likingitlockedSatisfying My Princess

I’ll begin by sharing my “hello world” thread to provide some context. Hello world. I’m not entirely new to chastity, but my wife and I are just really starting over again last year was a big mess for me. Not an affair, but it still broke the trust with my Princess. Something I truly regret and will spend the rest of my life making right. We had been experimenting with male chastity for several months when everything stopped in September due to my mistake. Our marriage hung by a thread for a bit, but luckily we survived. The relationship has been tense but improving. My Princess (as I now call her) has locked me up again, and no one knows how long it will last. It’s been nine days since my last orgasm—I had them via masturbation—and that won’t happen anymore while she holds the reins. Currently wearing a CB6000s, but we ordered a Jailbird yesterday. I’m really excited for its arrival because hygiene matters greatly to us and keeping the 6000 clean is not always easy. She’s 52 and I’m 56. She’s quite new to this lifestyle and still has some struggles with it, but I feel incredibly blessed that she is giving it a serious go. I hope she finds enjoyment in it; my biggest wish is for this to become permanent. No, I don’t need total orgasm denial forever, but I welcome her having full control over my erections and orgasms from now on. I take pleasure when and if she permits it—her satisfaction comes first. She enjoys intercourse so that part isn’t denied, but I only get to climax if she allows it. She has also joined here as a key-holder and plans to gather advice from the more experienced members. For now, her identity stays secret; she will reveal herself as my keeper only if she decides to let people know. I’ll head over to the Journey Forum to start blogging about my thoughts and experiences. I’m very glad to be here, even happier being locked up and loved by my beautiful, sexy Princess. Love you Princess. With that said, I’ll continue sharing some reflections from these past few days. It’s now been 12 days since my last orgasmic relief. Believe me, for a man of 56, that is an eternity. Rarely do I go more than two or three days without one unless I’m locked up. That said, I must tell you: I am extremely horny right now. Nothing would please me more than taking this thing off and pleasing myself several times over. But I won’t. The reason? I promised my Princess I wouldn’t break the rule, and I am trying desperately to regain her trust. This is just one piece of that larger puzzle; if she can’t trust me not to “jack off,” how can she trust me with more important things? I will say that I feel like going mad from desire for my Princess. While I would dearly love an orgasm on my own, I think I’d rather give her the pleasure she deserves. It’s a somewhat strange mindset—one I noticed last year when we were playing at chastity. The longer I stay locked and denied, the more eager I am to please her—not just to earn an orgasm, but truly to satisfy her. I hope I get my chance later today or tonight; whether she allows me pleasure doesn’t matter much. If not, there’s always tomorrow, or the day after that. One thing I’ve come to really enjoy is having her rub and knead my balls while I’m locked away. Her teasing and pinching of my nipples also give great delight. Even though my cock is restrained with little hope for erection or direct stimulation, receiving attention on my balls and nipples brings considerable pleasure. While there’s no way I could climax from this alone, the endorphin release is real and very enjoyable. I don’t know exactly how long she plans to deny me an orgasm, and honestly, it doesn’t matter much. I told her that henceforth she holds charge of my sexual gratification, and I meant every word. The key to my pleasure rests in her hand—well, technically on a chain around her neck—but you get the idea. Love you Princess.

Just a quick update. Yesterday afternoon, Princess called me back to help her with something. I walked into the bedroom and found her naked on the bed. She said she needed an orgasm. I didn’t waste time undressing. She handed me the key and mentioned she probably wanted me inside her too. I quickly unlocked my cage then moved between her legs. I started kissing the insides of her thighs before moving down to her pussy—I absolutely love eating her out. As that was happening, she teased my hard cock with one foot. I have a serious foot fetish, and she knows it well. After a few minutes, she said her nipples needed attention, so I immediately moved up and began sucking first one then the other—but before doing that, I slipped our Wi Vibe inside her. She really likes it. She asked if I wanted to be inside her as well; of course, I did. I slowly slid my hard cock in and started using long, slow strokes. I was telling her how happy I am that she’s keeping me locked up. Not sure everything got said because things get forgotten in the heat of the moment. She mentioned she wasn’t going to last much longer while I continued stroking. I remember saying that since I’m locked, I can only cum when she allows it; I won’t be able to masturbate again on my own. After just a few more strokes, she exploded. Once her climax passed, I moved back between her legs, pulled the vibe out, and licked her sweet cream off it. She watched and asked if it tasted good—I told her it did. Then I began licking her pussy clean again, telling her how much I loved the way she tasted. Next, I moved up and held her close. She reached down to stroke my cock and squeeze my balls. God, that felt wonderful. She teased me like this for a few minutes before telling me to get locked back up. That was easier said than done given my raging hard-on, but I managed it by clicking the lock shut. It’s now been 13 days since my last orgasm. While I am extremely horny, I’m actually quite okay with not being allowed one yesterday. As we lay in bed last night, I truly hoped she would rub my balls, though it didn’t happen. She rolled onto her side and I spooned behind her. She took my hand and pulled it between her breasts, placing the key to my cage into my palm. A very nice touch from Princess. We drifted off to sleep like that. This morning I woke with a normal hard-on—or as close to one as possible in the 6000s. I can get about half-hard in the CB6000, but the JB will put an end to that flexibility. I wonder what it’ll be like but am really looking forward to its arrival. Love you Princess.

Another quick update. Yesterday while driving out, I got a text from my Princess. It included a picture of the key to my cage held against her naked breast, with a message that she was thinking about me. Immediately, I felt like trying to split the seams on my 6Ks. A few more texts came in and I found myself truly in a bad way. After returning home, she read some posts from here as well as those from the keyholders’ side. You have to understand this is far outside her comfort zone, and I was extremely touched that she felt comfortable sharing it with me. We discussed several things—some might appeal to me, others not so much. Good to clear up any misunderstandings. Later in the evening, she started reading excerpts from a blog aloud. Again, very happy to be included there were some interesting observations made that really hit home. Some related to "topping from the bottom," which I do somewhat—but no more of that now. Later in bed, we had a great round of lovemaking with me unlocked so I could actually enter her. I was not allowed an orgasm though; it didn’t happen, but it took significant concentration. Not sure how much longer I can hold off when the feeling is so damned good. But I’ll give it my best effort afterward she teased my very hard cock for a while before telling me to lock back up. Achieving that task was difficult but finally, the click confirmed the cage shut. Snuggling next to her, I counted my lucky stars to be married to this woman then drifted off to sleep—a very horny yet very happy man. The greatest thing about yesterday was seeing her take an active role in our play. She is reading and gathering information and ideas. Whether this continues long-term remains to be seen. For now, I am extremely pleased that my Princess is trying to learn everything she can and taking interest in the lifestyle. My hope is that it will continue indefinitely. Of course, that choice rests with her. I’ll be happy whatever decision she makes regarding us. I’ve already had more happiness from this woman than I deserve. Love you Princess.

It seems I may have created a monster. Don’t get me wrong, this is no complaint; I am in heaven. Damn it all to hell, I love that woman. Princess appears to have taken a deep interest in several different aspects of the lifestyle. She has mentioned it could be our permanent way forward and couldn't be happier about it herself. Last night she asked me to take her to an adult toy store. She said she wanted to look around and possibly buy a few items. She’s developed a strong desire for me to service her with my penis but without receiving the pleasurable stimulation myself. She looked into getting some numbing cream and perhaps a penis sleeve—that way I could satisfy her without having an orgasm of my own. The shop was run by several young ladies. Princess wore the key to my device around her neck, this time prominently displayed rather than hidden. Out in plain view for everyone to see. I have to admit, it made me uncomfortable—a rare occurrence because usually it’s the other way around. We walked over to the numbing cream section where a young attendant approached us asking if we needed help. I expected Princess to say we were just browsing; how wrong I was! She simply stated she wanted some numbing cream for use on me. Shit, I felt embarrassed. She kept questioning which product was strongest and so forth. I don’t think I actually blushed but perhaps I did. She bought nipple clamps for my use and a set of bed restraints. Walking around the store like she owned it all—would have been way out of her comfort zone just a week ago, who knows maybe it still was—but certainly didn't show it. She asked me questions from time to time about whether I liked this or that thing always loud enough for others in the shop to hear. Really uncomfortable for me but my cock was trying desperately to burst out of the cage. I was really turned on by her "new" confident self. As we checked out, she told the girls behind the counter that we’d be back soon. After arriving home, I anticipated a great evening. She instructed me to put the restraints on the bed. As we crawled in together, she got the adjustable nipple clamps and clipped them on. She adjusted the tightness to a level causing me to hiss. Then she said she was just experimenting and took them off before asking if I liked them. Had to admit that yes, I did—really did. She commented that she thinks they need to be slightly tighter and fear she will make that adjustment next time. And dammit, I am looking forward to it. She then declared "that’s enough teasing for the night" turned off the light and went to sleep. Arrrrgh!!!!!! Damn if I wasn’t horny wanting her touch or permission to eat her pussy—anything would do—but no. Nothing at all. Then I realized I was getting exactly what I had asked for: she controls every aspect of my sexual stimulation and pleasure. And you know what? I love it. Truly, I hope it continues indefinitely. I snuggled up next to her—a very, very horny man but also a very, very happy one. She left this morning for a trip out of town returning tomorrow evening sometime. Missing her already—not just sexually. Seeing her in a much different light and realizing how deeply she loves me. As said earlier in this thread: This lifestyle is (or maybe should be called was) outside her comfort zone. There’s no way she can know how much I appreciate her doing all of this. She does research and comes up with ideas that, yes, I’ve thought of but would never have believed even considering them. It seems I’m in for a Helluva ride so am strapping my saddle down tight. I’ll say it again: Damn if I don’t love that woman. Truly she is my life and soul-mate; sorry I didn't recognize it sooner. Can truly tell her anything now—exactly how it should be. Love you Princess and thank you ever so much for loving me.

Wanting to catch you all up. I was finally allowed an orgasm after 24 days of denial. It proved very interesting indeed. They removed my cage and she told me she wanted to watch while I masturbated—a bit embarrassing for me. I lubed myself up and began. She instructed me just edge without cumming. At this point, I didn’t know if release was truly granted or not; I’ll never quite know until that moment of truth comes again and rather like it that way. I brought myself to the edge several times until one time when timing failed me slightly. I gave myself a ruined orgasm—a fair amount of cum oozed out. I told my Princess I was sorry but she just smiled, picked up a table spoon, scooped my semen up, and told me to open wide. I did; she deposited it onto my tongue. Always fantasized about being forced to do that—it happened for the first time today. Now required to eat my cum whenever and wherever I deposit it. Princess then lay back having me eat her a few minutes longer insert our We Vibe, enter her with my still hard cock. Having just suffered a ruined orgasm myself able to bring her to climax easily without much trouble on my part. Licked the vibe clean followed by gently licking her juices from her pussy before lying back down again. She told me I could finish masturbating while she watched; did so and once more fed results to me with that table spoon. Then cuddled up falling asleep together. The next night had me unlock and make love properly allowed an orgasm inside her. After catching breath removed We Vibe looked at me instructed cleaning starting from the vibe first—rather embarrassing having her watch licking combined juices off it dove between legs licked clean too desire departed with arrival of my climax but wasn’t as bad expected guess doesn't matter because’ll doing this forever now forcing do is one way exerts dominance being good top truly am. Over past couple weeks discussed lot things many believe would never talk about little uncomfortable times absolutely loved every moment. Yesterday afternoon small get-together drank too much failed recognize acknowledge warning signs Princess sent out wrong she pissed later understand why displeased her don't want do that lately talking some form discipline normally bedroom life normal life cross grey areas may one those mentioned couple times might paddle use going through thinking getting ass busted totally unacceptable behavior deserve also think enjoy bringing submissive feeling making think disappointing Princess again if choice happily submit punishment thank her later. After party went dancing yes sobered quickly great evening moving around dance floor casually wondered what it would be like put butt-plug before going out spending evening plugged damn kinky really turned on thinking not necessarily actual act being plugged fact top control exerting dominance requiring hope does slowly evolving roles truly think things well wife taken interest working hard learning role getting very good see change demeanor confidence level too don't think ever sexier to me. Check back later catch everyone up thank Princess love.