Introductions discussion

As you asked, here is a brief overview of my life. I have been crossdressing since I was about five or six years old. Back then, I wore my sisters’ clothes. As the third child in a family with four kids, I am the only boy (sic) among them, with two older sisters. My parents noticed my ‘perversion’ when I was eight or nine. They were quite distressed and made great efforts to get me to stop it. Unfortunately for me, the urge proved stronger than my will, so I continued wearing my sister’s clothes whenever I could hide it well. I was caught again by them at age eleven, which marked the beginning of a nightmare. To humiliate me and break this habit, they made sure I wore girls’ clothing regularly. It worked for a while: I felt deeply ashamed and stopped for at least two years, though I still dreamed about those lovely girl clothes. This cycle repeated twice more during my teens—at fourteen and sixteen. Each time, my parents got very upset with me and forced me to wear girls’ clothes again, keeping me in them longer each period. I was genuinely frightened and ashamed. My teenage years felt like a nightmare because I didn’t feel particularly manly. I moved out as soon as I could, attending college far away from home so my parents couldn’t interfere easily. Eventually, I relocated to the US, specifically California, when my company needed me there. Now, I am learning more about who I really am and trying to live in a way that brings me joy. Very shy, still somewhat of a closet sissy.

Hello there! Welcome to the site. There is no reason to be timid here! The people on this site are incredibly helpful, and I am certain you will receive many useful replies for any threads or questions you start or have. Good luck, and welcome to our community!

Oh dear, that doesn't sound very pleasant, and I can understand why your teens felt like a nightmare for you. Your little introduction actually reminded me of many dream stories featuring sissies. "Petticoat Punishment" sounds lovely as a fantasy, but living through it yourself in reality can be dreadful, especially when you aren't ready to reveal your secret and no one is there to soothe your wounded feelings. However, it seems you are now free to explore who you are and find where you belong. Good luck and sending hugs, maid katrin

Thank you, Miss. I hope this site will help me move forward and discover my true personality. But we are all shaped by our history, and I fear that my past will aid me greatly in this process. Whenever I recall those teenage years, I still feel a retrospective sense of fear.

That drive to wear sissy clothing is powerful within us, and I empathize with you. It saddens me:manga_balloon::sad0020: to think that your well-meaning parents 'hurt' you while trying to 'help' you. I don't believe most 'normal' folks grasp how compelling the need to wear sissy clothes really is. For many of us, it cannot be stopped. How often have we sissies tried to 'purge' ourselves only to find ourselves back in girl panties and dresses? **I congratulate you on finding this community! I have always felt welcome here and believe it is a safe space to uncover more about your inner sissy self.** If there are any questions or support you need, just post them, and we will be here for you.

:welcome: pascale! Parents usually have good intentions, but sometimes their decisions turn out to be unfortunate or hurtful in the long run. If you can find it within yourself, forgiving them can be healing. Dollyanne tried cross-dressing as a teen and even earlier on, but she stopped because she was so afraid of how her parents would react. Since then, dollyanne has gone through several purges, but as lauren points out, the underlying urge remains, and dollyanne always returns! You have found a wonderful place!:loveCM: May your time here be pleasant. Hugs and Kisses,:butterfly: ***dollyanne***

Thanks for all the support. I truly appreciate the solidarity and sense of community here. I hope I will be able to overcome my past experiences and step confidently into the future. Thank you everyone.

A huge:welcome: to the Mansion.:manga_shout: It must have been awful for you to go through that experience. One has to wonder at the damage our parents inflict upon us... (I'm a wreck!) I am sure you will find many lovely sissies here who can help you. I also love that picture; is it from SuperDresses?

> lauren1fem said: > I don't think most 'normal' people understand how compelling the need to wear sissy clothes is. > Click to expand... Lol, it isn't just "normal" folks who can't get their heads around it. I love chastity and denial and serving as a slave, but I have zero interest in being a sissy. But that's not meant as a value-judgement on anyone else. We ALL have needs, desires, and wants driving us; other people simply cannot fathom them. The trouble starts when they begin telling us we "mustn't" or "shouldn't" do "that." (And why am I suddenly reminded of the hypocrites who decry "immorality" from the pulpit but then spend their free time blowing rent-boys in public lavatories? I don't care about either behavior on its own; but together, they are hypocrisy. While that is perfectly legal, I think it's better exposed than hidden). People say solving the world's problems isn't easy. I disagree. If people would keep their noses out of others' business and lives, we'd all get along much better. In fact, if you just keep government, the church, and other people away from my wallet, my bedroom, my wardrobe, my bookshelf, and my mind, we'll all manage quite fine. -- Unruffled

*pascaledesprets, Based on your introduction, I assume your dressing has been somewhat of a trauma - and yet, you still wish to dress up and admit that you aren't very manly. There is nothing wrong with that; it simply defines who you are. I presume you are now free to pursue what pleases you - so, tell me, are you? Are you spending time in frills? Your profile picture is very cute - everyone would agree you are a pretty gurl. All you need now is a little encouragement and acceptance to bloom and shine.*

I have to agree with Mistress Michelle that your profile picture is beautiful. Why not set it as your avatar so we can enjoy it with every post you make? I only wish I looked that good myself. Passable at the very least. Rachel - trying to coax you out of your shell.:love0038:

Yes Miss D, you are right. I do spend time in frills as you say, and I love it. Sleeping in a long, frilly nightgown is truly a dream that is now possible for me. But I also need plenty of encouragement and certainly some guidance and orders. Being so shy, I often hesitate to dare. Then I imagine that being guided will help tremendously. Thank you for your assistance.