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Nanny and I have been in a formal Female-Led Relationship since April 2017. We started the lifestyle as an enjoyable experiment rooted in our deep friendship, sharing plenty of giggles along the way. As we near our one-year anniversary, it’s obvious that Year Two is coming—and beyond… Like many who wear chastity devices, I introduced the concept to Nanny. She found it both intriguing and exciting. At the time, I was self-locking and invited her into my kinky world. Initially a confidant, we soon realized we wanted to explore this path together. We navigated regular dates and shared some early vanilla nights in bed. It was tender and pleasant. However, we discovered ourselves more drawn to the kink than conventional intercourse. After discussing our preferences, we agreed that neither of us wished to pursue a traditional P-in-V couple dynamic. We returned to friendship while staying open and close. Since Nanny had been my housekeeper, she knew about my diaper drawer and satins long before (Can you believe we met on Craigslist for vanilla reasons? What are the odds?). This ten-year period led us to April 2017. One afternoon, we were lounging on the sofa. I was locked and diapered under satin pajama bottoms as usual. Nanny wore skinny jeans and a form-fitting top. Not knowing if I had my own private fantasy (a party for one!), I nervously proposed an FLR to her. She immediately said YES! to becoming my Keyholder, and our FLR began. I was finally in chastity with my eager new KH. During the first few weeks, we focused on setting up the nursery. Nanny adopted the title ‘Nanny’ after insisting that this project get completed. “No more procrastinating,” she declared. “I’ve been hearing about the nursery plan for years, and I want it finished.” I was ecstatic, receiving both encouragement and command to make my kinky life dreams come true. By summer’s end, Nanny had her sissybaby alexa bound in the crib, teasing, spanking, and milking her. alexa has remained locked since then with no further P-in-V silliness. If Nanny has desires, they are met without needing alexa to use her little tinkle. I was thrilled by the approval and encouragement that allowed my sissy side to come alive, while simultaneously wondering if it was all too good to be true. Reassured repeatedly by Nanny, we have settled into our unique dynamic. Being a specialized child care teacher and mother of two means our time together is limited to just a few hours each week. This has given us both space to adapt and test our roles without feeling overwhelmed. I’ve been on the honor system with my devices, which has worked well for the past year. Nanny used to worry about my discomfort in the cage, especially as she teased me and watched the results. Our FLR was new for both of us, but she has always been very considerate of my feelings and comfort. Once she realized I loved being locked up, she started enjoying the empowerment herself. No more pressure on her to be someone’s girlfriend with all its demands on time and sexual access. Our arrangement suited her nicely; she said it made her tingle. She increasingly expressed happiness and arousal at having her very own sissymaid and baby locked in chastity within the nursery. Yesterday, Nanny visited while sissymaid alexa wore a pink satin maid’s dress, 5-inch pansy heels, and a new long curly blonde wig. Nanny absolutely loved it! I measured all of her sizes, and we picked out a new latex outfit for her. By the time she had to leave, we hadn’t played at all. Normally, I get teased and toyed with, spanked and milked before Nanny leaves me in fresh diapers floating in subspace. When I lamented her departure, she remarked, ‘Too bad alexa; you’ll have to wait until next week.’ I think she’s got the hang of it. This week marks the final days of my first year locked and our FLR. As you can see from my profile picture, I have a very special new custom Behind Barz belt that I’ve been secretly breaking in. Nanny will see it for the first time when she opens the big box full of presents I planned for our celebration. I expect my chastity routine to get much more serious in year two…