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I’m composing a blog post regarding my life in chastity, covering both the challenges and the good moments. Please forgive any grammatical errors; I am not a native speaker. on tumblr: your-caged-dog «I find myself struggling because I can’t yet determine whether this state of chastity is merely replacing waning passion with a tool of repression that men who desperately need an orgasm require, or if the long-term control over male libido will eventually lead to indifference for both partners. After a demanding work week, personal exhaustion feels overwhelming, particularly within a long-standing marriage. It’s day after day: kids, job, family dinner at six, washing soiled clothes. A hamster in its wheel. Often, the passion fades from daily married life like a postcard left out in the sun; only those pale yellow and cyan hues remain as leftovers. One day, my husband grew weary of watching porn and masturbating to silicone breasts. Meanwhile, she was cleaning the lint filter on the tumble dryer—a gray layer of dust collected during the week’s washes. Its scent is fresh, feeling soft between her fingers like a newborn baby’s skin, with that typical rose fragrance from laundry powder, though its color is gray speckled with red bits. Regardless, he approached her and asked if she could place him in a chastity device while holding his keys to add some spice to their sexuality. The shift from masturbation to denial in chastity is clear; cleaning the filter will become something husbands do more often in the coming years. Smell those fresh roses. I have realized that my love for her ensures I remain in permanent chastity during her absences as long as we stay together. This has been confirmed over the last eight weeks. It’s no longer a game; it is her lifestyle. At airport security, I had to wait until she sent the code to unlock the keybox. Once I removed the device and passed through authorities, she texted me: “you know what you have to do.” These moments, after being caged 24/7 for a week, remind me that those rare times when she lets me out are just those ten minutes during security checks. I am slowly getting used to my new life in chastity. It isn’t only the denial of masturbation; it also limits how freely I can travel. I have to organize my existence around this cage, focusing on why I do it: comfort is secondary to submission. She picked me up at the airport and drove us home. After we hung our coats, her beauty hit me hard as she presented herself to me. She was dressed stylishly in a tight black pullover, sleek black pants with no underwear, a black leather belt around her waist, high heels, and her lovely hair tied back in a ponytail, complemented by subtle yet perfect makeup. She looked so sexy; she did it all for my sake. We sat at the table sipping wine, glass in hand. On her wrist was her signature black leather bracelet which she never omits when going out. The silver chain that always accompanies it—the one holding the key to my lock—was missing that evening.»