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It’s time to record our progress… I’m a man in his forties. I’ve been jerking off since age 12 or 13, pretty typical. The thing that stands out is my porn habit. I didn’t know about porn addiction until roughly last year. It turns out watching adult content engrains endorphin pathways in the brain similar to drugs. You get hooked on the stimulation, which damages your capacity for healthy relationships. That fits me perfectly. I’ve had two marriages fail and some long-term partnerships crumble. At first, I wasn’t sure how to fix it. I saw a sex counselor, went to SAA meetings… None of it worked. During that period, I found male chastity but without someone holding the reins over my device, it felt pointless. Fast forward to several months ago. I met a lady from an online dating platform. I was instantly drawn to her because she was smart, attractive, sharp-witted and seemed to “understand me” on a nearly unsettling level. She was ideal. I couldn’t believe how lucky I was. Naturally, the obvious issue had to be handled. She needed to know about my addiction. I was quite anxious. What if she judged me? What if she walked away? I really wasn’t sure what her reaction would be. Turns out I worried for nothing. She was very accepting. She asked many questions (which is something I appreciate). She agreed to look into it herself and decide how to move forward. I explained chastity, key holding, FLR, femdom…everything. She handled it gracefully. I was impressed. I wish I could claim we had no problems. That’s not true. Figuring out the mechanics of this has been a hurdle. Embracing our connection within the realms of chastity and femdom required effort and is still developing. Still, I knew I wanted her to possess me and control what had felt so chaotic. Eventually, after weeks of talks, disagreements, and compromises, I gave her both keys for the Jailbird. It was incredibly freeing. My sexual life was now held by the woman I love. No more wasting my energy on flat fantasy figures. I have a real-life dream who owns my orgasms, my erections, and most importantly, my heart. My Key Holder is here too. She goes by WillingWarden and will post occasionally. She wears my key around her neck and frequently sends me photos of it during the week. I am completely hers. She is changing so fast. It’s hard to believe how quickly she learns. I find myself sinking deeper into submission under her, and I would do anything for her. So that’s my story, and this will be our journey together. I can’t wait to see where it goes, and I know it’ll be wonderful with the Warden in charge. Hope you enjoy reading.

**Oh baby, "parole" had me hooked...mmmmmm**

> WillingWarden said: > **Oh baby, "parole" had me hooked...mmmmmm** > Click to expand... Hahahaha

And there's that key around her neck....sigh:)

Heading to lunch with the Warden dressed in one of her panties. This is new for me. I'll try to post a photo when I return.

33bpn2o.jpg 23sxjjp.jpg Man, these ride up! She adores them. She ran her hands over and down across my penis and cooed.

> Locked4myowngood said: > 33bpn2o.jpg > 23sxjjp.jpg > Man, these ride up! > She adores them. She ran her hands over and down across my penis and cooed > Click to expand... You have a nice backside...and yes, I loved running my fingers inside my panties in there, mmmm. Xo, WW

> Locked4myowngood said: > It's time to record our progress.... > > I'm a man in his forties. I've been jerking off since age 12 or 13, pretty typical. > > The thing that stands out is my porn habit. > > I didn't know about porn addiction until roughly last year. It turns out watching adult content engrains endorphin pathways in the brain similar to drugs. You get hooked on the stimulation, which damages your capacity for healthy relationships. That fits me perfectly. I've had two marriages fail and some long-term partnerships crumble. > > At first, I wasn't sure how to fix it. I saw a sex counselor, went to SAA meetings.... None of it worked. During that period, I found male chastity but without someone holding the reins over my device, it felt pointless. Fast forward to several months ago. > > I met a lady from an online dating platform. I was instantly drawn to her because she was smart, attractive, sharp-witted and seemed to "understand me" on a nearly unsettling level. She was ideal. I couldn't believe how lucky I was. Naturally, the obvious issue had to be handled. She needed to know about my addiction. > > I was quite anxious. What if she judged me? What if she walked away? I really wasn't sure what her reaction would be. > > Turns out I worried for nothing. She was very accepting. She asked many questions (which is something I appreciate). She agreed to look into it herself and decide how to move forward. > > I explained chastity, key holding, FLR, femdom....everything. She handled it gracefully. I was impressed. > > I wish I could claim we had no problems. That's not true. Figuring out the mechanics of this has been a hurdle. Embracing our connection within the realms of chastity and femdom required effort and is still developing. Still, I knew I wanted her to possess me and control what had felt so chaotic. > > Eventually, after weeks of talks, disagreements, and compromises, I gave her both keys for the Jailbird. It was incredibly freeing. My sexual life was now held by the woman I love. No more wasting my energy on flat fantasy figures. I have a real-life dream who owns my orgasms, my erections, and most importantly, my heart. > > My Key Holder is here too. She goes by WillingWarden and will post occasionally. She wears my key around her neck and frequently sends me photos of it during the week. I am completely hers. > > She is changing so fast. It's hard to believe how quickly she learns. I find myself sinking deeper into submission under her, and I would do anything for her. > > So that's my story, and this will be our journey together. I can't wait to see where it goes, and I know it'll be wonderful with the Warden in charge. Hope you enjoy reading. Wow, thank you for such an honest and open post. I sincerely wish you both a long and happy future.

So tonight was bittersweet. I went with my girlfriend and her family to a school event for her child. During the performance, she gradually moved over my leg to touch her penis. This was quite bold considering her mother sat on the other side of me. After dinner we returned to her house. Her son had gone out, so even having a private chat in the car felt awkward. She asked if I'd worn the panties and said no. We discussed it earlier but I forgot. We parted with a slight tension. Not every night is pure magic. I feel I failed her tonight. I don't know how she will react yet. She might brush it off as nothing major. I feel like I let her down, and I felt quite non-submissive tonight. Unsure why. I don't want punishment, but I certainly deserve it. I'm strong-willed, and I told the Warden I need to be broken and disciplined. I'm not sure she sees that yet, but hopefully she will. My own discipline isn't great for doing it myself. Anyway, we are traveling tomorrow to visit my parents, which is exciting. I'll make sure to update you all.