Introductions discussion

It’s been just over a week since I returned after a long absence back in 2013. Last year, before one of my play sessions, I spent five and a half days locked, which was the longest stretch yet.

The past week has been quite busy. I’ve chatted with several people here, including the lovely Goddess Lucy @L-u-cy.

Last Sunday, I ordered a new device and started talking to friends while connecting with potential Keyholders (KHs) both on this site and fetlife. The community here is wonderful—friendly and supportive!

However, my week truly began when I returned from work away on Friday and found a small package waiting for me: the Holy Trainer v2. I had prepared by shaving, etc., went through all the steps, and proudly admired my newly caged cock.

This wasn’t going to be easy after the buildup all week; you can imagine what I’d been doing until the day before when I gave myself a ruined orgasm. What a mind-bender! I’m hooked. In some ways, this felt worse than being denied. Until locking time arrived, I was horny as hell.

My body is still adjusting. On Day 2, while cycling, my balls slipped out of place, so I downsized by one ring size and now feel comfortable and secure.

Later that night, a potential Mistress from fetlife—who had been messaging me well—reached out. However, wanting to ensure my safety and security, I asked for verification (a photo or Skype call) before things got steamy, not after. Friends on fetlife who reviewed her profile pointed out some red flags: the profile was less than a month old, she only had one grainy face picture, she had joined many groups but none of them were local meetups or munches, and some of her kinks were very sadistic and extreme male fantasies.

I made a polite request for verification and was met with immediate anger and refusal: “one day may be.” Needless to say, I closed that line of communication before anything started. Catfishing is common here, especially among those targeting niche male desires. I felt upset but also relieved that I had spoken up. While some profiles like hers might be genuine, you can really tell the difference!

In my moment of further dilemma and shifting mindset, I removed it for a while and gave myself another ruined orgasm—it felt like falling off the wagon. When I returned to the chatrooms, those who spoke with me were very supportive. They advised that if I am ever lucky enough to serve a real lady and get locked by her desire, continuing self-locking will help prepare me.

So, I’m back in the game!

In this short time here, my conversations have provided me with a wealth of knowledge. I also read two books by @Mistress Jules which were enlightening to the entire world of male chastity. Goddess Lucy has been very kind and intelligent—a beautiful lady who deserves adoration.

To avoid more issues last night, it must have been warm (and unknown to me that the resin used for the HT becomes malleable when heated). The flanges on the base ring separated, causing the lock to pop out. I had noticed earlier before bed they didn’t look aligned properly. So the device was defunct and now off. I wondered if I would have to get another one or if it was too much bother.

I emailed the supplier and received a release. To add insult to injury (and some humiliation for what felt like failure), I inserted a butt plug while waiting. Fortunately, the supplier replied quickly with instructions on how to reshape the base ring using hot and cold water. Great! So I am trying again, but I suspect the barrel lock may be damaged, so the supplier is sending a replacement. For this to happen after just over 60 hours isn’t ideal. Perhaps it’s time for a stainless steel device with a traditional padlock? I am determined to see out the week self-locked in preparation for what lies ahead.

My aim is to become that adoring, hardworking, selfless man who has his own Princess he loves and remains mentally strong enough not to require any device or reminder of whom I love unconditionally. However, reality shows relationships can be a rollercoaster, and a loving FLR may require chastity to get things back on track for however long it takes. Honesty and communication are key: if you cheat (including masturbating without her permission), you aren’t just cheating on her but showing how useless and worthless you are by cheating yourself.

Hope you all enjoyed reading, and I’ll chat soon.

P.S. Potential successor to my HT,