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It seems this is the spot for personal stories, so here it goes. Note that I originally shared this on The Experience Project, but somehow my later entries were considered … “unsuitable” (even though I tagged them as “mature.” Oh well, this place looks much more welcoming. Background I’m currently living apart from my wife temporarily. This is an issue. There are some trust concerns (stemming from my own actions and lack of discretion… not involving anyone else, but related to me doing things on my own that should have been done with her). While I am committed to avoiding these issues in the future, my wife (rightly so) has reservations. When I suggested exploring a chastity device under her supervision, she wasn’t keen. Being slightly worried about my reliability, I decided to experiment with wearing a chastity device on my own for now. I ordered a CB-6000S unit, which arrived on Monday. The First Day I removed the device from its packaging and examined all the individual parts. For those unfamiliar with the CB-6000S, this is the third generation of the CB-x line. It’s a “ball capturing” model, meaning it uses your testicles to keep the unit in place. The assembly includes several components: a ring that sits behind the balls and wraps around both cock and scrotum (similar to a traditional cock ring), but open at the top (it forms about a 300-degree arc of a circle). There is a top piece that fills this gap, equipped with two guide pins to keep everything aligned. This top section has two parts: one slides into the ring from behind, and the other slides onto the pins from the front. A locking pin and spacer slide through the center of these pieces (with the spacer positioned in front of the ring). Finally, there is a cage where your penis rests, connecting to three pins for stability; this spacer ensures enough space between the ring and cage for the scrotum to sit comfortably… with the balls hanging below. A lock attaches to the central locking pin to prevent disassembly. There are two versions of the CB-6000: one with a longer cage and one shorter. Based on feedback from other users on various chastity sites, I chose the shorter model. The package includes five rings in different sizes (since everyone is built differently) and four sets of locking pins and spacers in varying lengths. It also comes with five numbered plastic “locks” that can replace the small brass padlock if you plan to wear it through metal detectors, like at airports. These locks are uniquely coded so your key holder knows if a lock has been swapped out. They are single-use and must be cut off for removal. The brass padlock resembles those used on luggage and came with three keys. I started by testing the different ring sizes to find one that fit snugly without being too tight. I settled on the second-largest size, as the smaller ones felt overly constricting (I couldn’t get all my skin into the ring once the top piece was secured). I picked the second-smallest locking pin and spacer assembly and tried to slide the cage over my cock. This turned out to be quite frustrating. First, I had a partial erection, making it nearly impossible to fit the device. I used an ice pack for some “shrinkage,” but still struggled. I even attempted the “sock trick” with no success… I started worrying that I might be too large for the CB-6000S, though I hoped it would work if I were completely flaccid. I went for a walk to let things settle down and decided to try again later. Returning to the task, I applied some lotion to my penis to help it slide more easily into the cage’s tube. I put on a small dab of lotion, covering my entire shaft (which was soft at this point). As I slid the cage on, I noticed it went in smoothly and effortlessly. Fitting it onto the locking pins required only minor effort (the main issues were loose skin getting caught in various openings between the cage and ring, and pubic hairs getting tugged… having that hair pulled isn’t exactly pleasant). Eventually, everything was positioned correctly, with the cage fully seated on the support and locking pins. I inserted the brass padlock into the pin and snapped it shut. For the first time in my life, I was in chastity. Of course, the keys were still sitting right there on the desk, so the psychological feeling of being “locked up” wasn’t immediate, but physically, I was secured. I tugged at the cage to test its security and realized there was no way my balls could slip between the cage and ring. I stroked it and couldn’t feel much inside. The lock rattled slightly against the plastic when I moved. I tried touching myself through the tip opening (provided for urination), but barely felt anything (my penis was retracted significantly within the cage). By pressing the device tightly against my abdomen, I could get my penis to reach the end of the cage and touch the skin a little more, though it was clear that stimulating myself with such limited contact would be difficult. At this point, I decided to leave things alone for a while to see how it felt. Recommendations from various sites suggested it usually takes several weeks to find the perfect fit for a CB-6000 style device, given the many ring and spacer combinations (there were 20 possibilities). It was also advised to wear it for only a few hours initially until you get used to it. However, since it felt comfortable enough, I decided to keep it on when going to bed. There was some discomfort where my scrotum stretched through the gap between the ring and cage, slight pinching, and hair pulling, but overall not too uncomfortable. I pulled my underwear up over it and sat at the desk to watch a bit of Netflix. As bedtime approached, I decided to try using the bathroom with the device on. I had read that Q-tips could help adjust the position of the glans inside the cage to ensure urine streams out through the front opening, so I took a couple along to the bathroom and gave it a shot. I planned to sit down just in case; I didn’t want any accidents if I made an error. My first caged urination went off without issue, and all the urine landed correctly in the toilet. I was initially worried that I might be able to “get off” using the Q-tip, but quickly realized it would more likely pinch the sensitive skin of my glans than provide pleasure. Then I headed to bed. I had read that sleeping with a new device immediately wasn’t ideal and that one should get used to it slowly, but I hadn’t encountered any trouble so far and thought I’d give it a go. I have a habit of fondling myself while lying in bed before sleep, and when my hand automatically drifted down there, all I felt was a chunk of plastic. And balls… my testicles were held prominently away from my body (my balls tend to retract completely at the slightest provocation, and with the device on, the ring definitely prevented

that). Knowing I was firmly locked in place, I drifted off to sleep convinced that I had good control over the urge to pleasure myself. Around three AM, pain woke me up. My testicles were okay and not hurting at all; it was more like the skin of my scrotum was burning. Touching around, I initially thought I might need to remove the device, but then I figured out what happened: I had gotten a nocturnal erection! Naturally, the cage stopped my penis from extending too far forward, yet even that limited amount of movement pushed my balls outward against their limits relative to my body. Once this realization hit me, I decided just to endure it since being able to wear the device around the clock was important to me. It felt unusual having the rigid part of my shaft pointing up into my abdomen by a few inches rather than sticking straight out in front. The fit was quite tight so nothing moved much inside the cage; however, I noticed that the head of my penis pressed against the back wall of the cage. By brushing my finger over the opening there, I could feel the skin but not enough to really stimulate me. Understanding what was happening didn’t reduce the discomfort any less, yet knowing this device had potential meant living with it if necessary—so turning sideways once more helped send me back off again.

The Second Day I woke up at my usual time in the morning, feeling pretty refreshed, but needing to go to the bathroom. Grabbing my Q-tips and toilet paper, I proceeded down the hall to relieve myself. I once again used the toilet sitting, and made sure to dry the inside of the cage as best as I could with the toilet paper and Q-tips. Getting dressed I decided to wear jeans instead of slacks as they have a bit more room in the crotch. I again noticed that until I pulled my underwear back up, the lock would rattle against the cage, making little clicking sounds. I quickly got dressed and headed out to go to work. I took one of the keys to the padlock with me, “just in case of an emergency” I told myself. I figured that if something happened and I needed the thing off in a hurry, I didn’t want to have to break or cut it on day two! As I walked to the train station, I was very conscious of the bulge in my pants, even though it wasn’t really visibly noticeable. I was also aware of the pulling sensation on my balls as they normally would be retracted close to my body but were now forced out by the ring and cage apparatus. Riding the train and shuttle were uneventful, and I arrived at the office feeling pretty good, knowing that my penis was securely locked in my pants (not that I was going to do anything with it, anyway). Work was a normal day, but I had a meeting in the city that night after work, so I headed out early for the train station to get to the meeting on time. Getting to my meeting location was not a problem, but I knew I needed to use the restroom as soon as possible. Once I got in, I made sure to find a stall and proceeded to relieve myself. I had a little spray as I had forgotten to use the Q-tip to line things up and I ended up with urine dribbling out of the cage opening. Cleanup with toilet paper was a little different from usual, but really not a problem. I proceeded to attend the meeting and then headed back to the train station to head for home. At the train station, I knew I would be on the train for 90 minutes, so I made sure to find my way to the restroom before the train pulled out. Again, I sought out a stall, but I found that the locking mechanism on the stall door was faulty. Hmmm, how to deal with this? I didn’t really want to take the chance of someone pushing into the stall while I was in there wearing my chastity device! Finally, I figured out I could lift the door a quarter inch and get the latching mechanism to close. I decided to try a crouching/standing position this time since I wasn’t too keen on sitting on the public toilet at the train station, so I dropped my pants and undies and sidled as close to the toilet as I could get. Crouching down, I carefully aimed the device into the toilet and let it go. No problems and the stream went straight where I wanted it to! I could probably have even used a urinal with it working this well. I rode the train home uneventfully, and when I arrived I decided to remove the device to check for any abrasions or other problems. I was aware of some pinching, and some pulling of my pubic hairs, but I didn’t feel too uncomfortable. Never-the-less, I wanted to do a physical examination of where the device was rubbing and pinching and make sure I didn’t have any blisters forming or worse. I had noticed, however, that my penis was quite prone to shrinkage, and it was near the back of the cage. Seeing as it was totally flaccid, I wondered if it would be possible to remove it from the device without unlocking it. I tried pulling it back from the rear of the ring and, sure enough, I was able to move it far enough to get it out from behind the ring. My balls were still imprisoned between the ring and the cage portion, but it was obvious that I could have masturbated now if I wanted to. What a disappointment! I tried to see if I could get my penis back into the cage without removing it first, and couldn’t quite manage it, so at least I was assured that if I violated the sanctity of the device, it would be obvious until I was able to unlock the lock and refit things. I unlocked the little padlock and slid it out of the locking pin, then slid the cage forward off of the guide pins. Setting it aside for the moment, I carefully removed the top portion of the ring assembly, first the front facing piece and then the rear one with the pins attached. The ring practically fell off into my hand and I was completely free. What a strange feeling after having had the device on for 25 hours! I pulled my parts this way and that, looking for any sign of redness, pinching, blood blisters, or any other problems. Nothing was apparent… everything appeared normal. I looked through the supply of parts and, thinking about how I was able to remove myself from the device, started thinking that I should maybe move to a smaller ring. I took the next smaller ring and tried to slide it around my cock and balls, but it just didn’t seem to fit… there appeared no way to get the top piece on with that smaller ring without pinching a great deal of my sensitive skin. Unwilling to try that quite yet, I decided to go back to the original ring that I had selected the night before. I was able to get it into place with a minimum of pinching and hair pulling, and got the front top piece on as well. Still thinking about my problem, I decided to try the smallest locking pin and spacer. I was hoping that having it closer to the ring might help keep things where they belonged. I positioned the locking pin and spacer in the top of the ring, put some lotion on my penis, and slid the cage back into place. No problem at all getting it on this time, thanks to the lubrication provided by the little dab of lotion. Squeezing the cage tightly onto the pins, I grabbed the lock and put it back in place, clicking it shut once again. I’d only been out of the device for maybe a half hour, and now I was once again securely locked up. The snugger fit with the smaller locking pin and spacer caused a little more pinching of my scrotum than before, but I figured I would give it a try to see how it went that night. Off to bed and right to sleep, with I hoped pleasant dreams. Once again, I was awoken in the middle of the night with a painful erection pulling hard on my balls, but I knew what was going on this time so I carefully moved around and waited until it subsided, then drifted back off to sleep. Morning came and I got up and got dressed… a quick trip to the bathroom (once again sitting on the toilet… didn’t want to get my pants wet or anything) and I was off to work.

Day Three in Chastity Again, work was relatively uneventful, but I did notice that I was very conscious of the position of my penis within the cage. I could often feel it shifting position, moving a little towards the end of the cage, then back away from the tip. I figured they were natural motions that I never noticed before as my penis would have been in contact with my underwear, but now with the cage in place, I had some space at the end of my penis for it to grow into or recede from. This was a nearly constant reminder while I worked that I was locked in the belt. Of course, I still had the key, so I knew I could take it off at any time for any reason, but it was still arousing to think about being physically secured. My hand often strayed to my crotch and pressed against the hard plastic or the lock itself while I was sitting at my desk. I used the bathroom normally (my new normal, using the stall every time and sitting down to pee, then cleaning up with a bit of toilet paper stuffed into the tip opening of the cage), and attended several meetings. I was aware of a pulling on my balls and a little pinching of my scrotum, but it was not terribly uncomfortable most of the time. I decided to keep a journal of my experiences, and started writing this document while things were still fresh in my mind. I want to explore both the physical nature of wearing a chastity device and my mental attitude. I am still noticing quite often as my penis moves around inside the cage, but it is obvious that it isn’t getting any stimulation. I’ve had a couple of erections during the day, and they have had their own interesting side effects, causing significant pulling of my balls and even a little uncomfortable pain in my scrotal sac. Once I got home again, I took off my pants and underwear and proceeded to perform an inspection. I had some irritation due to pinched skin, at least it felt like pinched skin, around my scrotum at the base of the ring. I considered removing the device for a while, but decided to keep it on for the time being. I got on the computer to do some searching about other people using chastity devices (both cages and full belts) and found quite a bit of information. Some of the reading was a little arousing, but of course, my penis had no where to go. I did note that pulling on my balls that resulted even from a partial erection, but simply not being able to stroke myself was such a new and exciting experience that it didn’t really hurt too much. There was some pain right at the ring site, where the ring itself touched the skin, which I attributed to the fact that the cheap Chinese knock off CB-6000S I had was equipped with slotted rings instead of solid ones. By this, I mean that the ring itself looked like it was made by taking an I-beam and bending it into a circular shape. From my reading, the high quality versions of the CB-x line had solid rings with a circular cross-section. I could see how that would make a difference where the skin wouldn’t be against any sharp edges. One person recommended filling in the gap in the ring with a white glue such as Elmer’s, but I suppose any type of putty would work as well. Perhaps at some point I’ll look at something like epoxy or some other material that I can fill it in with. Regardless, it wasn’t uncomfortable enough to worry about doing anything with it right away, and I wanted to do another night and day in the device without removal. I’d had it on for 24 hours or so again, and wanted to keep going. Once again, I was awoken in the middle of the night with a very painful erection. I was once again tempted to remove the device, but told myself that, had I given the keys to my wife, I would have been unable to do so, so to get the full effect I needed to keep it on and learn to deal with it. After a little while, my erection subsided and I was able to get back to sleep.

Day Four Arising on the fourth day, it seemed that wearing the device was perfectly normal. I used the bathroom carefully, using a Q-tip to adjust the position of my penis inside the cage before squatting in front of the toilet. I dried with a small square of toilet paper, stuffing it in the gap to try and keep everything as clean as possible. My day at work was fine, no problems, including during my walking weekly one-on-one meeting with my boss. I was careful to use a stall whenever I had to use the bathroom, but encountered no difficulties. The clacking noise of the lock rattling against the plastic when I removed my underwear was a little concerning, and I started thinking about possible solutions. It was while using the bathroom and doing a little surfing on my phone that I observed a picture of another man in a similar device. He had wrapped a rubber-band around the small padlock, and it appeared that it was to function as a shock absorber when the lock bounced off the cage assembly. Brilliant idea, I thought, and made plans to obtain a couple of rubber-bands as soon as possible. The same man also showed a picture of himself wearing a metal cage-type chastity device, which looked significantly more secure than the plastic one I am wearing, but as I travel via air frequently, I don’t think that would be a good solution for me. I can just see trying to explain to airport security agents that the metal in my pants was a chastity device and that I didn’t have the key and couldn’t remove it. I’m pretty sure I don’t want to have to go there. I’m now headed home from work and completely caught up on my current chastity experiences. So far, it seems to be going quite well and I have not had any significant problems. At the moment, I’m not planning to go home to see my wife for at least another week or two, and I’m wondering if I can just keep the device on for the whole time. I’m thinking that I’m almost ready to put the key somewhere where I can’t get at it easily and try experiencing being truly locked up outside of my own control. I’m a little nervous about the prospect, but excited as well. In summary, I’ve found that wearing the cage has definitely helped me avoid masturbation. The tension it puts on my balls is a constant reminder that I am wearing it. I’m definitely finding it exciting and fun at this stage, and wondering just how I will explain this to my wife when the time comes. I know she is not interested in playing chastity games as it is too much like bondage, which she has problems with. Still, I have hope that we may discuss it again in the future, and in any case, I can still wear the device while I’m here by myself and it is definitely helping me to remain chaste. I have noticed certain impacts on my behavior. For one, I’m very careful when I bend down… I don’t want to get the cage assembly stuck between my legs. The hard plastic is very unforgiving. It is much more comfortable when it is out in front of my body. A second observation is that I have called my wife more times this week than was typical. It is just soothing to hear her voice, even if we’re just talking about what bills need to get paid when, which doctor needs to fill what prescription, and how the kids are getting along with school. I believe that I am already feeling more attentive to her, even though she isn’t even aware that I am wearing the device, because in my mind I am doing it for her… protecting myself from straying (not that I would ever want to be with another woman, but preventing me from “satisfying” myself, without her being present or knowing about it).

And now we move on to the post that was deemed "unsuitable" by TEP... you'll have to let me know what you think. Problems I’ve been in and out of chastity for the last few days. There is a comfort issue with my cheap-o Chinese CB-6000S device. The bottom of the ring is just tearing up my scrotum, and it’s become too inflamed to wear. I did wear it for 24 hours (put it on last night) after letting it heal up for a couple of days, but had to take it off again tonight as it was too uncomfortable. I’m doing additional research, and have found suggestions that using a larger ring may help. One user also used an acrylic material to fill in the grooves in the ring, providing a convex surface that really helped with his comfort. I will explore both options (there is one larger ring size than the one I have been wearing, and I will pick up some acrylic resin from a local craft store in a few days). Unfortunately, until I heal up, I will not be wearing the device. Keyholder One of the issues with self-locking my device, which I am stuck doing as my wife doesn’t want to have anything to do with chastity play at this time, is control over the keys. Obviously, until I can comfortably wear the device without damage or irritation, I’m going to keep the keys in my possession, but I’ve been considering alternatives for after that time comes. Another user on the Experience Project (hi, Christine!) suggested mailing the keys to myself (she also suggested using two separate mailings just in case the post office happened to lose one or the other). This would give me a period during which I was truly locked in chastity and unable to escape on my own (at least, not without breaking the device). It was also suggested by another user (hi, Don!) that I could take advantage of one of the key holder web sites that are out there. I didn’t know these sites exist, but the basic idea is that you get a combination locking key safe (like a realtor would put your house keys in so that other realtors could show your home when it’s on the market). These typically have a push-button locking mechanism, but there are some out there that use a three or four digit rotating combination (like on an old fashioned bike lock). You can set the combination yourself. The idea is that you set a random combination (without looking at it, obviously), take a picture of the new combination, and upload the picture to one of these web sites. Once you’ve done this, you zero the combination (you don’t know it at this point… yes, you have to delete the picture from your camera and/or computer). You put the keys to the belt inside the lock box and close it up. The site enforces some semi-random duration (between limits you have set) and at some point it e-mails you back the picture you took, allowing you to open the box and recover the keys. Many of these sites also allow you to grant “key holder” privileges to another user, and that user can either add or remove time from your “sentence.” They can also immediately unlock you if you have a problem and need the code in a hurry (like, you’re on your way to a doctor’s appointment that you had forgotten about when you set up the duration of the session) with your key holder’s permission. Finally, most of the sites allow you to purchase an emergency access to the code, in case you’re really in trouble. Obviously, the financial burden is present to dissuade you from doing this unless you really need to. This mechanism appeals to me on a few different levels, as while the keys would never be physically out of my possession, they would be inaccessible until my time was up. I need to explore these possibilities further.

"Another Day Evening is settling in and I’ve put the chastity device back on, this time with a larger-sized ring. This experience was unusual because as I placed the ring along with the top pieces, I got an erection. I had to wait several minutes for it to go down before trying again, so I sat quietly and read for a bit. Eventually, I felt soft enough to try putting the cage on. After lubing up with some lotion, I started sliding the cage into place. My penis went all the way to the end of the cage, which was slightly odd, and then I realized there was no way I could hook it onto the ring assembly... because I’d gotten erect again! This time, though, the cage sat at the tip of my penis, so I decided just to hold it there until things relaxed. My glans filled the end/tube area completely, which wasn't uncomfortable at all, but the swollen shaft caused bits of skin to poke out through the side cleaning ports. It caused a bit of discomfort, though nothing major enough to warrant removing it. I had to laugh internally at the stories I’ve read where men complain their wives locked them in while they slept. If anyone else tried fitting my device on me, I’d be getting pinched and having hairs pulled everywhere; I definitely wouldn’t sleep through that (though of course, I don’t drink alcohol, so maybe those guys were just totally drunk passed out... sure they were). Eventually, things calmed down enough for me to slide the cage onto the guide pins, and then shortly after, onto the locking pin. I was getting a bit pinched, so I grabbed a Q-tip and used it to push the skin back under the locking pin where the spacer fits into the top/back of the cage. Soon, the cage slid home, and I quickly popped the lock in place and snapped it shut. Locked up again! But... for how long this time? I’m hoping that the larger ring reduces the pinching on my sensitive scrotal skin. I also hope that the extra space won’t make it too easy to pull out and defeat the whole purpose. I’ll call my wife later in the evening, but I’m still not ready to tell her I’ve been experimenting this way. Given how she reacted when I first suggested it, I’m fairly sure she isn't interested and will take some offense that I started playing without her involvement. For me though, I feel I am doing it to remain compliant with her wishes for me to avoid stimulating myself while she is away. Even though I have access to the keys and could easily remove the device to "have at it," those extra steps give me time to consider what I’m doing against her request. I’ve masturbated twice in the last week while unlocked, waiting for tenderness to heal, so I know my willpower can be weak here. However, I have avoided taking out the device specifically just to do that. It is quite difficult being apart from her by 800 miles. I believe keeping this **key** distance helps maintain a sense of security with the **chastity** lock.