Introductions discussion

Greetings everyone, I’m questioning whether I truly fit in here, but if I lay out my circumstances as truthfully as possible, it might be useful. I am a married submissive male aged 37. My wife is unaware of my submissive and fetish inclinations. She goes away for one or two weeks several times each year; back then, I used to crossdress frequently, possessed a striking maid costume, and would show up on webcam as a submissive for viewers. Roughly a year ago, I underwent a purge because I hoped it would end the guilt associated with crossdressing and going live on webcam. Since that time, whenever she is away, I find myself either watching online porn or chatting on phone sex lines constantly. Every time I climax, guilt sets in, yet my willpower is low, so I fall back into the same cycle within just a couple of hours. I understand that suppressing my submissive urges would be nearly impossible, but I am hoping that wearing chastity during her absences will prevent masturbation and ease the guilt while still permitting those submissive feelings to exist. I guess I have come here for advice and to see if locking myself in chastity while she is away would actually help. Also, any ideas you might have on how best to approach this are welcome. For instance, could online keyholders who monitor and hold the key be a good option? One thought of mine was perhaps freezing the key inside an ice cube; that way I can retrieve it if there’s an emergency, though it would remain quite hard to access. Right, I suppose I had best stop going on now David

have you brought any of this up with your wife? you never know, she might appreciate your feelings, maybe not all of them but at least some.

Unfortunately whenever I have brought up kinky topics, she tends to pull away. She comes from a very conservative background

Is it possible you could conceal the key on her somewhere before she departs? Pin it inside some luggage or leave it in her car where she won't spot it if she drives.

I would love to attempt that, but since this is my first time in chastity I might need the key accessible if the fit isn't quite right. Also because she doesn't know about it, I couldn't put it on before she leaves and take it off after she returns

You need the Timelock program to secure your key. Then a remote keyholder could control you. Or is it really control that you're after?

I suppose I hadn't truly considered the distinction between chastity and control. I think what drew me to considering chastity was that it offers a way for me to be controlled by a Mistress.

welcome to the club:) without aiming for ever-expanding chaste periods, I consider chastity just another form of control as well. But honestly speaking, the difference isn't that large...