Novices and newbies discussion

It’s been Day 6 of being locked up and Day 10 since my last orgasm. I’m noticing that my emotions and mood swings are quite intense. I swing between feeling wonderful, special, and proud of the progress I’ve made in staying productive, to suddenly feeling inexplicably sad, ashamed, like an outsider, and questioning why I even bother locking myself up at all. I seem much more submissive lately and more tolerant with my partner, though sometimes everything seems to irritate me. My horniness fluctuates too; when it hits its peak, there’s a buzzing energy coursing through me. It doesn’t necessarily make me need to cum right away, but it is incredibly distracting. I felt better (more grounded) last night after using a large dildo on myself while watching porn for some time. Is this… normal? Is it hormonal? Does it get easier/better over time? I’ve been sober for two and a half years, and I haven’t experienced emotions or mood swings this intense since the early days of my sobriety. Has anyone else found growth by pushing through these emotional waves?