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[Image: image.jpg] I’ve never posted a blog entry before, but I figured I’d give it a try. My lifestyle is quite different from most people here; some might find it interesting while others won’t care.

Since I was around fourteen, I knew I was gay. Being disabled didn’t always define me though. During my late teens and twenties, I also identified as a bottom who prefers to serve rather than be served. This made finding sexual partners easy for me. Learning how to take penetration took some getting used to, so eventually I started using plugs to stretch things out. After about a year of this routine, I became very receptive, and any pain during sex disappeared.

Then I began enjoying CP (cage play) and dressing like a schoolboy while taking caning. I even placed ads in Gay Times introducing myself as a nude cleaner willing to accept cage punishment. That was my life back then.

Suddenly, everything changed for the worse. Within a week, my health declined rapidly, leading me from one hospital to another. Doctors performed tests including a lumbar puncture and diagnosed a spinal infection linked to spina bifida. I haven’t walked since that diagnosis. Now, I have absolutely no sensation in my anal region; my entire backside is numb. The good news is my penis still works perfectly.

I wear diapers and have a permanent catheter with a leg bag attached. To prevent accidents during bowel movements, I use suppositories. No one knows exactly what caused this issue, but they don’t believe it stems from my lifestyle; rather, it seems to be something that has been present since birth.

So here is where things stand today: I employ a personal assistant who visits two or three times daily. He is a Dom and does more than just shower me and clean up after accidents—he loves teasing me and keeping me locked for days at a time. If he knows I have a medical appointment that might involve an examination of my diaper area, he puts me into adult baby diapers decorated with teddy bears, which feels quite embarrassing. However, he does remove the cage when necessary.

I experience frequent pre-cum leakage, so my cage can get messy. As I write this now, sitting in the sun, I am wearing just a nappy over my caged penis. I have been locked since Saturday morning. My current diaper is half-full with urine, meaning any accumulated pre-cum has likely washed away earlier. He helped me shower this morning but left the cage on, so tomorrow it will probably come off for cleaning before being put back on.

Thank you for reading! Please feel free to ask questions; I’ll update as things progress.

Had a wonderful sunny day. My Dom just came over and helped me change into a fresh diaper. When I asked when he would unlock my cage again, he said not yet. The cage will definitely need to come off tomorrow during the shower for a proper cleaning. I really want to touch my penis but must wait.