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Here’s the background… I’ve been into BDSM for a good while now. When I finally worked up the nerve to tell my wife ‘L’ (who was my girlfriend back then) about it… well, she actually caught me browsing BDSM porn and I told her everything. We started experimenting with whips, clamps, toys, and strap-on play (I was too terrified to use them myself lol). I liked what we were doing but could see that L was mostly just going along for my sake; it wasn’t necessarily thrilling her as much. She’s a wonderful wife who always insisted she enjoyed seeing how happy it made me. We kept at it, though eventually time wore us down and we returned to vanilla sex (which, by the way, is fantastic). She’d tease me with her feet and occasionally trample my cock while I licked them—she knew foot worship was one of my biggest kinks—but that was pretty much the extent of our BDSM activities. I went back to watching porn and stumbled upon chastity and Cuckolding. It really caught my eye. I started diving into POV videos about chastity, cuckolding, and being a true slave to a woman. That got me excited. While I like the physical discipline aspect, this felt different; I knew right then that it was my kink. About 18 months ago, I brought up Cuckolding with my wife. We had great sex that night while she explained what she wanted to do with other men. The next morning, however, she seemed less enthusiastic about the idea. Then it happened… About three months ago, we started browsing dating sites for couples or individuals (men or women) to play with. L admitted she feels more at ease with Cuckolding and has been thinking a lot about it lately. She updated her profile to seek out men and can even play solo!!!! She’s been chatting with quite a few guys… Our journey begins here. After wading through thousands of messages while I was worshipping her feet, she narrowed it down to two or three potential partners. Whenever I was around during these chats, she’d want me between her legs or massaging and adoring her feet. Once those conversations wrapped up, I would get my turn with her. Last week, she set up a date for two weeks from now. L told me that until the meeting is over and he has his way with her, I am not allowed to cum at all… I suggested getting a cage for when I’m on my own or whenever L decides to lock me away. I ordered one along with a new strap-on in case I failed or she just wanted some fun play between us (check the Kinks - Other Fetishes - Anal Play thread to see how that went down). It arrived a couple of days later. I don’t wear it full-time because family life is so busy, but I keep it on every night and whenever I’m home alone. Since being denied/caged, she has stepped into her role beautifully. I now handle most of the household chores and massage her feet every evening (if I behave well, I get to worship them). This past Sunday, she wanted an orgasm. I went down on her and made her cum multiple times. She then asked me to fuck her but under no circumstances was I allowed to climax… It was difficult and quite painful, but I held out. That night, the dynamic repeated itself, though this time she told me I had to thrust hard and not stop until she finished… This time around, my resistance wasn’t as strong… Now, I cannot touch myself at all until that specific day arrives. However, I have a feeling her punishment hasn’t ended there yet…