My introduction

Alright. I’m typing this with my wife looking over my shoulder. She thought it would be good for me to join this forum and participate, publicly, regarding my chaste lifestyle and what brought me here. Up till now, I have not “gone public” about what brought me here and why. First let me say, and I am forever sorry … that I was a terrible husband. I never stopped loving my wife, but I couldn’t control my addiction to masturbation and pornography. I literally masturbated at least twice a day, and usually 3 or 4 times. If I was always overnight at a hotel for work, I would masturbate endlessly … bringing dvd’s and a dvd player to the hotel. I was so messed up, that I brought tools so I could take the cable out of the back of the tv (I needed a hemostat) to get under the plastic shield that would prevent the cable to be removed. I would bring a suitcase full of sex toys and lingerie. I had been wearing panties all of the time, but would remove them when I got home. If I was away, overnight … I would wake up early and masturbate to a dvd, which involved many times, peeing in the panties to make them wet and alot of nipple play. I could cum in my panties without touching myself, if I peed in them and played with my nipples and wiggled my hips. I know it’s pathetic, but it is where I was at the time. If I wasn’t away, I would go downstairs real early and masturbate by watching a dvd on my computer. It was always in panties and that is how my day started every day. Every day! I would masturbate at work. I am in charge of the office where I work, so I had a private office and would close my door and masturbate to the porn stored on my computer. I used to fantasize that my panties were probably prettier and sexier than what most of the women wore to work. This is so embarrasing … but i’ve already told my wife this. She sometimes cries when I relive this, but isn’t now. After some time, I learned about chastity and bought a cb3000 initially. Then a cb6000 and finally she had me buy a cb6000s because i look so pathetic not filling the cb6000. It’s humiliating to think I can live in such a tiny thing! But i do. Anyway, I cleverly hid all of my “stuff” in a cutout underneath the steps in our house. There is a tiny space under the steps for storage that we never used … but I did. Noone ever looked back there because the coats hanging concealed it. Noone would ever go in there, I thought. One day, she couldn’t find a scarf and then noticed it had fallen on the floor in the back of the closet. Probably, I had knocked it back there and didn’t notice, since it isn’t lighted and I usually made quick exits from my hidden storage space. She went in there with a flashlight and noticed there were things in the little cutout. So, she decided to look. What she found upset her so much, that when she confronted me … she told me to leave. She told me that she now understood why I couldn’t perform properly when we had sex. She said she thought it was a medical problem, but now understood it was due to this. She wanted to know where the panties came from, why I bought the toys and dvd’s. She cried and yelled and threw things at me. It was horrible and I felt the worse I ever did. I admitted to her that while I had purchased some panties, some I had stolen from hampers of our friends. That was, perhaps, the hardest thing to admit. I wanted her to understand that I was out of control and I needed help. How sick was this to steal soiled panties of our friends! As she was going through my stuff, she found the cb3000 and threw it at me. Then she asked me what it was and why did I have it. I told her that it was a fantasy of mine … to be locked up. This threw her into a rage. She had asked me dozens of times what I fantasize about and my answer always was … that I really didn’t. I never saw her so hurt and mad. That was it … I was to leave. I crawled over to her, crying … begging her to give me another chance. I had never thought about or ever had sex with anyone but her. My sex was purely masturbation and it had gotten out of control I told her I would do anything to make this up to her. She told me to leave … to go to a hotel, and come back tomorrow to get my things. I left. The next morning I returned. She told me she had been up all night googling all these things about me. She wanted to know why i stole the panties of our friends … did i secretly want to have sex with them? I told her that my panty stealing started with my aunt when I was 10 years old. That I just loved panties and that new ones from the store just didn’t arouse me. This was painful to admit that I smelled them and licked them. As we talked, she began to realize that i truly had a problem, that was beyond my ability to control or fix. It was then that the idea about chastity came to her. She told me that I could stay, if I agreed to a chastity life style … that I had to be locked at all times, except when she chose to unlock me. She told me that I would be subservient to her, since I liked watching movies like that … so then I should experience it for real. It was a fantasy … how could I say no. We both couldn’t believe how attentive I became to her and how quickly it happened. She spent all of her free time researching chastity and reading blogs. She began to love it and in the process … our relationship was better than ever. She is my life and I spend all of my time, thinking about her and doing things for her. I clean the house, I cook the meals and shop … I give her sex whenever she wants it and not by my desire. When I am released, I am required to try to cum … by masturbating for 90 seconds … looking into her eyes. I haven’t been able to cum yet. I can’t touch my nipples or any other part of my body. I can’t watch porn … I have to lay there … looking into her eyes and strock my cock. I wish I could, but haven’t yet been able to figure out how to cum. She milks me twice a week, while in my cage. It’s then that it is removed and cleaned (by me). Then I must try to cum by masturbating. I think it’s going to be impossible, having been milked and unable to touch my nipples. She says it’s the punishment I must learn to live with, since I was so unattentive to her sexual needs. Thats it for now … rattie

I'm confused, please clarify. In your *Hello World Intro *you have this; > member_2eb138a5a4 wrote:... To save my marriage, because I truly love her ... I asked her if she would give me a chance if I submitted to chastity. Initially she was very turned off and cried for days... Then in this thread you have this; > member_2eb138a5a4 wrote:...As we talked, she began to realize that i truly had a problem, that was beyond my ability to control or fix. > It was then that the idea about chastity came to her. She told me that I could stay, if I agreed to a chastity life style ... that I had to be locked at all times, except when she chose to unlock me... Which is it?

> I'm confused, please clarify. Image

The truth is, I like to tell it like I did in the Hello World. The truth is She came up with the idea having found by CB. Sorry for the deception in my first post ...

Thanks for the clarification. You may have an idea for the Fiction section. Feel free to put your fantasy stories there.

That's a great idea. Thank you