Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I thought I ought to share this here as part of why I’ve stopped Keyholding for now… Thanks to everyone who has already come forward with love and support. This should help clarify the questions you’ve been asking.

“We’ve seen this place before.” – you put it yourself last weekend. Although… I had no clue it applied to our situation as well. Sadly, it does. This message will likely be brief since I’m still sorting through everything… but I need to write some of this down while I can so it doesn’t slip away. It’s been one of the toughest weekends of My life. After finishing my coffee on Monday morning, I realized that after spending these last few days clearing out (some of) your hidden issues, My daily routine will be totally different. I don’t think you realize how far the consequences of what you’ve done can reach—and they do. Greeting the people in the morning as usual felt so… out of place. So, I didn’t. And I still haven’t, apart from a vague statement that I’m not holding this key for you anymore – on a site you barely visit. Every time I look at my texts, it serves as a reminder of a gloom. An unwanted shadow. One that seems impossible for you to release. Why? I am here with you, and always have been. I truly don’t know why you won’t give yourself completely to Me. But I can’t keep begging for your openness. It’s tiring. The harmony we create together is sweet in every way. Mostly it flows naturally. You are such a lovely person to Me and so many others nearby. Our bond is beautiful too. I just don’t get why you would risk everything for something so hollow and hurtful. Nor do I understand how you can undermine and gaslight Me without any guilt… while your actions have opened our marriage without My permission. Whether it’s physical or mental, it makes no fucking difference. I am the only one sticking to the rules. Our vows. Something is seriously wrong here. Thankfully… despite some of the humiliation involved, I’ve managed to release some of the panic and confusion I felt over the past 48 hours. I owe this gratitude to family and friends I’ve met in both everyday life and across this vast web. I appreciate every single one of you who has given Me (and us) support along the way. Especially now. Deep down, I know… especially after talking with all of you… no matter what happens between us, I will be alright. I will endure, whatever comes.

> Breathe said: > I thought I ought to share this here as part of why I’ve stopped Keyholding for now... Thanks to everyone who has already come forward with love and support. This should help clarify the questions you've been asking. > --- > “We’ve seen this place before.” – you put it yourself last weekend. Although… I had no clue it applied to our situation as well. Sadly, it does. This message will likely be brief since I’m still sorting through everything… but I need to write some of this down while I can so it doesn’t slip away. > It’s been one of the toughest weekends of My life. After finishing my coffee on Monday morning, I realized that after spending these last few days clearing out (some of) your hidden issues, My daily routine will be totally different. > I don’t think you realize how far the consequences of what you’ve done can reach—and they do. > Greeting the people in the morning as usual felt so… out of place. So, I didn't. And I still haven’t, apart from a vague statement that I’m not holding this key for you anymore – on a site you barely visit. > Every time I look at my texts, it serves as a reminder of a gloom. An unwanted shadow. One that seems impossible for you to release. > **Why?** > I am here with you, and always have been. I truly don’t know why you won’t give yourself completely to Me. But I can’t keep begging for your openness. It’s tiring. > The harmony we create together is sweet in every way. Mostly it flows naturally. You are such a lovely person to Me and so many others nearby. Our bond is beautiful too. > I just don’t get why you would risk everything for something so hollow and hurtful. Nor do I understand how you can undermine and gaslight Me without any guilt… while your actions have opened our marriage without My permission. > Whether it’s physical or mental, it makes no fucking difference. > I am the only one sticking to the rules. Our vows. > Something is seriously wrong here. > Thankfully… despite some of the humiliation involved, I’ve managed to release some of the panic and confusion I felt over the past 48 hours. I owe this gratitude to family and friends I’ve met in both everyday life and across this vast web. I appreciate every single one of you who has given Me (and us) support along the way. Especially now. > Deep down, I know… especially after talking with all of you… no matter what happens between us, I will be alright. > I will endure, whatever comes. > Click to expand... Sorry to hear that there are issues open for you to get sorted.