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I’ve been pushing my wife for months to see if she’ll let us extend our chastity play beyond just me being locked in the CB while she’s on her period. She usually pushes back, claiming that chastity is merely another male fixation! On Tuesday, her cycle started and I put on the belt as usual, handing over the key. But by Wednesday night, she was visibly upset and crying, declaring that she wasn’t happy with our sex life because it felt like everything revolved around what I wanted. I tried to reason with her, but she wasn’t in a mood for discussion, so we agreed she would take yesterday off work so we could talk things through. She admitted that she thought she’d been unfair by having me wear the belt during her period, as it reminded me of my past relationship and made me seem more distant. Then she asked about what my ex used to do for me. This was tough; I wanted honesty but didn’t want to gloat too much about sex with my former partner. I decided not to bring up femdom since I knew that would be overwhelming for her—my wife does see my ex occasionally, and I’ve always hoped the ex never mentioned that particular aspect. She listened intently without getting defensive. Then she asked how long I had gone without an orgasm previously and about how I kept clean when wearing the belt for several days at a time. This made me think she was considering agreeing to extend our play, but then she pointed out that my ex did everything exactly as I wanted it, meaning it hadn’t been true chastity so much as sex games centered entirely on me. It seemed like I remained self-focused. She said her ideal scenario would be for me to take the belt off right now and scrap this whole thing for a normal sex life, but she wasn’t convinced that was the best long-term solution because my ex’s memory would still linger in the background as I recalled those experiences. So, she is willing to act as my keyholder for six months, provided it is genuine chastity (I need her not dressing up, teasing me excessively, or giving weekly releases) and that I spend this period focused entirely on pleasing her. She actually remarked that removing my dick from the equation might help me focus better! I asked about orgasms and what happens after the six months are up. There will be no orgasms for the entire duration, and she openly stated that she doesn’t expect me to want to continue beyond that point. However, if I do wish to stay locked, even though she isn’t keen on becoming a dominant partner—this wasn’t quite the sex life she pictured—as long as I provide her with the sexual satisfaction she needs, she will agree to keep going under similar terms: no excessive dressing up or teasing. It is important to her that I view it as a lifestyle choice rather than just another game, though occasional orgasms are acceptable. I considered her words and suggested that while I could see what she was getting out of this—and I truly did want her to enjoy our sex life—I didn’t feel there was much encouragement for me. She replied that all I cared about was the chastity option itself, whereas her preferred choice would be to simply discard the belt and resume a normal relationship. Everything she has said makes sense; it is undoubtedly better for her if I drop my obsession with being locked up. I understand what she is trying to achieve, which only strengthens my determination to get through this challenge while giving her a good time too. She expects an answer before her period ends or the belt comes off permanently, but I’m sure she knows what I’ll decide. It’s not quite what I would have ideally wanted, but she is right that I have been self-centered, and I will persevere by telling myself it gets better after six months. I’ve spent this morning researching the health implications of going without an orgasm for half a year, and it seems perfectly fine despite some contradictory advice. Has anyone else experienced such a long period with a non-participative keyholder? I’m sure I’ll be struggling in the belt while attending to her needs. Perhaps if one must go six months, less teasing is better? I can’t recall going more than about ten days without relief recently. If I think rationally, I don’t understand why the prospect of six months like this excites me—but maybe that’s just my obsession talking.

Hiya, While my situation isn't identical to yours, I feel I can offer some commentary. My wife knows about my CB desires and is fine with them, but she has absolutely no interest in participating herself. Her idea of being a KH was simply hanging the key on the rack by the front door and saying "Take 'em if you need 'em". Over time, I've found that satisfying some of my chastity needs just requires imposing periods of self-denial. Currently, I'm approaching three months. The level of horniness and titillation from prolonged denial is very rewarding for me. Our own imagination can be a rich source of teasing. Given that your wife expects you to continue catering to her sexual needs while locked up, this sounds like a lovely arrangement. Personally, I would jump at it! She will likely find you to be a more attentive husband and lover, and she'll come to enjoy having you belted. You'll be perpetually frustrated and horny. Woo hoo!:p arty0002: If I were in your shoes, I'd be begging "where do I sign?!?" lol Best of luck to you both! mikecb

Thanks for that Mike. Yes, I am very much 'up for it' and it should be fantastic for my wife—because I will spend the whole six months trying to ensure it is! I have no idea what state I'll be in after six months without sex, but if she feels fulfilled at the end and is happy to continue acting as my keyholder, then I suppose I will accept her terms! My concern is that I am pretty sure (because she doesn't fully grasp chastity) she views this as a one-off for six months because she thinks I couldn't possibly enjoy it. It makes it all the more important that she genuinely enjoys herself.

> Lean Period said: > Thanks for that Mike. > Yes I am very much 'up for it' and it should be fantastic for my wife - because I will spend the whole 6 months trying to make sure it is! > I've no idea what sort of state I am likely to be in after 6m without sex but if at the end of it she feels fulfilled and is happy to continue to act as my keyholder, then I guess I will accept her terms! My concern is that Im pretty sure (because she doesn't really understand chastity) she is treating it as a one off for 6 months because she thinks I couldn't possibly enjoy it! It is therefore all the more important that she really enjoys it. > Click to expand... It sounds like your wife has given this some serious thought, and you are off to a good start. I went through something similar with a vanilla girlfriend who was fairly submissive but came to love it once she saw the benefits. The sex became incredible because she could relax and let me please her via massage, rubbing, toys, and oral. All I can say is that the more you make her enjoy this process, and the more you help her see that it is about HER rather than your kink, the more she will play along. The minute the focus shifts back to you, it's over (been there, done that). So just take it a day at a time, don't worry too much about what happens after six months, and be the best subbie hubbie you can be. You might also want her to sign up here so she can chat with some of the Mistresses. Or perhaps encourage her to visit sites like Elsie Sutton's or other similar platforms that aren't hardcore but focus more on how this benefits women. In any case, good luck and keep us posted!

Thanks for your advice tomf. I would like to get her to sign up here—I think most of the Mistresses speak a lot of sense and understand the kh/sub relationship very well. She isn't embarking on this thinking of herself as a Mistress at all, but if we eventually get to her signing up here, I think I'll know we've truly arrived!

This is proving tougher than I expected. After a couple of weeks of letting me please her constantly—which she seemed to be enjoying—I think my wife must have decided that I was enjoying it too much! Since then, she doesn't want me to do anything for her, and I haven't seen her naked or in her underwear at all. She also hovers around when I'm on the computer to ensure I'm not visiting porn sites. Basically, she is doing everything possible to prevent me from getting any sexual stimulation. This makes it harder because you question what the point of chastity is if there's no reward somewhere, but the reality is that she wants to get my desire out of my system and has obviously decided this is the best way. I'm off work today and at home alone, and I've dressed myself up in her gear (since I got rid of all the female clothing I used with my previous girlfriend as soon as we got together). Her clothes don't fit me very well, but I can't believe how comforting it feels after becoming increasingly frustrated. I'm starting to think she might actually succeed if I have another five months like this and any continuation thereafter takes a similar form; in that case, I'm not sure I would want it much longer. The trouble is, I know there's no middle ground with her despite my hope that this could be the start of her getting more interested. She really doesn't seem to grasp chastity and doesn't want to participate in it herself. I was probably better off with the previous arrangement where she locked me in my belt during her period and then gave me one good teasing session before removing the belt once her cycle ended, but I wasn't happy with that and have nagged for more! It is all so frustrating because she did seem to enjoy the attention initially. To make matters worse, we went away for the weekend and spent two nights in a room with paper-thin walls listening to the couple next door having a long, loud session. The girl seemed to be screaming and moaning for hours (we never saw her as her boyfriend/husband came down for breakfast alone; my wife reckons he had left her tied to the bed because we could hear them at it again when he returned, plus the sound of metal clinking). This was bad for both of us. It frustrated me greatly because normally if we were away, we would be doing our own thing, but my wife just kept saying she wished it were her. In the end, I told her to take the belt off because I wanted to screw her, but she claimed not to have brought the key with her. I don't really buy that because I'm sure she has it in case of an emergency. I love her and don't want this to come between us long-term. Her message is very clear: I am pretty much resigned now to serving my six months (because she seems determined to make me do so) and then accepting that she has won, moving on with our lives without chastity play.

**Something positive at last!** Now almost three months in, and nothing has changed from my last post. It has become less frustrating because I have avoided stimulation as much as possible. About ten days ago, I mentioned that I wasn't sure it was worth seeing out the six months; she said that strictly speaking, I had committed myself to the full period but if I wanted to duck out, she would let me on the condition that chastity was never mentioned again. I'm not quite sure what convinced me in her words, but I am pleased I stayed. Today I visited Amazon's website and found they were recommending a book titled 'Female Domination' based on my browsing history. When I looked into why it was being recommended, it turned out someone had been looking at Lucy Fairborne’s book 'Male Chastity - A guide for keyholders'! Now I am straining inside my belt for the first time in weeks. I have no idea if she has ordered the book yet, but it is the first sign of encouragement in ages and I will happily continue now. I don't expect anything to change anytime soon, but I do wonder (and hope) if she is contemplating being more participative once I pass this initial test.

**It is getting easier.** Seven weeks to go. Once I got used to having no stimulation at all, it has probably become even easier. I always struggled to believe some of the stories about going for so long without releases, but it is true that after a certain amount of time and with no stimulation, you seem to move from craving an orgasm to accepting that you aren't getting one anytime soon. I think it would have been harder to get through six months if I had been pleasing my wife daily as I did at the start. I'm not even sure if she has realized this herself, which is why she's been looking after her own needs. Maybe she could see how frustrated I was in those early days—but then again, if she really is determined to stamp out my desire for chastity, I'm not entirely sure which approach would have been best because now it all seems relatively comfortable. Although I have no great wish to carry on indefinitely without an orgasm, I feel like I could do so! I must say, though, that I am not fully convinced by the 'stamping it out' theory. I might be deluding myself, but increasingly I think this was part of a game plan to see what I could cope with before she launches into a more participative routine after six months—she was certainly keen enough to talk me out of opting out when I considered doing so. Although I haven't seen her without clothes on for ages now (and she has said that won't happen until after my six months are up), she has taken advantage of the hot weather over the last week or so by wearing very revealing tops and seems to be teasing me subtly. I remain hopeful!

Wow Lean Period! I am not sure how you have made it this far as I am only halfway through a twenty-one-day lockup. I too have heard stories of people being kept for six months and the like, often inclining me to say "yeah, right." It is good to hear about your quest. At this point, after doing the time thus far, I am hopeful that seven weeks should be the home stretch for you.

Lean Period, I hope as you enter the final stretch your wife becomes interested in making this a participative experience. Part of me is concerned that she interprets your desire for chastity merely as a desire for abstinence. I do hope she knows the difference! Best of luck on your heroic undertaking! mikecb

**Unexpected turn of events!** I didn't have seven weeks to wait after all! Bizarre night last night. My wife surprised me in the most stunning latex outfit I have ever seen, teased me for a while before removing the belt, taking us outside and having sex in the garden! Despite how great she was, it took me a while to become fully erect again after such a long time locked up. I was slowly recovering from this totally unexpected mind-blowing turn of events when she told me why she had done it. She had read yesterday in the paper about some study at Sydney University saying that daily sex improves men's fertility. The belt would therefore be consigned to the cupboard until we have a couple of kids. But she went on to tell me what she planned for after I complete six months in my CB: once we have the children, I can have as much chastity play as I like and she will be the best keyholder imaginable! Apparently, she was impressed by how I stood up to my time locked up and respected her decision not to provide stimulation. She surprised herself with how much she enjoyed the power of making the rules. She had been longing to let me pleasure her again but was enjoying having me in a state of confusion—uncertain about what she was thinking or what she would do at the end of the six months. I am certainly confused this morning! On one hand, I'm pleased that there is the prospect of great chastity play coming in the distant future with the woman I love. On the other hand, the abrupt ending last night and her assumption that we are going to have children NOW is taking some getting used to. Don't get me wrong; we have discussed having kids and it's something we both want—I guess it's just how everything has come together so quickly. I tried to suggest that we could still play with chastity while trying for children, but she isn't having any of that: "we will be having sex every day and what's the point therefore of wearing a CB?" Fair point, I suppose, but it makes me feel like a bit of a machine!

Lol, wow, what a turn of events! I must admit it's hard to argue with sex every day. Still, I don't see why you need to get out of the habit of wearing the CB. Unless she thinks it's a real pain in the ass, why not have you wear it during the day? You've accomplished the ability to manage 24/7 wear. There will certainly be days when she won't want sex—whether due to her monthly cycle or simply "not tonight dear, I have a headache." Does she approve of you masturbating during those times? If she's getting off on the control, one would think not. Let's hope you can find an accommodation somewhere. Still, it sounds like you had a hot night, and the prospects for lots more hot sex to come. Congratulations!:-) mikecb

Cheers Mike. I chatted about it again last night and her mind is set in stone. She’s picked up a few volumes on female control and domination, and apparently has splurged 'hundreds of pounds' on 'attire & gear', ready to kick off her scheme once my six months are up. She noticed my letdown at the idea that all this might be delayed for another two or three years, so she told me I’m hers to control and dominate completely from now on—the only things changing is the belt and our daily intercourse. I’d better brace myself because, even with sex every day, I’ll know I’m being 'used' for her enjoyment! This marks a big change from her previously rather standard sexual routine, which thrills me (and I can’t wait to see more of her new kit), yet I find myself slightly annoyed by these academics and their studies back in Sydney!