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He mentioned one of the rules in our pact that has become a personal favorite. Is it a good rule? It’s part of our agreement: I continue licking even after she reaches climax. She dictates when to stop, and I adore this arrangement. If I move slowly enough after her first peak, I can keep going, sometimes helping her reach one or two more climaxes. Our written pact states that I must persist until she is satisfied. I particularly love it when she comes quickly at the start because then I don’t have to worry about causing her orgasm; instead, I just enjoy what I’m doing without worrying about a specific destination. It brings me true happiness. Recently, she has kept me confined while I surrender myself entirely to her. She makes me massage her beautiful back for an hour or more, and afterwards, often continue licking her for over an hour as well. Sometimes she experiences several climaxes during this time. All of this happens with my cock cage locked. According to our agreement, whenever we engage in any form of sex, I must absolutely expect no sexual relief for myself—not even the slightest hint of it. It is crucial that I have zero expectation of getting off or being unlocked. While there is a physical lock on my member, expecting nothing from her is a mental lock as well. Entering service mode with no expectations protects me from disappointment and feels wonderful. Previously, I was always torn between wanting pleasure for myself and focusing on hers. Now that I know for certain I will receive no personal pleasure (and cannot even ask!), my mind is completely focused on her. This benefits us both greatly. I begin to derive joy from serving her; there is significant satisfaction in being useful. I had missed out on this earlier because I was too busy seeking and giving pleasure simultaneously. Now, every time, the answer is zero for me personally. She does provide some sexual relief voluntarily, not by obligation. She gives what she chooses without owing anything. She could easily skip doing anything for me altogether. She has realized my secret: I get a kinky thrill when she acts selfishly and uses me purely for her own gratification. Often, she simply falls asleep after sex while holding my gently throbbing cage in place. It is sexual pleasure without obligation—she doesn’t have to trade favors or pay me back with interest; it’s free. Being completely unburdened by the need to reciprocate is a gift I can offer her, and honestly, I enjoy it anyway. Sometimes she is tired and just wants an orgasm before bed. She has that freedom. Usually, she starts by saying something like, “Okay, here is what will happen.” Then she might add, “You are going to lick me until I cum, then I will fall asleep while you stay locked up like a good boy. Afterward, take a shower because I know how this makes you drip everywhere.” She even insists that I watch where I’m dripping and has made me wipe it off her if necessary. It amuses her, and I find it fun. She considers herself fairly vanilla sexually but enjoys kinky dynamics like these—I have the list to prove it. One of my top ten sexual experiences ever occurred when she insisted I cum in her mouth and then immediately pulled me into a deep French kiss, forcing us to share my own fluid. Why this resonates so much is beyond me; considering who I am with, that says something. Imagine receiving generous sexual service or a long, deep massage (complete with happy ending) without having to do anything in return unless you simply wish to. What a wonderful gift it would be. My wife has given me that gift enthusiastically, and she can claim it whenever she desires. As I said before, being used for sex brings me pleasure; the cage feels good while she climaxes and refuses to let me unlock even if I wanted to. It requires a specific mindset to truly appreciate this state, but I do. Does anyone else here experience this?