The Truth of Being Locked Is Sinking In

It has been 25 days since I went into lock-in. It feels like I always get really torn around that one-month milestone. Naturally, I am desperate for relief, but even if I could convince my KH to hand over the keys, I know I would feel let down if I actually did. That said, we had several long and specific talks about this in December, so unless I end up in the hospital, it’s unlikely I will be unlocked before 1/1/12. That finality of the decision is starting to sink in for me now. I went out with some friends on Saturday night but didn’t meet anyone particularly interesting, which feels like a relief… Maybe by October I can time things so that intimacy lines up with my release date:lol: I picked up something interesting on Fetlife this week - One of the chastity groups (Enforced Chastity, if memory serves) posted about using a male condom catheter worn over the outside of a chastity tube to allow the wearer to use a urinal. I plan to try this and will report back on how it goes - I would LOVE being able to pee while standing again! Well, not much else to add - writing about it helps - sorry for the ramble!

Every once in a while, the reality of being locked really hits me. I’m glad you started this thread. For me, it’s not always just "horniness" that makes me want to be unlocked. Instead, it is the realization that I am forbidden from playing with my cock. Having to make special arrangements for peeing, showering, wearing double layers of underwear for leakage, and so on. All these little things sometimes make me wish I wasn't locked. Probably one of the toughest parts of being locked is seeing porn images of "blessed" guys getting sucked or fucked because women just can’t keep their hands off those big cocks. Knowing that isn't—and won't—be me, makes the reality truly set in. David

> member_6881ff1b4b wrote: > Probably one of the toughest parts of being locked is seeing porn images of "blessed" guys getting sucked or fucked because women just can’t keep their hands off those big cocks. Knowing that isn't—and won't—be me, makes the reality truly set in. I agree! I had only one orgasm 10 days ago before being locked on Jan 4! My KH is keeping me locked until at least day 30! Today was very difficult at several points. I agree with your thoughts on porn, but I’m not sure why I still can’t stop looking at or watching it! Sometimes I do just to remind myself of the great feeling I’ll have in another 20 days!:D

Thanks Rob, glad to know I’m not alone.

It seems we are all in the same boat!

By the way, since my original post here I have been testing the condom catheter on the outside of my chastity device. Here is what I’ve learned so far: First, it’s important to carefully center the condom at the end of the tube before unrolling the adhesive part, or everything gets wrinkled and stuck together. Second, once unrolled, unless your device is huge, you need to trim the condom a bit shorter than the device; otherwise, the adhesive constantly pinches your skin between the excess silicone and the edge of the tube. The upside is that yes, I can use almost any urinal as easily as if I wasn’t locked. I say "almost" because through trial (and some embarrassing errors) I found you have to pull your entire package (i.e., chastity device and testicles) out of your underwear to keep urine from back-flowing out the rear of the tube. I learned this on Friday and haven't had any leakage or issues since then. Cleaning hasn’t changed; I can still use a shower wand to get plenty of soapy water in and out of the tube, so the condom lasts quite a while before needing a change. Unfortunately it does block off some vent holes, so the stimulation from the shower head is gone - ugh! Well, at least I can still enjoy that little pleasure between changes! I have to say I think this is a real innovation and will certainly make my chaste life easier for the long term. Happy to answer any questions on this subject and perhaps move it to its own post if you folks feel there's merit.

Like the "Ruin Orgasms: Then and Now" post by MikeandMelissa, I have my own example of "then and now". Then: I used to get angry, disappointed, and upset if my efforts to please my wife weren't returned with an orgasm for me. I would deliberately do a poorer job next time just to even things out. Now: I am grateful when she allows me to perform oral sex on her (of course, without an orgasm for me).