Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Master has been acting quite dominant lately and I am really enjoying it. He seems to have seized more control, allowing me less leeway than before. I’m starting to feel deeply submissive and aroused, finding pleasure in serving even though we haven’t engaged in much play yet. This is where the trouble can start: as I sink deeper into my sub space, my horniness grows, making me want to submit even more. I shared a recent fantasy with Master since he took charge again. However, I worry that by telling him about it, I might have somehow ruined the point. Most of my fantasies center on his control and some form of humiliation where he forces me to do something out of character. Master seemed very keen on this idea, so I went online today and purchased the necessary items to make it happen. Yet, I felt conflicted. Even though Master is enthusiastic about it, if I am the one suggesting the fantasy and buying the props, doesn’t that mean I’m fully compliant in what should be a forced humiliation? On the flip side, how will he know what to do with me if I don’t voice my fantasies? His descriptions while I was pleasuring him drove me wild with desire, so now I wait anxiously to see where this leads. My submission makes me crave control and pushes me to want Master to go further. This could come through teasing, torment, or ideally humiliation. The more I submit, the more I want my devotion tested. It’s difficult balancing subtly offering ideas without topping from the bottom.

Kris plants the idea but refrains from purchasing the necessary items yourself. Leave that responsibility to your Master so you avoid topping from the bottom. After all, if we don't voice our desires to those above us, how can they possibly know? They aren't mind readers like some of us might wish.

> Slave_Kris said: > On the other hand though, if I don’t tell Master what I fantasise about how will he ever know what he should do to me. His description whilst I was pleasuring him drove me wild with desire and I wait to see where this will go. > My submission makes me crave control and makes me want Master to push me further. This could be by tease, torture or best of all humiliation. The more I submit the more I want my submission to be tested. It can be tough subtly giving ideas and not topping from the bottom. > Click to expand... I believe this is the most crucial part of your post. In a relationship, good communication is essential. Expressing what you desire matters greatly. I am sure Master has his own thoughts on the matter. You will only end up topping from the bottom if you neglect to fulfill his desires as well.

It really is a fine line. I find it incredibly annoying when my pet mentions something in passing, only for me to go ahead and prepare everything, just for him to remind me the day before I was ready to execute the plan! However, your situation unfolded quite rapidly. You brought it up, Master agreed, and you (likely due to excitement and helpfulness) ordered what was needed.... now simply take a breath. When the items arrive, hand them over to Master and keep quiet! This will return control to him and prevent any awkward issues. How does that sound? Looking long-term, it is perfectly fine to mention an idea, but then try to leave the execution in your Master's hands. (You are very much like my pet; you get too excited and impatient!)

> Mistress Watchful said: > (You're just like pet, you get too excited and impatient!) > Click to expand... That is very true; I do tend to become overly excited. Master's detailed descriptions during his teasing don't help matters either, as he is excellent at getting me all worked up. Thank you all for your comments xx

Slave_Kris, I relate to this problem. Often I find myself wanting deeper submission and taking every small thing my wife says or does and magnifying it, growing impatient and craving more kink. A few weeks ago we discussed minor things she can do that require little effort from her—just telling me what to do rather than active participation. I made a substantial list but feel she may have forgotten it. I hesitate to remind her because I don't want to seem like I'm pushing, yet at the same time, I start feeling as though she isn't quite as invested in our dynamic as I am (last week was particularly tough for me, although we discussed that). Regardless, hang in there and practice patience. Your Master has your best interests at heart and will always look after you. Just allow him to proceed in his own time while keeping communication open so he understands both what you want and what you need.