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I have some follow-up thoughts from my previous message… which I believe clarify why he asked for the unlock, though this has also paused our progress temporarily.

By being dishonest when he directly questioned me (even though he already knew the answer), I broke his trust. I can see how that makes it appear I’m not yet worthy of holding his key until we restore that confidence between us.

This puts things in perspective: I had assumed this journey would focus more on his enjoyment, but now I find myself deeply sad about having hurt him and even sadder because something we were so eager to experience has been pushed aside due to my poor decisions.

I hope he sees that I am worthy of holding his key once more… It is remarkable how this lifestyle isn’t solely about him serving the woman, but also about the KH being reliable and truthful.

> Chesty LaRue said: > I have some follow-up thoughts from my previous message... which I believe clarify why he asked for the unlock, though this has also paused our progress temporarily. > > By being dishonest when he directly questioned me (even though he already knew the answer), I broke his trust. I can see how that makes it appear I’m not yet worthy of holding his key until we restore that confidence between us. > > This puts things in perspective: I had assumed this journey would focus more on his enjoyment, but now I find myself deeply sad about having hurt him and even sadder because something we were so eager to experience has been pushed aside due to my poor decisions. > > I hope he sees that I am worthy of holding his key once more.... It is remarkable how this lifestyle isn't solely about him serving the woman, but also about the KH being reliable and truthful. > Click to expand... It's not merely a click of the lock followed by fun. You are navigating people's feelings, emotions, etc. Good Luck.