locknload Braving the Lock Click
Like a lot of the men here, I’ve wanted teasing and denial for ages. In my late forties, I finally met someone open-minded enough to embrace this fantasy…
Like a lot of the men here, I’ve wanted teasing and denial for ages. In my late forties, I finally met someone open-minded enough to embrace this fantasy and play along. About four weeks ago, right after her week-long business trip ended, I was so driven by lust that I confessed everything in an email, asking her to tease me and keep me from cumming for days at a time. She took it well and agreed. So, I quickly ordered a CB 6000S lock, which arrived within days and went straight on.
After about a week of experimenting with the fit and cleaning routine, I felt ready to extend my periods without release. We decided on five days. Since I usually ejaculate at least three times a week, this was slightly longer than normal for me, though admittedly short compared to many here. Well, four days into that first period, I got so worked up that I asked her to hold me back for 14 days. So far, she is only mildly dominant, but she’s slipping into the role easily. When I suggested going longer, her immediate answer was “done.” What a rush it gave my penis!
That excitement has grown as each day passed. About ten days in, sensing release coming up soon, I got so horned-up that I emailed her again to ask for an entire month! She quickly replied, “I have it in writing!!!!” Have I underestimated how dominant she is?
The device came with two keys, and she promptly hid the one I gave her. I kept the other one to adjust the fit as needed. Do you take it off once a day for about 30 minutes just to shower and clean up? There’s definitely some reluctance in letting go of that last bit of control over my penis. Maybe I shouldn’t even call it mine anymore. There are times, like today, when I had to sit through group meetings all day and really needed relief from the discomfort of sitting on the device for hours; pinching almost without pause while seated is tough. My girl has been very understanding during this adjustment period and encouraged me to give up the second key.
I actually feel like I want the cage on as much as possible now. It’s past 13 days, and I can’t believe how steadily the intensity of need keeps growing. All my girl needs to do is lightly rub my swollen balls or exposed perineum to get me moaning within seconds, straining against the device for a full erection. About twice a week she lets me out while we’re together so she can rub herself on my hard cock. Earlier this week, she had me insert it inside her while she masturbated to orgasm and then pushed me away before I could come. She rubbed my swollen cock for about 30 minutes after her climax, making me moan and grind against her hand without effect. She forbids me from stimulating myself at any time, which I obey even when the cage is off for showering.
On Thursday night, day 14, she will let me out to play with her again, but of course, no cumming allowed. After my frustrated erection subsides enough, the cage goes back on, and I’ll have another restless night’s sleep. Friday morning, she leaves to visit relatives and won’t return until Sunday afternoon. At this point, there’s little reason not to give up that second key. Yet, I can think of many reasons why having access to it while she is away would be wise for emergencies. The thought of being locked in with no chance of accessing the penis for 60 hours is thrillingly terrifying, and right now as I type this message out, my penis is pressing hard against the inside of the cage. We discussed it a couple nights ago, and she seemed to leave the decision up to me. I don’t think I have the courage to let that second key disappear for so long. Should I take it easy and continue working into long-term chastity gradually? Do I ask her to hide the second key but provide a way for me to reach it in case of emergency? Or do I tell her just make it vanish altogether and rely on my ability to text her if I really need the key during that time? I can’t decide. Help!
Yes, I feel that thrill of anticipation at the thought of not having easy access. I have loved this so far. There is one growing problem I am encountering. Hygiene takes work; sitting down to pee and wiping sucks; the pinches and pressure points demand attention. But sleep deprivation may soon take a great toll. If I get teased before bedtime then locked back in, all I can do is lie there lusting, with rising and falling pressure against the inside of the cage measuring how intense my focused thoughts are. On other non-play nights, though, I still must control my thoughts as I drift off. Otherwise, a lustful thought will provoke waking swelling. Random nocturnal erections aren't as consistently painful now as they were at first. But night after night, I am getting little sleep—I am consumed with lust.
I have to concur with mark. As long as you keep the key and are letting yourself out, it isn't giving you the real effect. Take your spare key and a business card; have her sign her name on the back of the card around the edge. Place your spare key in the center of the card. Then put packing tape over your key to ensure it covers the entire back of the card. She should be able to see her signed name, giving you an emergency key. Until you give up control to her completely, you are still in charge.
I gave up the second key tonight. My keyholder will be gone for 72 hours. This is terrifying! After my intense twice-a-week teasing session, I was locked right back in about 45 minutes ago. She hid the second key and wrote a note describing where it is, sealing it in an envelope. There is no way I can unlock without her finding out. The punishment would be resetting the clock for another 31 days. I am so horny now that I am trembling slightly! I do not foresee being able to sleep very well tonight. For these past 14 days of chastity, bedtime has been the hardest time. As I lie there trying to fall asleep, all sorts of fantasies and desires rise into my half-asleep mind, preventing me from falling completely under. This is exactly the kind of state I was in when I first wrote the email to my keyholder describing my fantasy of being denied orgasm for extensive periods of time. Another night about a week ago, unable to sleep, I got out the iPad and wrote an extensive email detailing some of my more lurid sexual fantasies. I suspect some may come back to visit me. This is also the night I asked her to extend my chastity—from 14 to 31 days. I am now in my 15th day. My projected release date is March 17. The last time I came was Valentine's Day. How romantic!
Welcome to the board and welcome locknload! It is always great to see a new person posting on The Journey forum. I can't say that I am a "veteran" even though I wore a home-built device for quite a while before Mrs. KHH and I ordered my current MM Jailbird. I snickered when reading your posts because they were completely true for me as well. Being in chastity and giving up complete control to your significant other is a big step, and the emotional impact of that can really be overwhelming at first—at least it was for me. Like you with your CB, I also encountered some "hygiene issues" with my home-built device. That was one of the main drivers behind us deciding on the more open cage of the JB. It is nice to easily wash completely and thoroughly, drying off without any chance of stimulating myself to orgasm. In fact, having that more open cage can be almost worse in that regard. I can get the tip of my little finger through the bars of the cage—but not everywhere and only enough to clean well. It might even be worse than a "full enclosure" device because that slight stimulation while washing gets me so incredibly (and yet frustratingly) aroused. My wife told me recently that this is one of her favorite things: seeing me get aroused while washing but being unable to do anything about it. You mentioned in your most recent post that your KH will be gone for 72 hours and that: > I am so horny now that I am trembling slightly! I do not foresee being able to sleep very well tonight. For these past 14 days of chastity, bedtime has been the hardest time. As I lay there trying to fall asleep, all sorts of fantasies and desires rise up into my half asleep mind, and will not let me fall completely asleep. I hear you brother! Mrs. KHH has been away since last Saturday at her mother's house 1,400 miles from home and won't be back until this Sunday. We'll have one night together before I leave for a week-long overseas trip. She has been telling me in eMails and on the phone just how "mean" she is going to be on Sunday night. I simultaneously DREAD and CRAVE what is coming up. Wish you all the best!
Keyheld, I know exactly what you mean about the dread and the (always a little stronger) craving for more. Why do I read these things as I'm laying down to sleep?
I survived the 72-hour period of no access to the key. Well actually, it ended up being about 69 hours because my keyholder got home earlier than expected. I have now been 17 days since my last release, and tonight my penis did not respond to teasing at all. That doesn't matter so much except that my keyholder likes playing with a hard dick. She seemed to enjoy herself anyway, rolling over and falling asleep just as soon as she came. I got up and locked myself back into my trusty CD. I am wondering if this was just an anomalous low day for me or if my body goes into shutdown after so long. I was really keyed up in the 10 to 14-day window. And I thought I was keyed up during the last three days, but tonight has proven otherwise. I am committed to 31 days of chastity, ending on 3/17. As always, it is disappointing not being able to generate wood. Does anybody else experience this kind of shut down after a certain period of time?
It was probably just performance anxiety....you're on a new frontier of your sexual existence right now. That being said, Beth had serious reservations about me wearing a cage; she was afraid it would 'condition' me to stop having erections. It's not supposed to work that way; everyone assured us. My wife really likes wood too...she has me out at least every other night for a ride (stopping just short of any relief for me)...so I don't know how my situation applies to yours. I do know that if I did start having problems, I'd drop wearing a chastity device in a heartbeat....she's got a young fella who is at an age where he has pretty much non-stop wood and impressive lasting ability. I'll be damned if I want him to have all the fun. So, not to alarm you....but, if she really likes a stiff dick....there are plenty of uncaged ones out there.
This afternoon while working, I stepped out of the car and felt something wet squirt down my pants leg. Having urinated about 20 minutes before, at first I thought a last drop had just escaped. So when I have a few private moments afterward, I open my pants to confirm what I suspected: I was dripping precum. I have never been much of a leaker, so this is a total surprise to me. It appears that after 18 days without release, I start dripping during the middle of the day now. I have been told this could become more frequent, and I do not look forward to wearing underwear again to prevent the wet spot in pants syndrome. In shock, I texted my keyholder immediately what had happened and told her I might need a milking. She ignored my plea. It has been 18 days since my last release, with a goal of 13 more to make 31 total. But that may get extended. Over the last month, I have been fiddling with the fitting on my CB6000S, aiming to optimize it so I could order an MM Jailbird. During this time, I have been in email contact with the folks at MM, who have been extremely patient with my endless back-and-forth questions about size choices. If their after-purchase service is as good as their pre-purchase service, they must be an excellent company to work with. I have heard nothing but good things about them, and this is bearing out in my experience. I really look forward to receiving my Jailbird once I finally settle on sizing. They say that getting pretty close is good enough, but I do not want to send it back for resizing. This is a high-dollar purchase for me, and I want to get it right.
Your lady is learning fast. Not sure how many times I've begged Beth for a milking, only to have the request summarily and firmly dismissed.....which even further heightens my desperation. It's amazing how you can think you're at your wits' end with frustration, only to find you're just starting to scratch the surface.
> member_e3cc99d06c wrote:I don't how many times I've begged Beth for a milking, only to have the request summarily and firmly dismissed..... Begging is not tolerated in our house. Not that I haven't wanted to beg sometimes.
> member_56a3d51043 wrote: > > member_e3cc99d06c wrote:I don't how many times I've begged Beth for a milking, only to have the request summarily and firmly dismissed..... > Begging is not tolerated in our house. Not that I haven't wanted to beg sometimes. It doesn't work out well for Joseph either!:D
I have been feeling stuck in a little bit of a rut lately. It seems that days 10 to 14 are my peak lust period, and after that things seem to settle into a steady-state. Maybe this is good since I am not going out of my head. But Sunday night's little erectionless tease session left me quite frustrated and disappointed. I have had one free hard-on in the last week. Since Sunday there has been very little up or down feeling until tonight. When my keyholder got home tonight, I was feeling quite anxious and horny, but she wasn't in the mood for play. I am entering my 20th day since my last release, wondering how this will go on to 31 days when my next release is planned. During days 10 to 14, all I could think about was cumming. After that, a period of semi-normalcy has set in. I even have "lucid" states from time to time where I totally question why I am even doing this. Should I just give up and be normal? Sometimes the little punchings and aggravations, like having to sit down to pee in public toilets, discourage me. And then I am awakened three times a night with throbbing attempted hard-ons. My keyholder is being swallowed up by her work, while I am drowning in frustration. Then occasionally some little thing excites the hell out of me and keeps me going another day. What have I become?
Dude....I've been married to Beth for more decades than I'd like to admit. Sometimes I wonder how she's managed to put up with my bullshit. She is far less selfish than I ever could be....despite what you read. Synchronizing a couple's sexual needs is incredibly complex and difficult. It waxes and wanes. For women, stress destroys sexuality almost immediately. And stress is legion in our fucked-up world. Pressure to meet your sexual fantasies ups the stress for her considerably. A good woman is hard to find. Someone who even attempts to meet these kinds of needs is a real treasure. Look at male chastity as just an experiment. Is it a way of life you can't live without? Hardly. Steak and onions gives you gas and indigestion? Maybe it's not the optimum daily diet! If it becomes too much, let it go. It may well come back on its own. If not, it's not a failure....look for things that work for both of you. But either way, keeping a good woman in your life far outweighs any momentary sexual gratification.
Joe, you are correct—I am a lucky guy to have a woman who would entertain my perverse fantasies, and I am certainly not complaining against her. I guess that after 19 days with just four free erections I am frustrated. What else could I have expected? But this is my first time being cut off from the nearly-daily pleasure of stroking the cock, and maybe it is getting to me. Do I need more discipline? Will 31 days be enough to get me in line with my new status? The thought of another 12 days is enough to make me groan (and swell!). I see the prospect of another possible teasing tomorrow night. Will this break me? Sexual frustration and mild sleep deprivation change a man. I keep asking for more!
I've got two words for you, Locknload: "Emotional Rollercoaster." Some days, I feel perfectly normal. Other days I feel like I'm an emotional train wreck! I've never been in chastity for more than about 3 weeks, and doubt if it'll happen so long as my work has me travelling internationally for at least one week per month, with occasional domestic trips thrown in for good measure. Like you, I feel the initial buildup of "tension" followed by a plateau, followed by more tension. Some days, I feel completely coherent and mellow. Other days it's all I can do to make it through the day without going completely crazy. But somehow, I like the feelings - both the highs and the lows. It's like they're both magnified for me. And if Mrs. KHH throws in a teasing session, then everything seems to reset for a day or so, now matter how I felt going in. I guess it's something we all have to live with, and be aware of. When I asked my wife to be my keyholder, I really didn't have any idea of how much it would affect me emotionally. The old axiom "Be careful what you wish for" was definitely true in my case. But we are both learning as we go along. As the title of the forum says: The Journey. Chastity for my wife and I is not a destination but a journey. We are discovering what we both like and what we don't. What works for us and what doesn't. What we'll accept and what we won't. And we're doing it in the spirit of loving togetherness (as corny as that sounds). It's an exciting, erotic, playful thing that is bringing us closer together than we were before. I wish you the best and can only offer this advice: Talk to each other - continuously - about how you're feeling. Share your emotions, your fears, your concerns, and your desires. As Sara Jameson says in her blog - your wife will never know unless you tell her.
It has indeed been an emotional roller coaster, KeyheldHubby. Tonight, after 20 days of chastity, my key holder allowed me release. It was more incredible than I had imagined it would be. She thoroughly enjoyed it, and admitted afterwards that she just needed to feel that from me. We had talked about going 31 days, but her need took over. I have no regrets. Last night's frustration was paid back in full. Before my keyholder drifted off to sleep, she gave me permission to swing free for 24 hours. But after about an hour, I felt the need to be back in my cage, and locked it back up. Chastity is really growing on the both of us, it seems. In the morning she will find the key and hide it from me again. I do not expect I will see the key again until Saturday or Sunday. My spent cock swells at the thought of that. Here we go again.
After going 20 days without, my keyholder decided she really wanted to get fucked and let me out for some fun. I had no idea of her intention, so when she let me fuck her pussy, I was doing my best to hold back, thinking this was just another tease. Finally, I told her it was time to push me off if she intended to keep me from coming. She didn't. Though I was surprised, it felt so good. Probably more so because it was such a shock. As so often happens, she went right to sleep after sex. But she gave me permission to stay out of my cage, though as always, I had no permission to stimulate myself. And after coming, I had no desire to do anything with the penis. But while Highset having a nightcap before going to sleep myself, I started feeling the need to be locked up and within an hour I was back comfortably in my cage. This is growing into an addiction. Now I have gone five days since that release. The urge to cum has been strong the whole time. That previous 20 – day stint was my only previous experience in chastity. I remember how strong the need was at the beginning of that stretch, but it seems stronger this go round. Added to that my keyholder teased me extensively on Saturday, having me stick my hard penis in her pussy as she came. Last week I gave her a little book on the rules of discipline, thinking she might like to read about Dom/sub relationships, a subject she is new to. She started reading it Sunday, and next thing I know her pussy is all wet and she has me fingering it. Being with her all weekend, she was letting me swing free, which also gives her the added benefit of being able to tease me whenever she likes. She did lots of that this weekend! I had no idea that she would get into being my keyholder so much when I confessed to her that I wanted to be teased and denied. A classic case of be careful what you wish for. But I am loving it, so far! Seeing what 20 days did to me, she is repeatedly promising that I am going at least 31 days this time.
Now begins the dreaded middle time of a chastity period. In my previous time, I found that the first four or so days I was very excited all the time, but then after that until about day 10 everything settled down to a lower level. Then days 10 to 14 were a time of great frustration, and thereafter a time of moderate, steady horniness and even dripping, until day 20, which is the longest I've been. Now I am in the low days 5 to 10, where everything seems bleak. Everything seems rigged to cause unpleasant frustration, with no end in sight. It's very depressing, and I look forward to a more exciting turn of events in the coming days. But no cumming.
Checking in again. I have just completed my 14th day since my last cum. My keyholder's plan is to go a month. So I guess I'm halfway, just about. Since the first four days, I have settled into a low to medium level of horniness. Additionally, I have often been in a slightly cranky mood much of the time. In my experience, a general mood set soon during a period of chastity and doesn't vary whole lot until I cum again. Does anyone else experience this feeling of being locked into a certain mood during a whole chastity period? In any case, I am mostly locked into my CB 6000s but I also spend a fair amount of time swinging free. My keyholder often lets me operate on a trust system, and I do not intend to fail. I am not allowed to stimulate myself without permission, and that permission never comes. The only stimulation I get is what she gives. I may be crazy, but I hope she gives me a ruined orgasm soon so I can break the cycle of crankiness and low – level horniness. My general horniness level is so low that I do not get hard even when she lets me out of my cage to play. How pitiful! I know that my keyholder would prefer a hard dick to sit on and tease, rather than the almost – hard penis she gets now. But it is totally up to her when I get to release to load and start over. I have the feeling she is determined to take me out a whole month, rather than letting me off the hook early like she did last month. I hope this limp – dick way is not how my system is going to permanently settle in for chastity.
> Additionally, I have often been in a slightly cranky mood much of the time. In my experience, a general mood set soon during a period of chastity and doesn't vary whole lot until I cum again. Does anyone else experience this feeling of being locked into a certain mood during a whole chastity period? Not a "cranky" mood at all. More anxious I would say. Of course, I've never been locked up for a "long" period as some of the veterans on this forum would count it, typically never more than 10 days or so before Mrs. KHH lets me out for a really nice O. But even when locked, I find my mood swings wildly. Interestingly, none of the moods are ever what I would consider adverse - they range from pure horniness, to lust, to amorous, to loving, to romantic, etc. All "good" things, I would think. Of course, I also experience a lot of my plain vanilla analytical self, mainly during the day when I'm working. But even then, I'm frequently overcome (almost) with the unquenchable desire to go down on my wife. Being in chastity has brought that desire to the forefront more than ever before. I haven't updated my own profile in a couple of days, but the last two nights I've begged Mrs. KHH to let me go down on her and - with her permission - did so for up to 45 minutes of gentle licking. Two nights ago, I even went so far as to wake her up after she had been asleep for close to 2 hours (I woke up myself with this urgent craving) and asked to go down on her. Kind of like the feeling, and Mama doesn't seem to mind either!
I have been chaste for over 15 days now, and I must say my mood has been vastly better than last time, which lasted 16 days. I was really ready to cum and start over last time. I have found that a cretain mood locks in during a chastity period. This time has been mellow, eager for more. Last time was often cranky, ready to punt and start over. The start over really woked. No matter how many times I have been teased, and I have been teased, I have not gotten into an ill mood from cum denial. I feel like I could go months like this. Perhaps I would feel differently if I was in my cage a lot, instead of on the honor system the whole period, as I have been. This could change, since my key holder decided that since I have enjoyed fondling myself as I sleep (only she gets to stimulate it), I need to go back in the CB6000S for the next few days. Now back to pinches in my jeans, trouble with aim when I pee, and risk of painful nocturnal erections (which seem to have disappeared after the first couple weeks of wearing the cage, my first - mental?). I'll keep you posted on how the cage alters my moods.
I recently bought three different models of Chinese imitations to try, and the first of these was delivered a couple days ago. I promptly locked it on, of course. So far, so good. It is comfortable, much more so than the plastic one I was using. It is easy to clean and easy to urinate through. Being more open means I get a few more pants pinches when penis skin pokes up and gets rubbed, but that is more tolerable than the bulky, sweaty, unsightly plastic. My key holder likes it better, too. I think she will begin keeping me in it most of the time; before, she was indifferent, as long as I followed the rules: no stimulation (and of course no cumming, which no stimulation pretty much rules out). I do obey the rules, but having the weight and presence of the metal constantly hugging me is a frustrating reminder that what I used to play with daily is no longer mine.
The third of the 3 Chinese imitation devices arrived over the weekend. So far, I like the A080 version the best. It is a little long on me when flaccid, but that minimizes the times when a little flesh creeps out beyond the cage and gets pinched by my pants. I could prevent most of this I think by wearing briefs (or panties!), but I have gotten quite used to swinging free, in one sense at least. The A099 with a urethral insert was a big fail. I am big on hygiene, and urination while wearing that device was very messy. I have used sounds to measure my urethral diameter at 10mm, but this device is only 6mm. I have read that you want a little leakage around the outside of the insert to maintain urethral lining moisture, and that makes sense, but this seemed too much to me. The third device I got was a shorter, thinner version of the A080, with a bit less downward curvature. I have only worn it one night so far, and around the house. The shorter tube may have been the reason, or maybe it was the tease I got earlier that day, but my nocturnal erection was more painful than usual. I was going to wear it out and about this afternoon, but I was starting to get a little burning sensation on the underside of the penis, so I opted to go free for the afternoon. It's now bedtime and I have locked the smaller one back on for another test drive. It's not a good start - I am so horny that the cock is already throbbing within the cage. I predict 2-3 wake ups in the night. Writing this right before bed doesn't help! This being the 9th day since I last came doesn't help, either. My key holder usually lets me cum after 15-20 days, but I never know beforehand.
I haven't posted in a while - nobody was commenting - but I thought I'd give a short update for posterity. After several months of going 15 to 20 days between ejaculations, I asked for and was granted a reprieve from long term chastity. We returned to our "normal" activity, with me cumming about twice a week with her. We have also been going through some house remodeling, which has sapped my energy for enduring chastity, for about the last month. In addition, I like to ride my bicycle when it's warm, and that keeps me from wearing a device for very long, or from giving up the key. A week ago she left town for a business trip, and she forbid me to come while she was gone. In order to keep from playing with myself, I locked myself in my cage every night while I slept, and wore the cage when I could during the week. All this has rekindled my craving for chastity. I am struggling with myself about whether or not I should confess this desire. The last time she went on a long trip, one lasting two weeks, was when I broke down and emailed her all about my desires for teasing and denial. I am torn about whether I want to go back into the lifestyle. I hesitate to commit myself when I am so horny. But I am currently so worked up I would say yes to just about anything. She is on the plane flying home now, and I am very tempted to send an email to greet her when she arrives. Sending that email is something I cannot undo. It's my bedtime, but I do not think I will be able to sleep until I hit send. I am getting hard in my cage just typing this, and it really aches. I must go type an email to her now…
... and I sent it. My request for more chastity will be waiting for her when she arrives...
> I haven't posted in a while - nobody was commenting According to the "Before you begin..." we are supposed to "...keep comments to a minimum...". This is supposed to be *your* area, your journal, meant to be relatively uncluttered by the rest of us. I read every entry you make, and I'm sure that others do as well. Don't let the lack of comments stop you. > I hesitate to commit myself when I am so horny. But I am currently so worked up I would say yes to just about anything. Funny how that works, isn't it...
When I read your post about "nobody was commenting" I was going to respond but I see that TwistedMister beat me to it. Don't be discouraged to post. You are getting plenty of viewers to your journey and I believe most of us are abiding by the rules to keep responses to a minimum.
I didn't realize that people were not supposed to comment much in this section. I will quit being so petulant!
> The threads in this forum are meant for journaling (blogging, a diary, etc.). While other members may respond in the thread, please keep comments to a minimum. This will keep the important conversations in the discussion forums. Think of this area as a personal blogging space; if you want discussion on some aspect, that's for the main or the member forums. While comments are always encouraged, we would prefer that the discussions happen in an area where everyone can see them and perhaps learn something from them.
Well I survived her week-long trip. I did get overly-horny and send her a detailed message about the state of desire I had gotten into during her absence and asking to be returned to long-term chastity. I had been cumming twice a week with her lately. When she returned this weekend I think she really wanted to get fucked by me, and she let me cum. We will see if she returns me to waiting 2-3 weeks as she did before. She has been under a lot of pressure at work and we have been doing a renovation at home, so her capacity for making decisions is basically tapped. My energy is largely absorbed for the same reasons. But my desire to get more fully charged up has returned. I have returned to wearing my CD more often than not (not always comfortable, given the heat of summer) and in time our focus can return to our sex lives. Which is more to her climax life and less to mine.
For the record, I welcome and enjoy comments on my "journey" here. They give me a sense of direction and give me a point of departure outside of my own little headspace.
Yes, that would be thrilling and then terrifying!
Even though it's always me doing it to myself, there is always a thrill about clicking the lock shut and pulling out the key, if the swelling reaction of the cock is a fair judge. As long as the weather is warm, I ride my bicycle at least a couple times a week, and can't quite manage how to surrender the keys. I tried pedaling around the neighborhood, and the discomfort is just tolerable. But the thought of 1-2 hours leaves me with visions of bleeding chafe- and pinch-wounds. I could tolerate being seen with a huge bulge, but the comfort issue dictates that I have a key handy for riding. I still long to give up control of all access, but that is difficult to envision. I have continued acquiring Chinese imitation devices for the sake of trial. I like 2 models of the 6 I've tried: the A080 (Jailbird knockoff) and a Looker 02 knockoff. The A080 gets on my nerves a bit, with penis flesh offering itself through its bars to the inside of my jeans to be pinched at awkward moments. It is definitely the cleanest device, though. I think a larger inside diameter might help the pinching issue. I also still have issues with sometimes being so short when flaccid that my penis head catches the inside of the cage and points up. This results in occasional pinches and misdirected urine when I fail to get lined up before letting go. The Looker 02 imitation has been getting more dick time of late. The end is enclosed, and the insert keeps the penis lined up, working together to prevent and penis pinches. I still get the occasional scrotum pinch, but this may be inherent to any trapped-ball device. I have slowly been increasing my time in this device, up to 36 hours now, to make sure all is well with having a tube down the dick. I can feel it moving up and down inside as I move,around, but the irritation is minor, and actually a good reminder. The ball at the end of the insert is about the maximum I could take at 10mm. I get an internal pinching feeling with nocturnal erections clamp down on the ball, but it's bearable and I feel better about a ball there rather than a sharp tube end. Urination is still something I'm getting used to with this device. You have to hold back the pressure when you pee, not always easy if the urge is strong, or the urine will go in different directions. It often goes outside the tube, which is a good thing for keeping your urethra lining moist, but the excess can hit the inside if the cage end and back spray, like running water into a spoon. The result can be pee going straight up out of the toilet. And don't even think about peeing while standing up; this random spray can very well end up down the front of your pants. And, there is no way to clear the inside of the tube when peeing; water tension will keep a column of urine inside, which slowly (or quickly) releases its contents onto your pants within minutes. It's amazing how much volume the tube can hold. Still, I like the feel of being locked into this device. If there was some way to cap the hole after peeing it would be much better to me. The next step is a couple of fully-enclosed steel tubes I have just bought. The thought of having the dick inside a tube which doesn't allow me to see, let alone touch, the cock, is deeply stimulating mentally. At least in concept... I'm not sure how I would handle that mentally. The down side will be hygiene; the inside of the tube will no doubt be doused in urine, and demand cleaning at least twice a day to prevent odor buildup. I doubt my keyholder will find this aspect appealing. But perhaps I can shake it clean better than a cage with a urethral insert. And there will definitely be fewer pinching issues! I'll keep you all posted on my trial phase. Once I feel comfortable trying the different styles, I'll order a custom-made, real stainless steel device. Of course, I will have spent about half the cost of a real device on these Chinese imitations, but I feel this is a good test of what really works for me. Please feel free to comment or ask questions of me.
> ...there is no way to clear the inside of the tube when peeing; water tension will keep a column of urine inside, which slowly (or quickly) releases its contents onto your pants within minutes. It's amazing how much volume the tube can hold. Still, I like the feel of being locked into this device. If there was some way to cap the hole after peeing it would be much better to me. You'll probably just have to make do with a woman's panty liner. Your KH might even find that amusing (Mrs. Twisted used to complain about having to wear a 'diaper' several days out of the month).
I own and use the original Looker. I also have the problem with urine dripping out afte leaving the toilet. I solve this by folding up 2 sheets of toilet paper into a rather thick package and putting that package into my underwear to soak up any drops. Works well. An option would be to use the plug screw that steelworxx provides with the Looker, but I don't want to have to fiddle around before using the toilet. I only use that when I go swimming with the device. For someone who is uncut, the cap of the Looker is essential for comfortable wear without pinching; the anatomic basering provides additional comfort for the scrotum. My longest time of continuous wear was 3 days. -K
I have been alternating between the Looker02 clone and the JB clone at night the last few weeks. I find advantages and disadvantages with each. The L02 is enclosed at the end and is shorter, which means I can wear it under my jeans without uncomfortable pinching. But when I pee I still have dripping issues, which means all-day wear is questionable. Pads and tissue wads just don't seem to be a good solution since I am fairly active at work. The JB clone seems a better long-term wear choice, though I get the occasional pinch. I can stand up peeing if I take time to line the dick up in the cage, an option not at all available in the L02 clone. And given that some of my restroom breaks are in port-a-potties, sitting down to pee is not at all desirable. And cleanliness is also an issue with the L02 - closed-end devices get smelly without 2 or 3 daily cleanings, which is not an option for me at work. While I love the feel of the urethral insert, I am wearing the JB clone more often now. I am expecting to get a fully – enclosed device in the mail soon, which should prove to be an interesting experience. I suspect the cleanliness issue will prevent me wearing this long term. But the thought of having absolutely no contact with the penis is very intriguing. We are going on vacation in about 2 weeks. I ejaculated Sunday with my KH, and have asked her to keep me in chastity (locked in or not, always on the honor system) from that time until we leave. That should make vacation very exciting! She has never kept me more than 20 days, and the beginning of vacation would be about day 18 for me. From past experience, I know I will be very horny by then. During sex play, we often talk about her fucking another guy while I watch, locked up. Perhaps we will find a guy on vacation to fulfill this fantasy. I am definitely wary of getting what I asked for. I am extending the periods of time I am locked in advice as I get used to having it on during my varied days. Do my work involves a good deal of walking, I have found that I can stay locked up during work hours without too many difficulties, as long as I am wearing the JB clone. My biggest obstacle to wearing a device full-time during the warmer season is the fact that I ride my bike twice a week. I have only toyed with wearing a device while I ride, but I cannot envision an hour and a half on a bike saddle with a device on. Perhaps if I invested in a Mature Metal JB I would feel differently. A custom fit would probably come closer to making bicycling in a device possible. The $400 price tag makes that option hard to swallow. All told, I feel like I am moving farther down the road to total chastity. I have learned much about what feels right and how I am able to stay locked in a device in various circumstances. My keyholder has one of my two keys hidden, but I continue to hold on to the other as I experiment in fit and comfort. I long for the day when I hand over both keys and walk away from all control of the penis.
My KH and I are going on vacation to a large American city in about a week. Since my earlier postings in this thread on the subject of cuckolding, the subject has continued evolving in our fantasy life. As a reminder, I brought the subject of watching her fuck another man while I was locked up and she locked in on the idea. That was a few months ago. Many times during teasing she has brought this fantasy up, and the idea has developed to the point that we are going to walk down playing at the cuckold game while on vacation. The idea is for us to separately enter a bar, and sit at some distance apart. She is going to wear the crotchless panties and low-cut, nipple-exposing bra that I bought her as underwear, with some enticing clothes over them. I will watch while guys flirt with her, and will be caged, with the key on a chain visibly hanging around her neck. If a guy should inquire about sex, she will explain the key and that her locked boyfriend would be watching. I suspect many guys would be put off by that, but we will be looking for the odd guy who finds that a turn-on. Most guys wouldn't be observant enough to notice, but inquiries about the key around her neck would prompt a discussion about chastity. If the flirter wants to be her bull, she would tell him I'm watching, give me the sign, and we'd proceed to our motel room. I would remain locked and watch him fuck her. She would be wet already, since I would warm her up before going to the bar, and the idea apparently excites her, since she keeps bringing it up. Though we never use them, we have purchased condoms for her bull. I would love to see his cum dripping from her well-fucked pussy, but not from a bar pick-up. I do not plan to participate beyond actively watching and giving verbal comment. If this scenario goes well, we would pursue finding a bull at home. If we got to know and trust him, the condom could come off and he could get control of my key. In reality, I think she will flirt with a couple of suitors, neither of which will be suitable to her (we will agree on a "save me" signal), and we'll return nightly to our room just the two of us for some teasing for me and some cumming for her. But it will be hot going through the motions.
Have you considered a Prince Albert piercing. This greatly simplifies things, or at least it did for me. It's easy to make it very secure, and you can even skip the whole ball entrapment thing and go with something like a PA-5000, or the DIY I describe in another posting. I can see you possibly finding a very comfortable ride on your bike with either device, since it lets your cock fall to either side, out of the way. I haven't tried it with a bike, so I can't say for sure... Good luck with the cuckolding experience! It's fun to watch you on your journey of exploration, and I wish the best for you..... My wife's bull definitely brought a whole new, welcome dimension to our relationship!
When riding my road bicycle there is no room on or on either side of the saddle. I still need to test-ride short distances in my device, but the saddle puts pressure on the perineum, about where the base ring of any ball capture device rests. It seems to me that that would cause unhealthy pressure or chafing, but one never knows until one tries. As to a PA, I have always wanted one, but do not relish the thought of trying something I could not reverse if I didn't like it. In other words, I don't fancy permanently marring myself, especially something my KH and I value highly!:lol: I also have read that peeing can be messy, with the extra hole, and I don't want to sit to pee the rest of my life. All the same, the idea is very intriguing. But my KH told me I am responsible for all dental expenses...
> member_35559a144a wrote:But my KH told me I am responsible for all dental expenses... Lol! Thank you, that's great! It will close up, if the piercing is removed, but there's a lot of truth to the sitting to pee thing. There are ways around it, once it's healed.. For myself, it was perfect. The discomfort and disadvantages of the ball-capture devices were far worse, and in fact, I'm still healing from a pressure sore from my last one (mostly healed now after 2 weeks.). There was also a big issue for me with the ability to escape - not always an issue with others. You simply can't escape a PA. It's a friggin hole in your dick, for heaven's sake!:-) I guess a lot depends on how committed to it you are. My KH and I are totally all in on this, so it turned out to be an easy choice, and I'm very happy with the results. Going on 3 weeks with the PA and my custom cage!
Well we are on the last couple of days of our much-anticipated vacation. We had talked a good bit about finding a guy to fuck her while I watched, locked up in my cage. As reality has dawned, she has proven to really be into the fantasy I shared with her. She has been growing more and more horny the week we have been in this metropolitan area, to the point where she encouraged me to find someone on Craigslist to fuck her while I watched. So far, we have had some interest, but nothing has worked out. We fly home in 48 hours, back to our regular cycles, and it looks like my cuckold fantasy will have to wait. We're both ok with this. Playing with the idea has been thrilling. We even took a hot picture of her to send to potential CL bulls, which was new for us. Also, she dressed up in a push-up bra that doesn't cover her nipples and went out to a bar, sitting separately to see if anyone would pick her up. I was locked in my cage, with the key hung prominently around her neck, intending to explain our kink to anyone who asked. Sadly, the town rolls up the streets early this time of year, and the place was dead. We returned to our hotel room and brought her to a massive orgasm, with me still happily locked up. We may try the next night or two, but I feel like the wave just broke. These steps have been thrilling for repressed ex-vanilla me. We have walked some steps down the fantasy road, and loved it. She may yet blossom into a full-on chastity mistress. Time will tell. Now she still tends to lead tentatively - she is sweet and has no desire to inflict pain on me or anyone else. I think she'll slowly learn to bring me more of the perverse pleasure that teasing and denial bring, and we'll both grow within and together.
We just returned home from vacation. I have learned that once work pressure is removed and some fantasy is injected, my gal can be quite the sex kitten! The wave I mentioned hadn't broken, only pulled back tomcome crashing in again. We both woke up the last full morning of vacation all horny and playing in bed. We "discussed" finding a bull to cuckold me with her that night before leaving the next morning, but in the end we ended up having hot one-on-one dually-climactic sex, and thoroughly enjoyed it. Now that we're back, she says she's allowed me to cum far too much recently and it's time for me to be locked up again, for a good, long time. Of course, locked up for us is mostly figurative, since I wear a device less than half the time. But it was good to wake up playing and fantasizing, and sometimes just letting loose. Now back to reality, and cum time is over for a while.
It seems the cuckold fantasy has kept her sex kitten spirit eager to play with her toys. We kept discussing having another man fuck her while I watched, which led to placing a Craigslist ad looking for someone else. I didn't post any pictures, yet still received about 80 responses, mostly within that first day. She works quite a bit, and since this is my fantasy she's allowing me to steer with, I handled answering the emails and culling through the "herd." We whittled it down to half a dozen candidates and sent out a couple of her photos, then decided on the first one to meet up with. The plan was to meet several guys for short drink meetings at a bar, where they would know she'd be wearing a skirt without panties, letting us see how the chemistry went. So last Wednesday night we met our initial guy, an appealing fellow who seemed fairly experienced in swinging circles. We sat around a circular, private booth with her positioned between him and me. I stayed slightly apart from her, signaling to him that he could move in—I was there mainly as an observer. I hadn't cum for 11 days, but wasn't locked up yet. Knowing how to handle first-timers, he approached slowly. For me, it was a fascinating experience. As he moved closer during our vivid, easy conversation, I felt alternating waves of violation and excitement. When he got right beside her and I realized his hand had gone well up her skirt, the excitement clearly overpowered the sense of violation. While his hand explored her crotch, the conversation continued on various topics unrelated to what was happening under the table. A couple of times she lost her train of thought, letting me know she was really enjoying it. At one point while he was just using his hands during our chat, I noticed him showing off a small vibrator. Boy, that ratcheted up my excitement! Having planned beforehand that this encounter would stay within bounds on the first night, after a couple of drinks we parted ways, with her giving him a deep goodbye kiss. We talked about the evening all through our drive home and immediately jumped into bed where I could lick her pussy until she came. She was so wet! We knew we had found our guy. After receiving confirmation via email that he wanted to move forward with us, I canceled the ad and all other scheduled dates with other guys. We plan to meet in about a week to complete my fantasy of watching her get fucked by another man. This seems like a cold, flat way of describing what feels like a monumental life event to me. It is difficult at this point to describe the feelings I experienced while watching the woman I deeply love being intimately fondled by another man—one I invited over specifically for that purpose while I watched closely. This enactment clearly turned her on, though I remain certain she is going through with it because she knows it excites me, not simply because she wants to be fucked by someone else. It puts her in a win-win situation. Our fulfillment of this fantasy does not involve chastity anymore, although that was part of the original concept, with me locked up and watching. As I have said before, she is not strongly assertive in her role as a chastity Mistress. But she knows that my willingness to go through with it correlates with my horniness, so she doesn't let me come more than once every week or two now. My participation in the ultimate fulfillment of this threesome experience remains to be determined, but we do not plan to have me locked up during it. I will probably warm her up with foreplay before turning her over to him. Depending on how things go, I may or may not follow up with her after he is done. My feelings vary back and forth a little regarding how I will react to watching her get fucked by another guy, but I won't burden you all with every nuance of those emotions. Since this story of my journey has shifted from chastity into the realm of threesomes, I am not sure if I should continue bothering you all with updates. It is quite likely we will follow through and do this, but I cannot foresee exactly how I would feel once it happens. However, I know that doubt is completely natural in this situation; I would be suspicious if I didn't have any doubts. What I do know for certain is that I was highly excited watching her secretly get played with right in front of my eyes, and I suspect any trepidation I feel will be subsumed by that excitement also.
> Since this story of my journey has veered from chastity into a threesome, I am not sure I will bother you all anymore with my story. I think it is quite likely we will follow through and do this... :o You think you can lead us on and then just leave us hanging? Why...you vicious, sadistic little...:evil: Don't you dare! I'm holding my breath until your next entry; if I croak, it's *your* fault.:cry:
We are scheduled to enact this fantasy of me watching another guy fuck my girl this weekend. We were going to do so last weekend, but for reasons I won't go into, I backed out on the morning of the planned event. Our third-party was very magnanimous about our postponement. He is experienced in swinging and seems to know how to guide first-timers like us along slowly to keep us comfortable. Other guys we spoke with came on a bit too strong, giving me the impression they would be hard to get rid of if things didn't go well among the three of us. I told our guy when we postponed that it wasn't that we weren't interested in going through with this, but rather that we needed more time to become comfortable with the idea. He said take your time; I know it will be worth it. After having his fingers inside her pussy at a bar during our first meeting, he is eager to get together again. I don't blame him. Her pussy was tight and very wet when we met him. When we meet to complete this fantasy, I hope he doesn't wear her out so much that I can still fuck her afterward. Sorry voyeurs; he will be wearing a condom so I won't have to settle for sloppy seconds. The idea is somewhat appealing, but the fear of catching a lifelong disease acts as a damper on that extra level of excitement. It will be exciting enough just watching his hard cock slide all the way into her tight, wet pussy.
I watched the woman I love get fucked by another man tonight. It was a profound experience that I'm still processing, even now 4 hours after the event. Chastity was not involved, so I'm not sure if all the details are appropriate for this forum. I just wanted to let anyone who was curious after my previous posts know that the deed is done. Getting here has been quite a ride, and on this side of it I am happy, though I'm still coming to grips with everything as my conclusions form in my mind. In any event, I enjoyed it greatly and our relationship has grown in only positive ways.
> Chastity was not involved, so I'm not sure details are appropriate in this forum. Talk about T&D...don't leave us hanging. It doesn't have to be directly involved; this is *your* area—whatever you feel is appropriate stands true. There are a number of us interested in this aspect as an adjunct to chastity play.
Alright. I sent over a lengthy account to you last night, TM, but today it seems missing. I haven't got the stamina to type out the whole story again, so here are the key points. After some initial hiccups with other men, we eventually connected with a chap from Craigslist who actually stuck with us until the end. We grabbed drinks on Thursday evening last week. My partner was wearing a skirt without panties underneath; he spotted this in the bar later. She was dripping wet, which pleased him greatly.:) We had decided beforehand that our first encounter wouldn't include intercourse, so my wife and I debated whether we wanted to go further with him after I treated her hot, moist pussy well. We agreed he seemed suitable, so I messaged him and set up a meeting for Saturday night. We went out for dinner (I barely ate anything) then headed to his condo just a couple of miles away—he was kind enough to host. Email exchanges had suggested we'd have some wine while he gave her a back massage, aiming to relax her nerves and build arousal. He waited precisely the time it takes to sip one mouthful of wine before leaning in for a kiss. Then he worked his way down, appreciating her exposed nipples above her push-up bra, then lower still toward her thighs over the skirt. It was clear we were about to see more action, so she removed her clothes and gave him full access. He began licking her wet pussy right there on the couch while I stripped off nearby on another sofa, watching closely. She was physically prepared for whatever came next—I'd ensured that before we left—so his reception was quite moist. However, his oral technique wasn't quite what she preferred. She favors a slower, gentler approach; he was faster and firmer. Part of the blame lies with her though, as she appeared very hot and inviting. Neither of us really had time to settle into this brand-new experience fully. I could read from her posture that his sexual style didn't quite excite her, and combined with my own nerves, it put a dent in my excitement permanently. In other words, I failed to get an erection for the entire evening. After he'd thoroughly licked over her pussy and nipples, and having inserted four fingers into her tight entrance—what a waste of such a snug space, which also wasn't really what she wanted—we moved to his king-sized bed. He sat on the edge while she started working on his cock. I remained seated beside him and pulled out my phone to snap some photos. His brisk, somewhat dominant style didn't quite fit here either, as he told her to drop to her knees for a suck. She ignored his command—she kneels for no one—but kept up an excellent blow job. He became nicely erect and then instructed her to lie back on the bed. After putting on a condom, he slid his shaft into her swollen, wet pussy, making sure I had a good view of it. Following a few position changes, he moved behind her and finished inside her in doggy style. She clearly needed to reach climax, so she lay back on the mattress and brought herself to an orgasm while we watched. Afterward, she wanted me to penetrate her, but as noted earlier, I was experiencing a power failure despite trying hard, so she eased me down onto the bed instead. Since I desperately needed to release too, it didn't take long for her mouth skills to draw out a large load from me. It felt slightly awkward not getting hard in front of another man who had no such issues, but this happens occasionally to me over the last few years (I'm only 48, honestly!), so I was mentally ready. With everyone having climaxed, we lounged on the bed for a bit before dressing again and returning to our ignored bottle of wine. We sat chatting about various topics, perhaps not focusing much on what brought us there originally, and left within an hour after finishing the entire bottle. I In the end, I'm really pleased we did it. It was a long, roller-coaster ride over two months—placing the ad, sorting through dozens of responses (which is its own topic entirely), meeting guys who seemed keen but then backed off, and finally getting to experience everything fully. The anticipation peaked high. Just talking about what we'd do with another guy would make her wet. I absolutely love licking her wet pussy! Taking her out to a bar in just a skirt, no panties, while watching a man explore and discover her swollen lips was thrilling. Aside from the initial backing off, the actual event itself turned out to be the most disappointing part of the fantasy for me. But I don't blame our guy. We decided not to script that night; I wanted him to have free rein and enjoy himself, maybe revealing things about her that surprised me. While this led to mediocre sex on my end, I realized how well I know her—I can read exactly what turns her on or off, even when someone else is touching her. I felt a bit humiliated for not getting hard enough to do what I wanted: fuck her right after he was done—but I knew it could happen and wasn't too shocked. If he had gone slower, giving me time to adjust; if his oral technique had pleased her more and built up her arousal further; or if I hadn't been so prone to nervousness, things might have turned out differently in the pants department. Too many strikes against me! The situation was really my problem. By the next morning, while we were caressing at home in bed, I got hard quickly, fucked her gently, and came (she was still a bit sore). So it all worked out well eventually.:) Would we do it again? Yes, I'm up for it, but probably not with this same guy. Our sexual styles are just too different. However, the whole experience was so exciting, and I have some great photos that I look at a few times every day. My girl asked for a break before finding another man to try this with again, and I'm unsure how long that will last. This really boosted communication between us. She's always been the adventurous one, and she has corrupted my repressed side.:) I felt our relationship was strong, and we were both secure in it. But I could never be 100% sure until we actually did this (and no, this wasn't a test). Someone else here noted that seeing another man put his cock inside your woman is something you need to feel confident about because "you can't unsee it." That phrase stayed with me throughout the whole process—thank you, and I'm serious. I felt absolutely zero jealousy watching him fuck her. I had slight hesitations about seeing them kiss, but I know she's perfectly capable of separating sex from feelings (though not with me!)... somehow that felt more intimate than PIV sex to me. But it was all part of the encounter, and I was ready for it. Our sex life is great now, perhaps our curiosity has been satisfied. We might have liked finding someone we'd want to see occasionally for more sex, but I don't think this guy fits that role, and neither does my girl. Since things are going so well, why invite possible drama? Well, it's exciting enough who knows... If anyone wants details or has other questions, please ask—here or via private message. Discussing this helps me process everything more thoroughly. I really hope this posts successfully!
Appreciate the update. It seems like the fellow wasn't quite as thoughtful as he could have been, which is a common occurrence when using Craigslist without really knowing someone well. I get the impression that if Mrs. Twisted were to engage in more than just conversation about it, she'd *not* feel drawn back to Craigslist. She would need to establish a closer connection with her partner...particularly because avoiding condoms seems important to her.
We chose to be cautious and made condom use a strict requirement. Unless he has abstained for several weeks recently and can show proof of negative STD results, we don't think the risk of long-term complications is worth taking (pregnancy isn't our concern). But how do we really know his celibacy status? We did get to know our Craigslist partner fairly well through emails and an initial meeting, yet we didn't interrogate him about sexual habits as much as I would have liked, for reasons outlined in my earlier note. If we repeat this experience, compatibility of style will be a key factor.
The last few months have been a period of change. We started getting into the swinging lifestyle, and right after that her job went hardcore intense, demanding 60 hours a week, and I went through the process of getting a job in city 90 minutes from here. She is now looking for a job there so we can move. Hopefully we'll have time for one another once again! Our sex life got really good but has now eroded to only weekends - we're just too tired during the weeks with her hours and my commute. With growing sexual frustration has come ab renewed desire in me for chastity. Last weel I dug out my old cage and wore it overnight, the first time in months. My interest seems to vary according to my sexual frustration level. The more frustrated I am, the greater my desire for a physical expression thereof. I am getting comfortable enough in my new job to take a chance and wear a device to my new office now. I hope things break loose soon and we settle back in to frequent sex! Last time I got frustrated I almost had her lock me up while she fucked another guy while giving him the key to my device! Fortunately I was free last time we did a MFM. I'm not sure I could handle being in the position of surrendering all that to another guy!