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I recently realized that I masturbate too much while my girlfriend is away. Over a year ago, the idea of chastity appealed to me greatly, so I purchased a CB-6000. It took a few tries to get a comfortable fit with it. We have tested wearing it for single days and once she kept me locked overnight. She is affectionate but doesn’t fully grasp what chastity does for me; honestly, neither do I!

To curb my habit, I wore the device over the weekend. When she returned home, I hugged her, explained everything, and kindly asked her to hold the key so she could help resist the urge that makes me less attentive in the evenings. She usually wants sex about once a week, whereas my drive is higher. We’ve found a good middle ground: I masturbate while still holding on to her before bed. Since I used to jerk off every night when single, this helps me sleep better.

She agreed to hold the key for me. On day one, she unlocked me in the evening so I could play with myself; it was an intense orgasm. Day two went well too. Being allowed out at night is pleasant because I’m not sure prolonged wear is entirely harmless. Plus, I can shower as usual and maintain hygiene.

Yesterday, I came home feeling moderately aroused but also felt that the device lacked its usual magic appeal. Still, I decided to put it on again because I could see myself getting hornier and jerking off in the afternoon. If my girlfriend texted saying she’d be out longer, maybe I would jerk off a second time. I locked up immediately upon arriving home and messaged her to show commitment. After running some errands while wearing it, I got horny again but didn’t want to break down with the emergency key.

While aroused, I browsed through my bookmarked Tumblr images and videos of leather outfits. It was exciting knowing that all this arousal would be directed toward my girlfriend rather than spent on myself. So even though I wanted to stop the habit, I went through some content and enjoyed watching fifteen minutes of video without having masturbated yet. Watching chastity tease videos while locked up made them feel even more intense.

I also looked at product photos for various My-Steel, Neosteel, and CS-100 metal belts. For some reason, just a few hours in the CB-6000 creates a strong desire to be strictly bound in steel. Wearing it makes me quite submissive after a short while, and I really want to know how it feels wearing such a belt for her. While I was horny at home and she was out running errands, I sent her pictures of the My-Steel and CS-100 belts, telling her I desired being locked in one right then. She simply said it’s my money to spend. I think she doesn’t quite see the appeal from her perspective. The CB-6000 just makes me hornier, leading me to demand more playtime at night. Maybe I need to stop nagging.

Late that night, my girlfriend returned home by which time I was on an emotional and hormonal rollercoaster. I had cooked a nice dinner to make up for my slight misbehavior earlier in the week (I’d been locked since noon). She treated me with spread-eagle bondage, unlocking me and caressing me romantically. It was lovely; I realized instantly that I’ve neglected foreplay on my end lately. Normally, I kiss her body and eagerly lick until she has her first orgasm. Then she gets so wet that she wants me inside immediately.

While she petted me like that, I told her about what had aroused me during the day. One highlight was a story by @scottishGent describing how he wore a CS-100 under a kilt and flirted with a stranger at a bar. The arousing part for me is twofold: first, the CS-100 has a magical effect on me; second, his keyholder shows him just how much he owes her. Also, knowing that someone else discovers my strict steel lockdown turns me on. However, she interpreted the story focusing more on the other woman being attracted to me. She found it amusing because she doesn’t want anyone else having access to me. Thus, I might be in for a little trouble.

The evening after dinner, she tied me down again spread-eagle, but face-down this time. She stroked my butt and balls hanging out of the CB-6000. I also got some paddle play which I love so much. Then she took a dildo and romantically penetrated me anally with it—it was heavenly. Throughout all this, I kept talking about my fantasy of being strictly locked up. She seemed slightly disappointed that I wasn’t focusing enough on the treat she gave me internally, though I tried to behave. She left me wearing a butt plug for maybe twenty minutes while I just lay there.

When she came back, I asked her to cuddle beside me and listen to my fantasies from her absence. I told her that if we had a CS-100 right now, I would be begging her to lock it up and keep the key as she pleased. Then I remembered someone praising the CS-100 for being very smooth compared to the CB-6000’s lock, making spooning more comfortable for her. So I offered to massage her however long she wanted, slowly transitioning into an erotic massage before licking her until she had as many orgasms as she liked. Since she likes cuddling after sex, we would spoon with the steel of the CS-100 resting right between her butt cheeks—no poking from my erection or anything like that. These thoughts made me furious because I couldn’t quite convey my enthusiasm to her.

Another fantasy involved her leaving the key in the car or even bringing it home on vacation. When traveling and staying in a shower large enough for two, she could wank me until I come. With the CS-100 securely fitted, perhaps she would stroke my exposed balls and anus with her fingers but allow no chance of release.

After listening to all this for quite some time as it got late, she turned me over and unlocked me. She stroked me while letting myself wank to an orgasm. Right after climaxing, the whole chastity concept felt strange again; I didn’t want to wear the CB-6000 ever again nor buy a metal belt anymore. At that moment, I could fully understand why my fantasies about strict lockup and teasing don’t really appeal to her.

The next morning, however, arousal returned enough for me to think about the metal belt once more—how it would make me feel more submissive and attentive, how I wouldn’t nag every evening wanting release, and how I wouldn’t hesitate to delay massages just because I want relief right then. It is frustrating that chastity holds such huge appeal when I am slightly horny but feels quite alien immediately after climaxing. Perhaps spending the next few afternoons in the CB-6000 will show me what it truly does.

It seems you are telling your girlfriend exactly what you want without asking her preferences. Perhaps if you took more time to ask her what she desires, you might discover that she wants sex more than once a week.

Thanks for the advice. I mean, I always communicate my feelings because it’s important to me. But I fear you're right that I don't listen as well as she does. I will definitely try improving there! By the way, those images together make me really hornier. I wish I were in both pictures! Of course, cunnilingus would happen while wearing the device!