... and I was so lucky to have her try this with me... She just grinned at me and said: "I have only found good things in it so far... pleasure whenever I want, an attentive partner, help in the household ... absolute control and faithfulness ..." :-) Indeed ... I never thought she would enjoy this "play" so much ...

So, where to start... The weekend came and the last week was a bit disappointing for me. I know my KH was having her period and also the bladder infection to go with it. Needless to say, she was not feeling well. The days went by very slowly, and they all were the same. I tried to be very nice to her, do massages and try to help her get through it as quickly as possible. Might sound selfish, but I felt neglected a bit. I was ignored a lot. Wake up, do my chores, go back to bed ... not much touching or cuddling and not much talk. She did get me aroused a time or two by pressing her hips against me. However it was all in a way that I knew nothing would happen for sure... Yes, this game is about dedication to your KH and going through such times and make them as good for her as possible. However it really is not easy ... it is over three weeks now (a new record again by the way) and I am really really horny and want to touch myself ... being denied and ignored in this state is very very hard for me. Come this weekend I was beginning to wonder if she would ignore our cardgame as well and simply not do anything "kinky". As Saturday night went by and we again went to bed without so much as any hint I was feeling quite desperate. On Sunday morning I wanted to start the day nice for her and started massaging her feet while she was waking up. I continued up her thighs and asked her if I was allowed to go further upwards. She nodded and soon I was enjoying a massage of her most sensitive parts. I was totally happy to finally be able to touch her again and make her moan. During this time I noticed the golden key to my device on her bedside table! So she did have some plans for me since the night before, else she would not have taken the key from the hiding place and put it on her table! ... I continued to stroke and massage her and then went and fetched the silicone replica of my cock that I have created. I started rubbing it between her legs and could tell she was enjoying it. To make a long story short, soon I was allowed to fetch the strap-on set and use it together with my silicone replica to pleasure her while using my fingers to bring her over the edge to a great orgasm. It was a very intense feeling. I could practically see my own cock pleasing her ... and feel my own cock in the device, straining to be in place of my replica;-) Afterwards we talked and she said that it felt really good. Almost like the real thing she said. I asked if it was too hard or too soft and she said it was just right ... I grinned and hinted at the key on her bedside table ... and told her I saw it earlier. She said yes, she'd had some plans for me but since I had been allowed to fuck her with the strap-on this was changed since it was actually better than what I would have gotten from her anyway ... I moaned ... Today in the morning I was allowed to draw new cards. When I drew the card that indicated the time when something would happen to me she laughed aloud ... and when she did ... I knew that I had drawn a high number... she confirmed it by telling me that it NEARLY could not have been a higher number... meaning I will be locked away for at least another week. And after that week I don't know if it will be an orgasm finally or something else. I know that there are just two cards left in the "how it all ends" deck... one was an edging as far as I remember ... and one was the orgasm ... my chances after this week are 50/50 I would say ... It is very funny ... being in cage for over three weeks without a real orgasm is making me really horny and really frustrated because I really really would like to whack off now ... if I am just ignored in this state it is very very hard for me, but if I am allowed to eg. please her like I did on Sunday morning, then it is not so hard anymore. It almost is like a sort of "vent". When I hear her moan and see her orgasm it is so rewarding for me that I think I can quite easily take another week ... I just hope now that she feels better I will get some teasing in between and some cuddly time and time to make her feel good:P

Last night was wonderful... I nagged my KH a bit since two days to relax and take some pleasures. She is the type of women that tends to forget her own relaxation and pleasures when there is stress in real life. She has a hard time simply leaning back and forgetting everything else for a moment, always thoughts of work, family, todo lists etc. would pop up in her mind and make it hard to impossible for her to enjoy anything else. Yesterday we went to the shower and she used this occasion to unlock me and tease me a bit. I knew it was not a release and she made that clear as well by leaving the base-ring on me (which I would not be able to get back on with an erection). So, clean we went into our bed, I lighted a candle and she wanted me to give her a full body massage, starting at her back and then turning to her feet and thighs. When I was massaging her upper thighs and asked if I should get some more oil between her legs, she was very frustrated. Her mind would not relax and she was angry at herself for not being able to come into mood... she muttered that she would like some pleasure, but was not in the mood, that she knew it would be wonderful but just could not help about her thoughts drifting to work and stuff... She turned away from me (perhaps ashamed or not wanting to see my slightly frustrated look). I snuggled close behind her and my throbbing cock was touching her butt. I stroked her sides and shoulders and started talking to her. First telling her to relax, to forget everything, to simply feel her body and mine. Almost like hypnotizing... then I started telling her how beautiful and sexy I think she is. How aroused it makes me to touch her like this and feel my cock against her butt.... how lucky I am to have her ... I could feel how she let go and simply sank into it and yes ... at that moment everything was forgotten and she just wanted her pleasure now... Soon I continued my full body massage and she was moaning with pleasure... I was sitting between her legs, rubbing my cock against her pussy while using my finger to stimulate her clit. After a moment she pushed my hands away and told me to touch her breasts. She told me I was allowed to watch now ... and started massaging herself... I have never ever (in 12 years) watched my GF/KH pleasure herself in front of me. Usually when I was around she wanted me to please her instead of doing it herself... It was one of the hottest things to watch, to see her touch herself, to see her moan from her own touches, to feel my cock close to her without being allowed more pleasure myself... Soon she was panting and she asked me if I liked what I saw... I was moaning and told her it was so hot ... it was totally turning me on... When she finally came I bent over her and kissed her, my cock touching her, making her after-shivers continue for another minute... She then squeezed my cock between her upper thighs and started rubbing a little ... I had to stop almost instantly, else I would have come... I lay there for quite some minutes before I was able to lube up a bit and get back into my Steelheart... It took me some tries to squeeze in there. We talked some more and I told her how I had imagined me being tied up while she pleased herself in front of me without me being able to help or touch her... she just laughed and said: "Just you wait ..." and then she said she would call my female co-worker that knows about me being locked up (I have not mentioned that in this thread, but I have a female co-worker that knows about our lifestyle) and they would tie my to the bed and start pleasing each other in front of me ... I know she was just messing with my mind and reflecting back my own fantasies, BUT ... i have to admit it works ... I was raging hard in my cage and just had to moan at that thought... She just laughed and wished me a goodnight and told me that I was right again ... it was a very nice evening and she will try to get her head to relax more often:-)

Lots of activity going on here... My android app is done, and my KH loves it. For those who haven't been following along, I built this app so she could enjoy random chastity games. It lets her start a game that keeps me locked up for a random amount of time. During the lockup, the app suggests various teases at different intervals. She has total control over everything—changing the lockup period, adjusting the teases, modifying pauses between them, and so on. Everything is in her hands. Here are some screenshots. The interface is currently in German, but the app itself supports multiple languages; it just needs translation files since all text is stored in a resource file that's easy to edit. The App is called "CCards" ... standing for Chastity Cards, reflecting my original idea of writing things on cards. It’s also a clever name because it sounds inconspicuous and could easily be confused with "Credit Cards." I’ve included some screenshots and used red arrows to show the flow of actions. all.png all.png (186.85 KiB) Viewed 7525 times 1) When the app launches, it asks for a PIN input if you choose to set one up. This is great if you want to stop your husband or anyone else from "accidentally" peeking at this app;-) If you enter the wrong PIN, it shows a message saying "You entered the PIN wrong (1 time)." This text stays visible until you get the correct PIN, so anyone trying guesswork will leave a record for you. Even force-closing the app doesn't wipe out that fingerprint; you'll always know if someone tried to check. After entering the correct PIN, you land on the main screen (2). 2) At the top of the screen is an action your KH can take if she wishes. At the bottom, you see the currently active game (or a "New Game" button if no game is running). The lower section shows a timeline panel that outlines the plan for today and upcoming/past days. The gray line represents the past, while the green line indicates the future. A green arrow points to the current day's action. You can swipe left or right with your finger to view earlier or later entries. Tapping on a pause-action (a regular day with no "special" plans) brings up tips and hints for teasing him (7). Long-tapping a pause-action lets you adjust its duration (6). Tapping on a special-action day opens the detailed description of that action (8) along with the expected result. Long-tapping a special-action allows you to postpone it or replace it entirely (9). Pressing the Android Options button on this main screen displays all available actions (3). 3) Tapping "Neues Spiel" takes you to the new game setup screen (4), where you can tweak random variables, such as setting min/max durations for the game and pauses between special events. Clicking "Neues Spiel beginnen" generates a randomized game that fits your criteria. Tapping "Einstellungen" opens the settings screen (5), where you can toggle PIN requirements and change the PIN itself. You can also enable daily notifications; this adds a small heart icon to your phone's notification bar and plays an SMS sound, serving as a gentle reminder for your KH to check the app:-) Selecting "Lesestoff" brings up a selection of PDF files I've compiled from various online blogs (10). If my KH feels like reading them on her phone while she has them handy. It was fun building this app. It could be more sophisticated, but I wanted to get something functional out there quickly:-) My KH is enjoying it so far; I often catch her with a secret smirk when she's looking at or reading from her phone.

Another update to share about what’s happened since my last lockup. I can’t quite remember the exact length of that period, but it was around two months. I had a few ruined orgasms in between, and last night I finally got permission for a real one. I did plenty of housework yesterday (my KH wasn't home). I washed dishes, cleaned the bathroom and toilet, vacuumed throughout the house, tidied up the kitchen, etc. My KH came back from work (yes, she worked on Sunday!) looking quite tired but very pleased with my efforts. Having everything clean really helps get her in the mood;-) She said we’d go to the bathtub together so I could be let out. When I sensed she was in a good mood, I asked if I could request something. I wondered if she would do some strap-on play with me as the receiving partner. At first, she seemed surprised. After all, up until now, we’ve only done one session using the small butt-plug for me. Her reaction made me feel slightly disappointed because she always claims everything is fine when things are normal, but bringing these suggestions up sometimes makes her hesitate... Anyway, after considering that nothing drastic would happen, she carefully asked what I had in mind. I told her to keep it simple: she could put on the strap-on and lie back in bed while I sit on top. This way, we can reach each other easily—she reaches me, and I reach for her breasts and everything else... She initially said it felt a bit strange, like an un-manning experience for her. I laughed and reminded her about the chastity-belt; she chuckled at that too. I assured her that whether she does this or not, it doesn’t change who I am—I just love these kinds of things... I was allowed out, and we went to the bathtub where we caressed each other until she got into the mood. I massaged her and licked her a bit... When we moved to bed, she asked if we should try the plug-thingy again for one more time? ... I said no; I didn’t want that right now (might sound selfish, but I was feeling a little let down at that moment). She thought for a few seconds and then agreed. Get the strapon! We got it out, and I helped her into it, adjusting the straps. We have a really comfortable model, which pleased us both when we realized she could still easily reach between her legs while wearing it. I took out our large black silicone dildo and attached it to the strap-on. I put a condom on it, and we had fun; she seemed quite relaxed. I grinned at her and remarked how nice of a big cock she had. Then I leaned in for a second kiss with my mouth, and we both burst into laughter. She said "Straddle up Pony" ... so that’s exactly what I did ... It felt wonderful. Sitting on top of her gave me freedom to use both hands to touch her breasts and caress her pussy and clit while simultaneously feeling my prostate being massaged by her hips and her hands working my cock. I asked her to slow down; after two months, I’d have ejaculated in seconds! She began enjoying it too, starting to move her hips actively, which gave me an extra kick back. While caressing her, she mentioned that now she just needs another man to fuck her... omg!:o ... Well, neither of us is really the cuckold type, but hearing things like that turns both of us on. I brought her to orgasm using my fingers alone quite quickly, and then she focused entirely on me. I started moving more vigorously, riding her and the strapon while she massaged me back. Soon it was over, and she was ... a bit stickier than before;-) *G* ... Afterward, we chatted for a minute or two. I asked how she felt and if everything was okay since she enjoyed it etc. She grinned and said that she nearly came a second time just from the movement of the straps rubbing between her legs while I rode hard... Oh ... by the way ... she made me PROMISE to go right back into the cage immediately after. She knows me well .... when I make a promise, I keep it; I’m not one to break my word... so afterward ... despite still feeling like "why the fuck am I doing all this stupid chastity play" ... I locked up again. I told her how amusing those mixed feelings are, and she replied, "Luckily you mentioned that earlier—it’ll always be like this after an orgasm. So even if you don’t want to go back in, I’ll still make sure you do..." That sentence got me horny all over again and cut my refractory period down to almost zero... So here I am securely caged and incredibly horned!!! I hope I won’t have to wait another 2 months! ...

Hot! --------------------------------------------------------------- The app—could it easily be ported to Windows or Linux?

The App is built for Android devices, but bringing something like this over to Windows or Unix—for example by writing it in Java—would be quite straightforward. Do you think other KHs would enjoy such a program and use it on laptops or similar devices?

> member_39df723038 wrote:The App is built for Android devices, but bringing something like this over to Windows or Unix—for example by writing it in Java—would be quite straightforward. Do you think other KHs would enjoy such a program and **use it on laptops or similar devices?** Yeah, that’s exactly what I was thinking. Not all of us carry 'smart'phones.

Long time no see... been out for a month now, maybe more? ... I have a 35mm tube with PA fitting. But when I’m completely flaccid, I can slide a small finger beside my cock. I felt there was too much empty space in it. It didn’t allow full freedom because the tube filled up during erection, but still permitted some sliding motion. So I experimented to eliminate that extra room. My first attempt involved modeling padding using Fimo (the plasticine hardens in the oven). I placed it into the tube and shaped it however I liked before putting it in the oven to cure. This worked pretty well, though getting a perfect fit was tricky. Then I tried another approach. I modeled a stylized cock shape with regular plasticine. I stuck a spare PA ring into the head of this model and smoothed out the forms so they resembled my flaccid penis closely. Then I attached the PA-fixing part of my Steelheart onto it and inserted everything into the tube. I repeated this process, refining the form while bending pieces to match how I wanted them positioned inside the tube. Once satisfied (lots of bending/smoothing/adding plasticine), I placed it permanently in the tube and filled any remaining gaps with silicone (high-grade, two-component bonding silicone commonly used for body casting and dildos). After the silicone hardened, I removed the plasticine bit by bit, cleaning both the tube walls and cured silicone from residual bits. The result is fantastic. The tube now fits snugly yet remains absolutely comfortable. There’s no excess space left over. It feels even better at night because it prevents full erections, keeping the cage closer to my body without pulling away much. Insertion is hassle-free; I just used a drop of oil or cream and it slid into place perfectly—as if custom-made ... actually ... it was ... My KH is already asking for the key ... uh oh ...

I can totally relate to that feeling of love blooming again and the promise of a continuing relationship and shared life. When I came out to my wife about my masturbation addiction, we also cried in each other’s arms. It was wonderful.

Hi wspony I was wondering how your app is coming along? Is it available on the Play Store or elsewhere too? Also, does it have an English version? While my wife learned German in high school, a few years have passed and her language skills are getting rusty. She might enjoy reading the German version but having one in English would be easier regardless of which language option I choose to get your app. It sounds like a low-key, fun thing worth trying. W6