Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

This might not be the most profound discovery or analysis…but I’m still quite fresh to chastity. And perhaps those with more experience here will find such innocent thoughts amusing? Anyway: For the first time in my life, I was locked for their full days. I let myself out so that I could handle some hard training at the gym (self-locking, these are still early days…). The physical sensation of being free was overwhelming - but I didn’t get an immediate erection as I had expected. But the emotional side was more complex. Irritation about taking a break on such loose grounds - for BEING ABLE TO take a break by my own decision, that sucks too. But also a feeling of loss. And a sense of moving between worlds, between different realities, between conflicting sets of rules. Between mindsets, mental landscapes. From three days of being aware of oneself and back to more ordinary life. But the main impression which is both fascinating and scaring: Being locked up had a very strong feminizing effect on my way of thinking and acting! This is truly fascinating and I intend to find out much more about this. I hope to someday have the possibility to try being locked up so that myself am not the person who decides when to take a break… But so far: This has been a stunning experience

Congrats on starting your journey. The next step is as you said, to put that decision in the hands of another. It's an amazing feeling knowing you can't remove your cage even if you want to!

Those options are at the far reaches of self discipline, IMHO. Having a KH will make life so much easier - and more fun! Rather than concentrating on your dilemma all of the time, you'll be more free to consider more important things.