Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I signed up earlier this year and while I managed to find some time to lurk (shame on me), life got in the way of sitting down to actually post. It brings it back, though: Mistress Kent, may I apologize for not replying to your welcome message last May.

Now, conversely, life has conspired against me again without going into specifics, but at least I now have the time to participate more fully.

I’d say my recent experience of being denied over the past two years was slightly different from many others described on this site. We could only meet once or sometimes twice a week. Very few whole nights and just two weekends did we spend together. Regarding our sex life, I took the lead in most aspects—not all, but most—just as much as possible. With one exception of course: although I was allowed out often, it was Adele who decided when that happened, and she also decided whether or not I would be permitted to fully show my feelings and lust for her. It was always her call on whether I got an orgasm. Adele, on the other hand, had many opportunities; I do mean many. Our time together was so limited we really made it count. We were either sleeping, eating, or making love.

Many times upon our parting, having been denied, I felt completely content and satisfied despite still being as horny as hell. Just seeing the delight, that impish glee on her face when she clicked the lock shut was a reward in itself, whether I had cummed or not.

Because our time was so limited and our over-nights were far between, we really made the most of them—no worldly distractions or interruptions, just us being together doing what we do.

What used to confuse me was that although I really wanted to cum if the period of denial had been short, I felt almost disappointed afterward. There would be a period of maybe 3 or 4 days where I’d feel flat for want of a better word. Whereas when I was denied and those periods gradually stretched out, I felt charged all the time. Almost any little thing would set off an attempt at growth within the cage. That would instantly remind me that I was locked, who I was locked for and by, and that I was locked because I wanted to be denied to save myself for her. Very confusing but a very wonderful time. The more I wanted her, the more I wanted her to deny me; and the more she denied me, the more I wanted her. Thankfully, as much for my sanity as anything else, she would never completely deny me for too long.

I do not expect my search for a significant other to be easy or short, but I look forward to the day we find each other, knowing that wait will have been worthwhile for both of us.

Thanks for sharing such a great update on your situation. Best of luck to you! Mikecb

I really enjoyed reading your post, Filltee. Thanks. It’s wonderful having the feelings related to chastity articulated so well;)