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It’s day four of my self-imposed chastity. So far, the device has given me only minor trouble. On that first day, I realized the ring was too big; while I was at work, one testicle managed to pop out toward nightfall. Once I swapped it for a smaller ring and spacer, everything fitted properly and hasn’t slipped since.

Day two passed without issue, but by day three I suspect some chafing has set in. My balls are used to retreating upward, but the device keeps them down, and its downward-pointing shape makes my package protrude more than usual. I think it’s my stretched testicles rubbing against my leg that’s causing the irritation. I’ll keep an eye on it; otherwise, things are going well.

Today was also the first time in ages that I skipped morning porn. I had to rush out of the house to avoid long gas lines, but even then, I usually manage to squeeze in a session regardless. It will be interesting to see if this becomes a trend.

Unfortunately, since I haven’t told my wife about my chastity yet, I’ll be unlocking myself tonight and free for two days. So far, I’ve been diligent about locking up each morning before temptation strikes, but holding out for two full days might be tough.

On the bright side, my wife is away on a girls’ getaway for two nights, which gives me the chance to stay locked around the clock overnight—a feat I haven’t achieved yet. (I plan to hide the keys in her luggage so I won’t have access to them.) If all goes according to plan, I hope to reveal it to my wife when she returns and discuss how we can move forward with my chastity, potentially making her my key holder.

-MFL CB6KS

Device notes: Friday, November 9th marked day four of my chastity. That night, as I do most evenings to avoid alerting my wife, I removed the device. I noticed that the skin at the top of the ring was a bit raw. Using some lotion has soothed it so far, but I will keep monitoring. Relationship notes: Since my wife is away this weekend and we haven't been intimate all week, I expected us to spend quality time together. Friday night offered our first opportunity, but both of us were exhausted from the workweek and went straight to bed. On Saturday, I decided to take a chance; after showering and shaving, I locked myself up again. Saturday evening brought two surprises. Having read other posts, I expected men in chastity to suddenly do more chores. Well, I already handle a fair share of them—perhaps even more than my wife admits. My first surprise was finding myself cuddling with my wife. We used to cuddle before, but I usually jump straight into kissing. While we both enjoy that, my wife misses the cuddling aspect. So, contrary to what I expected regarding changes in me here, I focused on cuddling to ensure she felt satisfied before attending to my own desires. Secondly, after moving furniture from one apartment to another all day Saturday, I was physically drained. Surprisingly, just through that cuddling, I found a reserve of energy that could have kept me going all night. Unfortunately, my wife spent the night packing for her trip, so we went straight back to sleep. Personal Notes: Sunday morning, my wife left on her trip. I locked myself up and attached the keys to her keychain. She might notice them, but it’s unlikely since she isn’t driving. So, I’ve been locked all day, working until 12:30 am. Back at home, for the first time in a few days, I watched porn as part of my normal routine when alone. The feelings from self-teasing were intense. When I first decided to self-chastize, I understood the lack of masturbation, but what shocked me was the inability to touch or feel sensation due to the thickness of the device. I’m glad I chose a clear design because I don’t know if I could handle losing both touch and sight of my penis. As I read through the forum posts, it became clearer that this can be long-term. I feel like I am handling week one fairly well, but when I consider a six-month period, I’m not entirely sure what I will be feeling. Is it loss? Fear? Desire? Passion? All these emotions—frustration, loss, and passion—are washing over me, and I am starting to learn how to use that energy to fuel my conviction. I remain nervous about telling my wife, but since she holds the keys, I have no choice but to show/tell her. I hope this new energy helps bring my wife on board. (Markbentorah: Thank you for the support.) Now let’s see if I can sleep with the device. I am a fairly good sleeper, so this will be its first night. -MFL CB6KS Since: 11/6/2012

Device notes: I was thinking of switching to a smaller ring size because when completely soft, there seems to be some wiggle room. However, since it has been quite comfortable—even at times making me forget I’m wearing it—why bother overdoing it? It is still doing what it needs to do. Relationship notes: I spoke with my wife upon her return from the girls' weekend, and we had a long conversation about my desire for chastity and how I had been locked for the past week, including 24/7 during her trip. Since this was a surprise to her, and she is somewhat vanilla, she was taken aback by it all. We talked, cried, and laughed, ending up with good, open conversations about our desires over the last two days. My wife isn't entirely keen on the idea yet; she would prefer that I remain chaste without a device for now, but she is letting things play out. This means I am still locked in my device. On a positive note, we did end up having relations. Although my wife refused to even look at the device, I was allowed to pleasure her while remaining denied release—a thrilling feeling. For about an hour after, I was still shaking from pent-up energy seeking escape. I was so turned on that I thought my member might break free of the CB6KS. Personal notes: I think I did fairly well in my first week, staying locked with periods of being unlocked and remaining chaste throughout. While there were moments of frustration and desperation, I never wavered in my thoughts. After spending time with my wife and now looking forward to future relations, I feel truly tested. I was very happy pleasing her; when she asked if I was dying to be released, I said no. But as we left the bedroom and continued through the rest of the day, still throbbing with desire and having no means of release, I felt genuinely tested. I am doing my best to channel that energy into a fortified resolve, though I’m not sure how long I can truly hold out. In my mind, I have grand ideas about holding on until Memorial Day (six months away), but that might not be very realistic for either myself or my wife. Moving forward: My wife feels somewhat in the dark regarding chastity, so I hope to help her find more information online. This way, we can explore my chastity together. I also feel like we need some sort of plan—perhaps rules of play. These will likely develop over time as we explore online sites together. -MFL Device: CB6KS Locked Since: 11/5/2012 Release Date: TBD (at most by May 27th, 2013)

Device notes: So far so good with the device. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night with an erection; for the first time, it hurt as the skin was being pinched around the base of the ring. Luckily, I had some lotion on hand and smoothed everything out to go right back to sleep. My only gripe is that the hole through which the lock passes has loosened slightly, allowing the lock to move around easily. When wearing loose pants (like my pajamas), I hear a clicking sound with each step as the lock bounces about. I might just have to tape it down. Relationship/Personal notes: It’s awesome how smart my wife is and how quickly she figures out that chastity is more than just a deterrent; it’s a new form of play. She joked the other night that it would only be fair to keep me locked for as many times as she has had fake orgasms, which she counted at 50. So, I need to please her 50 times before considering release. That means 2 down and 47 to go. In reality, though, she wants to release me. She has been wanting penetration, but since I refused to unlock myself (telling her only she can let me out), I haven't been released yet. She told me last night that she was going to release me, so I spent the whole day thinking of freedom. After work, we went out for dinner, and then she delivered bad news: her monthly visitor had arrived, meaning no sex or release. The wave of feelings hit me instantly. My wife kept talking, but I asked her to stop because I couldn’t concentrate. I was instantly aroused, straining against the cage as pleasure and frustration washed over me for about 2 to 3 minutes. I’m calling it a chastity orgasm. It was amazing. Later that night, we took a shower together, and my wife asked if we should unlock the device, but I said I shouldn’t be allowed out if she can't enjoy it fully. She agreed, so here I am locked up for at least another week until her period passes. The shower was wonderful too, for several reasons. First, it was the first time my wife actually looked at the device (though she didn’t touch it). But every touch between us—whether me touching her or vice versa—had me on high, sometimes even moaning with pleasure. We then went to bed; my wife relaxed after I gave her a massage, while I lay there with a straining hard-on. What a wonderful night. -MFL CB6KS Locked since 11/5/2012 Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving

Another wonderful night. I went the entire day with barely an erection. I didn’t think we’d have any relations since my wife is physically out of commission at the moment, and I haven’t watched any porn because well... I can't do anything. Well, after a long day for both of us, we retired to bed early. My wife’s back was hurting, so I decided to give her a massage. This excited me greatly, and after working out all the knots, we cuddled up under the covers. Here I am lying down, lightly brushing my hand over my wife when she reaches over and starts playing with the cage of my device. What mind games! I was quivering in delight. Not only was this the first time my wife had touched my privates since putting the device on, but knowing that she is touching me while I can’t feel much except where she brushes past my exposed parts creates a unique sensation. I was nonstop quivering with frustration and pleasure. In my head, I was screaming for the key, yet I couldn't resist wanting to continue feeling this good. I look forward to my possible release, but I also look forward to remaining locked up. Oh what fun. -MFL CB6KS Locked since 11/5/2012 Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving P.S. Just in case she's counting, we are now at 5 out of 50. Only 45 more orgasms for her to go before I can release.

Starting week three. Based on my work schedule and the upcoming holiday, I might not be released until this Saturday. At that point, my drive to do things to the extreme will kick in, and I may just beg to wait an extra week so I can claim I made it a month on my first go. Of course, that competitiveness could come back to haunt me; if I beg for one month, who’s to say my wife won’t tell me to wait until New Year's? I doubt that would really happen, but the possibility excites me enough to fantasize about it. The reality is that a few days ago, after giving my wife her third orgasm of the day, I just jumped on top of her and attempted penetrative intercourse despite being trapped in my device. My wife simply whispered in my ear, "soon," and got out of bed. She even joked with me, saying she would tell me to put my boy away but that it’s pointless because he already is. It has been three days since she said "soon." When I am near her, all I can think about is how badly I want to be with her; when I’m away, all I want is to remain locked up. Overall, I am very happy to have tried chastity. I just hope my wife comes to appreciate it as well. -MFL CB6KS Locked since 11/5/2012 Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving 5/50

I am so mad at myself for yet being unable to forgive my indiscretion. It is the day before the holiday, and work has been slow. I had to go to the bathroom (thanks to a stupid water pill), and since there was no rush back to work, I reverted to an old habit: watching porn in the stall. Since locking up, I have cut down greatly on the time spent watching it, but out of habit and desire, I still watch even if I can't do anything with it. Also out of habit, I stroked the device as if masturbating; this usually does nothing for me, but it is fun to struggle against it. Unfortunately, yesterday I was not fully erect and found that I could move the device back and forth, which did stimulate me. I could feel the orgasm rising and had to scream at myself to get up and leave. I was still shaking but willing myself to ignore the pleasure as I left. I knew from reading posts here that it was possible to masturbate while locked, but I just told myself I couldn't. Now that I know I can, I’m not sure I can honestly stop myself anymore. If I had the willpower to stop on my own, I wouldn’t need the device at all. Wish me luck. -MFL CB6KS Locked since 11/5/2012 Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving 5/50

It has been some time since I last posted, mostly because my experience in the previous post (being able to masturbate through the device) took me out of chastity briefly. Recently, however, my wife threw a bachelorette weekend for her friend. I decided to lock myself up again, and when she learned that I had been locked with the key on her person, my wife was so happy. She mentioned how much she missed the chastity play and really likes the idea of having me locked. After her weekend away, she returned eager for sex. We had a great time; she released me briefly, we had PIV (penis-in-vagina), brought her to orgasm, all while somehow keeping myself from reaching climax (I think the extra thick condom played a big part). She felt a little bad about it, but I assured her that locking me back up right away made me very happy. Based on this experience, though, I know my wife desires PIV. If I truly want to stay in chastity for longer than just a few days or a week, I need to find a new way of satisfying her needs. So, I bought a vacuum-lock strapon with a dildo similar in length and width (okay, it is really 3 inches longer, but who's counting?). We ended up trying it out right away. At that point, I had been locked for six days and dripping with anticipation all day. I positioned the strap-on to rest slightly on top of my cage. As we got into it, I could feel my pressure mounting. Just as my wife started moaning in the ecstasy of her build-up to climax, I felt myself do something unexpected: I came inside my chastity device. My wife climaxed shortly after with a face full of pleasure that I have rarely seen. We both collapsed and cuddled in the glow of our orgasms. I can't wait to do this again. Hopefully, with our new-found toy, we can extend my locked-up period to a month, assuming I can hold out that long. MFL CB3KS

> member_9cccde6e0e wrote: > Hopefully ... we can extend my luck up period to a month, :lol: I know that was probably a typo, but I like it.

It does sound pretty good that way. Sadly, it is indeed a typo; that’s what I get for posting from my phone. There goes my career as a proofreader.

Okay, this is getting frustrating, and I'm not talking about being in chastity. My wife decided to reward me by releasing me for a day; during our shower together, she satisfied me orally. After the shower, she told me to lock up again. The very next evening we tried the strapon again. So again, just as my wife was building up to her climax, I achieved an orgasm as well. While pleasurable, it is the opposite effect of what I was looking for when using a strapon. My only thought is that I am placing it too low; it sits right at the top of my CB device. So maybe moving the device back and forth is causing my orgasm. I would like to think that hearing my wife in such pleasure sets me off, but that has only happened a few times in our relationship, so for it to happen twice in a row suggests something else. I also wouldn’t call it a ruined orgasm because my erection and drive drop and take time to build up again. The advantage at this point is that I have remained in my device; no touching of any kind has occurred during the act or the rest of the day, so I don’t feel like I cheated. I'm sure we will play with it some more, and hopefully, we can come up with new results.

You can try using a little numbing cream. I have used Dr. Numb and it works really well—too well actually. One time I put a bit on a Q-tip and applied it through the hole in the tube (Steelheart) all around the head of my penis, then another dose from the top to cover what I could of the shaft. In that case, I took off the device about 15 minutes later and was completely numb. I suspect it would work just as well or better if you didn't take the device off. If you did this before getting ready with the strap-on, there should be enough time for it to take effect without interrupting the flow of passion.

Thanks for the advice, Atone. Last night we gave the strap-on another try using positions other than missionary, and the results were mixed. We started with doggy style, which worked beautifully; I could see everything, which turned me on, while my wife moaned from her very first thrust. Next she laid me down and climbed on top to ride it. This created more of a rubbing sensation. My wife enjoyed it, but I just felt intense pressure. We switched back to missionary, where I found myself building up again. Fortunately, I managed to stop myself before climaxing, allowing us to change positions once more. I realized that not only does my cage shift forward and backward, but my bits hit the sheets with a tickling sensation as I move around. I believe this is what triggers the buildup toward orgasm. As long as we switch positions periodically, things go well. However, by the end of it all, I was so hard that I was in serious pain. My wife was willing to keep going, but I had to stop and calm down. The base ring on my CB6KS broke a few weeks ago, leaving me with a smaller replacement size, which gives me much less room. At peak erection, there is significant pinching and severe backache. It’s manageable for short periods, but last night lasted too long. On a lighter note, my wife was ready to release me because she didn’t want me in pain. But our three-year-old son started playing with the keys. Although I asked him to return them to mommy, she let him keep holding onto them. Now we can't find them anywhere, so I get to stay locked up—which suits me fine—but we do need to locate them eventually.

It’s been ages since I was last in chastity. As my earlier post mentions, I broke my CB6KS back in September and recently replaced it with a knockoff version of the Looker 02. My wife has been urging me to get a replacement. While I certainly enjoy being locked up, I guess I fell into a routine. Perhaps feeling like I was 'topping from the bottom,' I just never got around to doing it. Our anniversary had just passed, so I figured there’s no better way to say "I love you" than handing her new keys for a new lock. She was thrilled to have me in chastity again. And I am happy to oblige that night; we had a great evening of me satisfying her. She became even more attentive at times, knowing it is the only way she can give me pleasure. I’ve now been wearing this Looker 02 knockoff for two days, and let me tell you, it’s a completely different experience—one I’m not sure I can handle for very long myself. There were several reasons I was drawn to this version. First, since I am uncircumcised, I like how the device keeps all my skin neatly hidden inside. Second, it is about half an inch shorter than my CB6KS. When soft, I would almost pop out of the older cage, so a shorter design helps prevent that. Lastly—and this is crucial—is the urethral tube. I’ve experimented with tubes before and always enjoyed the feeling of having my penis filled, but this time was entirely different. The tube is 6mm thick with an 8mm ball at the end, which I believe is the smallest size they make. Initially, after trying it both lubed and un-lubed, I couldn’t get the tube in. It took three days of stretching my penile slit before I made any progress getting the device on. Finally, once it was secured, I felt like I was in heaven. I could feel the tube moving inside me, and with the shortened design, I have almost no ability to achieve an erection. That night was a mix of pleasure and pain. I couldn’t stop thinking about the device, yet I also found myself unable to get comfortable or quiet my mind enough to fall asleep. At one point, I felt moisture on my leg; upon checking, I had leaked quite a bit of pre-cum. Today marks my first full day wearing it while working. What torture! This is where I’m unsure if I can last. The urethral tube on this knockoff model is shorter than the original; instead of extending past the base ring, it stops right at it. As the hours pass, I feel the tube slipping toward the edge of my head. When standing up, I am fairly certain the ball is barely inside me, if at all. The rubbing of that ball against my glans is painful. I can push the tube back in, but adjusting my crotch every few minutes while working becomes uncomfortable. Plus, popping it back in isn’t entirely pain-free. I love the full sensation provided by the plug. If I had a desk job, I might manage better, but as things stand now, if I cannot adjust the device or overcome the occasional sharp pains, I may need to seek out a new one. -MEL Looker 02 knockoff

I’m so torn. I love the sensation of the urethral tube, but that 8mm bulb is still difficult to push past my glans head. Consequently, frequent removal for cleaning and other adjustments has become very painful. I also encountered a new dilemma. At work, getting into my car was no problem, but once I started walking around, the device needed constant adjustment. It turned out that my foreskin had an allergic reaction to the stainless steel. As it swelled up, it pushed the device further away from my body, causing the bulb to sit directly against my head—a super painful position. I was called up to speak with a judge. Just as he asked me a question, the bulb popped out. In those final moments before that happened, my hands were quivering from pain; I could barely take notes. I’m sure the judge noticed the sigh of relief on my face when it finally cleared my head. The device has been going in and out since then, but because the allergic reaction keeps returning, I was about to give up on it entirely. This past weekend, however, I wore it again while on vacation with my wife and son. My wife was so excited that I had it on; she likes how much cleaner it is compared to the CB6KS. When I told her about the irritation, she suggested painting it. After some quick research, I found out I can paint it with nail polish. So, I’m going to buy a bottle—likely black—and give it a try. In the meantime, my skin is healing while I wear the CB6KS again. I am looking forward to a new challenge for me and my wife: staying until the 28th without an orgasm. It’s only twenty days, but significantly longer than our usual seven or eight-day stretches. Wish us luck.

Wow... with all that experience, if I were you, I’d be saving up for a custom device. So sorry to hear about your reaction; I imagine it wouldn’t happen with surgical-grade steel. Good luck!

Thank you, Lady M, for your reply. I have a tendency to ramble on and on, so I assume very few people read my posts. In trying to keep this post somewhat concise, I skipped mentioning that my wife’s first reaction was to buy me a surgical steel CD. Unfortunately, the cost is quite steep, and we are currently on a financial "diet". I’m sure we will eventually find the right device for us, but not anytime soon. What I really took away from the whole weekend experience was how much my wife has embraced me being in chastity for her sake. The past few days back in chastity have been lovely; she had me feeling her freshly shaved legs and caressing my back until it made me shiver. She is looking forward to our next play session and keeps reminding me of my promise to stay chaste until her birthday at the end of the month. She really is the best.

> member_9cccde6e0e wrote: > I have a tendency to go on and on, so I assume very few people read my posts. Don't sell yourself short. Per the rules of this section of the Forum, I usually don’t make many comments myself, but I pretty much read everyone’s posts. I suspect I am just one of your readers among many. Keep them coming!:)

Recent success and failure. WooHoo! My wife and I played Thursday night. As planned, I remained in my Locker 2 knockoff device. It was amazing. Every touch, every inch of exposed flesh sparked with desire and energy, sending me into blissful spasms of joy. I also donned the strap-on; every minute of it felt exhilarating. With long, slow thrusts, I brought my wife to orgasm, and I "felt" every movement, causing me to moan in pleasure. Lastly—a proud achievement for me—I did this without having an orgasm myself (whereas previously I would cum while using the strap-on, which frustrated me greatly). OK, here is the Doh! moment: I couldn’t lose my erection, and it began to become more painful than I’d like. My wife suggested I take the device off for the night, so I did. That 8mm ball at the end of the tube is incredibly painful when passing through the top slit of my penis. Also, while the nail polish helped slightly, it didn’t eliminate the issue entirely; even though inflammation was low, it hadn't gone away completely. So if I have to remove and reinsert the device daily, the pain involved in inserting and removing the urethral tube is too great for continued use. I’m going to need to look for a new device. My CB6KS is too large when flaccid because the base ring I am currently using (the others broke or were too small) is so big that it falls off on its own. (Funny side story: I was back in court, nearing the end of the day, and could feel the CB6KS slipping out. I did my best to adjust it, but at some point, just as I was about to go check a court file, I had to rush back to my seat ASAP because the device had completely fallen off. I managed to get back and sit down before it fell out of my pant leg entirely. I grabbed it quickly and hid it in my pocket. I could only imagine the embarrassment if it had dropped right there in front of the judge, DA’s, and court officers.) Now I am off looking for a new device while trying to keep chaste without one, though having the device is part of what makes our play fun for us. I really should save up for a surgical steel device eventually, but for now, back to plastic.

What an amazing morning! I woke up to my son pulling me out of bed. I got up, brought him downstairs, gave him breakfast, and put on his favorite TV show. Then I made my way back into bed with my wife. We started fooling around, and the fun really ramped up. My wife whispered that it wouldn’t count as cheating if I orgasmed along with her. I let her know through a look that I really wanted to hold out just like we planned. So she pulled me on top of her, and I slid deep inside. My body wanted to go fast, but she encouraged me to slow down. This got her going and gave me the strength to hold back. After a while, I could tell she was highly worked up, and so was I getting close. So I stopped moving and just buried myself deeply inside her. She had all smiles on her face; our faces were flushed. She asked if I was good (code for: did you orgasm?). I signaled that I hadn’t. She gave me an evil grin and started pushing me off of her slowly. My body began to convulse with need and desire. I collapsed on top of her, but kept my weight out of her. Like clockwork, the son’s show finished, and he came running upstairs. We both dove for our clothes and lay back down under the covers just as he babbled his way into our room. I whispered to my wife that I can’t wait to do this again tonight. She kissed me and said she looks forward to it too. What an amazing morning.

It’s been ages since my last post, but with so much going on in our lives, my wife and I have barely had any time for extracurricular activities. A few major changes to note: 1st is that I broke my CB6KS. Due to my allergy to metal, my locker was used less and less over time. 2nd is that we moved; the process took months, and during the purge phase, I got rid of all our toys. Now settled in our new place for a few months, my wife and I have been working hard on having a second child. I thought chastity was done with forever, but as always, my wife surprised me. She told me she misses me being in chastity and how well I treat her when I’m locked up. She also wanted the strap-on back so that I could still please her. So we ordered a small, black Holy Trainer, and I was just locked back up again. I also went out and got a new strap-on. I am very excited about this round of chastity and look forward to some fun nights. However, I feel like I made a mistake with the strap-on choice. Both the old one and the new one are from the Vac-U-Lock series, but the first one wasn’t shaped quite like a penis; it was curved primarily to massage her G-spot. The new one is a large, veiny-looking penis. I didn’t think much of this difference until I started using it. I feel somewhat emasculated and fear she might eventually consider cuckolding me, which isn’t something I’d want. The worst part came when she got on top; while watching her slide down the huge dildo was lovely, just laying there like a log felt horrible. Let me end with a positive note: I finally managed to use a strap-on without cumming from it. That actually made me proud because now I can save myself for my wife as intended in our chastity play.